love is the red that grows on your coffin door
Hmmm. I haven't updated since october and I guess the only thing making me update is well Brandon and things I feel like I can't tell her myself. I think it's been so long since I've had a situation like this that well I have no idea how to go about saying things. Everything just felt so much better prior to March 2nd and well for 2 months I was happy. Happier than I had been in well a long time since before 10th grade. Just something about her, something unexplainable. It's all still there and we could have it all again, it's just a matter of mutual agreement. Everything says go for me, it just takes two. The last thing I could want is for us to amount to nothing again because when we were something it was everything you could ever hope for in a relationship. I was reading a girls away message today one of the ones where it's all like perfect and something you always wish for..well it said:
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,
who wants to show you off to the world
when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."
We had that.
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,
who wants to show you off to the world
when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."
We had that.