i think i am depressed and have a shopping problem.
i tend to be miserable more often that not lately, and leads to me being short with people, caught off-guard, and even more awkward and uncomfortable than i usually am. the littlest things really set me off or drive me into a depressed state. these all lead to me being more miserable.
for example, tonight, one email was the catalyst, and i became completely unhappy with everything in my current life. then i opened my eli manning jersey i bought off ebay, and i was really fucking happy. this was mainly because it was an excellent product for a great price, since last time i bought a jersey off ebay (last week) i was sorely disappointed and ended up returning it.
anyway, this goes to prove my shopping problem. shopping somehow makes me happy. i used to hate shopping, but just the hope of finding something awesome for a good price makes me excited. i guess it's not a bad habit to have if you don't buy too often.
either way, i think the fact that i can become so happy or sad in such a short period of time is indicative of an underlying problem, that i really need to resolve. the problem is i think it's one (or more) of three things, all of which would be life-altering decisions to make.
here's to life, i guess.
for example, tonight, one email was the catalyst, and i became completely unhappy with everything in my current life. then i opened my eli manning jersey i bought off ebay, and i was really fucking happy. this was mainly because it was an excellent product for a great price, since last time i bought a jersey off ebay (last week) i was sorely disappointed and ended up returning it.
anyway, this goes to prove my shopping problem. shopping somehow makes me happy. i used to hate shopping, but just the hope of finding something awesome for a good price makes me excited. i guess it's not a bad habit to have if you don't buy too often.
either way, i think the fact that i can become so happy or sad in such a short period of time is indicative of an underlying problem, that i really need to resolve. the problem is i think it's one (or more) of three things, all of which would be life-altering decisions to make.
here's to life, i guess.