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i guess sunday night is my miss tams night... i dunno but it always seems to be the most on nights like these. i think by this time junior year i had already gotten adjusted to being at tams and not at home. i still miss tams a lot, and quite often. especially when i listen to bush - swallowed (second semester junior year). or blue october - calling you (first semseter senior). or a million other songs. i wish i had a lake lewisville here, or all of dentons parks. i had a dream the other night... it was really weird, i was sitting on a balcony thing or something with one of the RAs here and jenny and steve walked by holding hands and they were going to a party or something, and jenny was like 6 months pregnant, but it was completely normal. other weird stuff happened in the dream, but it mostly involves people from here, though erika was in it too. i dont know why i get so sad when i think about tams, why cant i be that happy here? i feel like i may have made the wrong decision in coming here... ive been avoiding that question all semester, but i feel like id be a lot happier at UT... i should have just gone there, we all should have just gone there. why didnt someone tell us last year that it wouldnt be worth splitting up from all your friends just to go to a "prestigious" school. i dont know if i would have believed them... but i guess ive come to realize that friendships are much more important than schools. i cant belive i only got to spend 2 years with people from tams, only one year as good friends probably. thats just not enough time.