Jan 22, 2009 02:19
Until tonight, I never realized how slighted I feel not being able to marry the person I love. I, of course, always believed in the right of gay marriage, but tonight I found out that one of my best friends from high school got engaged. She's going to be married this summer. And it hit home how my relationship with Zane, no matter how much love we have for each other or how long we're together, will never be recognized as the same meaningful relationship a straight couple has.
And you hear all those silly gay rights activists saying how they're treated like second class citizens, and it never struck home until now. Now that I found someone I want to be with for the rest of my life. And the best thing I can have is some silly fake ceremony that is only bells and whistles and no meat.
It's just not right.
My ex Cody is having an "engagement party" with his boyfriend next Friday. I don't know what to think about this. It feels fake. Meaningless. Superficial.
So what? You both wear a ring and call each other your husband? But what happens when one is terminally sick and you can't visit? Or all the other scenarios. Kids. Whatever.
I still feel uncomfortable holding Zane's hand in public for fear that someone will try to hurt one of us.
I hope those straight people don't take this shit for granted. Seriously.
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