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"Sometimes your just not OK
You level out, level out, level out
It's not alright now...You need to understand
There's nothing strange about this"
This is me trying to be better! Things at work are not getting better, only worse. This has seriously been a bad week. Busiest weekend of the year. But that wasnt the bad part, staffing sucked, and the staffing we did have sucked ass most of the time. But hey, whatever. This is what CP should have known was going to happen when they lowered the bonus and continued to treat their employees like crap.
Whatever, im just here still for the reference and so I can work at Castaway. I dont think I am going to like it there, and I already have a few backup plans, so thats good. As for the rest of the summer I feel like I have Senioritis... like its the last few weeks of high school and you know that you are not going to be back next year and you just dont fucking care anymore. Thats me. I'm. Simply, DONE.
Ive reached my goal, ive hit a million, now its all just about getting my bonus and finishing the season. So I am thinking about demoting myself, seriously. If I am not running my crew the way that management wants it run then they can do it themselves. Cause Im done pleasing them, the rest of the summer season is about mildly enjoying myself and NOT making my stomach problems worse. If I keep going the way I am going for the next 3 weekends I am going to end up in the hospital AGAIN, for the second time this summer because of stress.
This is the only way I can get any of this out, by writing it all out. No one else will let me, and understand 100 percent. No one gets it, and if they pretend they do they are lying. I think that is a very cynical view, but oh well.
Today was a good (and free!) day. Heather called me and wanted to know if i wanted to go to Kalahari with her, she had free passes. So we did that for a few hours, got wore out and then I got an application. I might work in the NIA center if I can get Thanksgiving and Xmas off. After that we went to Coldstone and got ice cream with the free coupons I got from ride night... All in all it was a great use of a Monday I think.
So now I am sitting listening to a lot of Our Lady Peace generally thinking about my life. There are going to be a lot of changes going on in my life and I think I am ready for them to happen, because in the end it is going to make me a much happier person. I am bound and determined to get a job I love, even if it means trying things, and having the courage to leave if I dont like it. I have never quit a job before, mostly cause I didnt want to screw anyone over, but in the end I just ended up screwing MYSELF over. Oh well, I suppose one day I will figure things out and they will all fall into place.
Thats all for now.
You level out, level out, level out
It's not alright now...You need to understand
There's nothing strange about this"
This is me trying to be better! Things at work are not getting better, only worse. This has seriously been a bad week. Busiest weekend of the year. But that wasnt the bad part, staffing sucked, and the staffing we did have sucked ass most of the time. But hey, whatever. This is what CP should have known was going to happen when they lowered the bonus and continued to treat their employees like crap.
Whatever, im just here still for the reference and so I can work at Castaway. I dont think I am going to like it there, and I already have a few backup plans, so thats good. As for the rest of the summer I feel like I have Senioritis... like its the last few weeks of high school and you know that you are not going to be back next year and you just dont fucking care anymore. Thats me. I'm. Simply, DONE.
Ive reached my goal, ive hit a million, now its all just about getting my bonus and finishing the season. So I am thinking about demoting myself, seriously. If I am not running my crew the way that management wants it run then they can do it themselves. Cause Im done pleasing them, the rest of the summer season is about mildly enjoying myself and NOT making my stomach problems worse. If I keep going the way I am going for the next 3 weekends I am going to end up in the hospital AGAIN, for the second time this summer because of stress.
This is the only way I can get any of this out, by writing it all out. No one else will let me, and understand 100 percent. No one gets it, and if they pretend they do they are lying. I think that is a very cynical view, but oh well.
Today was a good (and free!) day. Heather called me and wanted to know if i wanted to go to Kalahari with her, she had free passes. So we did that for a few hours, got wore out and then I got an application. I might work in the NIA center if I can get Thanksgiving and Xmas off. After that we went to Coldstone and got ice cream with the free coupons I got from ride night... All in all it was a great use of a Monday I think.
So now I am sitting listening to a lot of Our Lady Peace generally thinking about my life. There are going to be a lot of changes going on in my life and I think I am ready for them to happen, because in the end it is going to make me a much happier person. I am bound and determined to get a job I love, even if it means trying things, and having the courage to leave if I dont like it. I have never quit a job before, mostly cause I didnt want to screw anyone over, but in the end I just ended up screwing MYSELF over. Oh well, I suppose one day I will figure things out and they will all fall into place.
Thats all for now.