Lesbian Aristocracy
"nevermind my bein' alone, that's just a dream I had when I was at home." Perfectly dreary, beautifully miserable. Did I ever tell you how your music makes me want to cry and scratch all at the same time. I only feel it when it's quiet though. I'm learning to harmonize. I'm trying. It's hard. I'm getting better/fatter. Fat, fat, fat, full of ideology. Dreams, imagery, it's all crowding in my belly. I was thinking about it, and I would have a baby for you if you wanted me to. "best of friends." Have I been paying attention to you enough? I don't think so. Quiet quiet quiet shhh loving. I won't ever drop you again. I just thought you were stronger. Grow, keep growing, and we'll see. Sex, why do you say that? I thought first it was more important, but then no. but you. you you you, of course not you, you hate you and the superficial. I signed up for more responsibility today. I'm terrified of where am I going? somewhere.
I don't think I'm ready to be an adult just yet. less than a week now. 6 days not counting today. Today never counts. Only small children are learning to count. to count on you, to count on me and the trees. Did I seem disappointed? I tried not to, but sometimes I'm counterproductive and I'm a mirror. Something about a mirror. Dante! Her eyes were a mirror to her soul, he saw. Poor little Beatrice did you not know you were a muse, amusing, ?
Funny I should lose my childhood today when it's too early for that. It was in a bracelet that used to come unhooked all the time "ma'am, i lost my maidenhood" never never it's not there, it's in a bracelet. I'm not awfully sure it's worth finding. Drink all gone. They tell you too many things. Too, too many things on the doors of bathrooms in your face. pictures, cell phones, cameras,