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I feel bad.
My mom has always said that if I ever need anything, to let her know. And she's talking anything. I need money and I can't bring myself to ask her. I spent $100 on 2 pairs of shoes this weekend cus I needed new ones for racquetball and new ones for everyday use. Like, she even said, If I ever needed shoes or clothes or anything, to let her know and we'd go shopping.
Now I have $272 dollars to get me through 2 weeks. I'm super anal and never let my bank account go below or near $50. I overdrew once, I'm never doing it again. I spend entirely too much money and I want to ask my mom for some cash, but I can't do it. Maybe it's because I want to be more independent. Maybe it's because I think I can manage on my own because I am working almost 30 hours a week. Maybe because I'm getting older and I don't live at home, I want to become less dependent on others, especially my mom. I guess that's just me. I don't ever feel comfortable borrowing from others.
Now I know that if I ever mention anything about not having money to my mom, she'll yell at me for not asking for money. It's happened before.
I dunno, maybe I just want to prove to her that I can make it on my own.
Whatever, I'm tired.
Sleeeeep.
My mom has always said that if I ever need anything, to let her know. And she's talking anything. I need money and I can't bring myself to ask her. I spent $100 on 2 pairs of shoes this weekend cus I needed new ones for racquetball and new ones for everyday use. Like, she even said, If I ever needed shoes or clothes or anything, to let her know and we'd go shopping.
Now I have $272 dollars to get me through 2 weeks. I'm super anal and never let my bank account go below or near $50. I overdrew once, I'm never doing it again. I spend entirely too much money and I want to ask my mom for some cash, but I can't do it. Maybe it's because I want to be more independent. Maybe it's because I think I can manage on my own because I am working almost 30 hours a week. Maybe because I'm getting older and I don't live at home, I want to become less dependent on others, especially my mom. I guess that's just me. I don't ever feel comfortable borrowing from others.
Now I know that if I ever mention anything about not having money to my mom, she'll yell at me for not asking for money. It's happened before.
I dunno, maybe I just want to prove to her that I can make it on my own.
Whatever, I'm tired.
Sleeeeep.