Tuesday 8/19/2014
Work fine.
Spent the whole evening relaxing in the living room with mom and deed, just chatting. That was so nice. Made spaghetti and garlic bread for dinner.
Smee likes to flop in the kitchen when people are cooking. Basically, he likes being in the way as much as felinely possible.
A nice night.
Also, I looked damn good today.
I love the print on this dress. It's all classic American tattoo flash.
And the dress (and bra from heaven) make my boobs look deceptively big. The dress is super flattering, and I don't usually wear red, but this dress is amazing.
Adrienne invited me me to an As game on Friday with her and her fiancé and their families. That'll be super fun! Lolz if I ran into Jimmy's friends there, the ones I thought always didn't like me. They have As season tickets. Chances are slim but that would be amusing. I'd be lovely and nice and happy and friendly. I miss all his friends, really. I miss him. We haven't talked in like three weeks. It's really weird. It's still a compulsion for me to want to tell him things. Mostly just little silly things that aren't a big deal. But I just can't open that door right now. I don't know if ever. I guess maybe some day I would like to be able to talk to him even if it is just superficial silly stuff. But I just don't want it to hurt more than it's worth. That's a hard balance to find. I don't know if I'll ever be able to go there. I'm just too angry at him for being a stupid pathetic immature manchild that broke my heart. Ugh.
I wanna work on sorting some of the stuff in my room tomorrow. I really need to sort my drawers. Organizing and getting rid of stuff always feels so good and positive.
A little note to my lovely friend speaksoftlylove who is dealing with a lot of hard stuff right now. You're in my thoughts girl. Send some good vibes/thoughts/prayers her way if you can. <3
Nighty night.
xoxo
Spent the whole evening relaxing in the living room with mom and deed, just chatting. That was so nice. Made spaghetti and garlic bread for dinner.
Smee likes to flop in the kitchen when people are cooking. Basically, he likes being in the way as much as felinely possible.
A nice night.
Also, I looked damn good today.
I love the print on this dress. It's all classic American tattoo flash.
And the dress (and bra from heaven) make my boobs look deceptively big. The dress is super flattering, and I don't usually wear red, but this dress is amazing.
Adrienne invited me me to an As game on Friday with her and her fiancé and their families. That'll be super fun! Lolz if I ran into Jimmy's friends there, the ones I thought always didn't like me. They have As season tickets. Chances are slim but that would be amusing. I'd be lovely and nice and happy and friendly. I miss all his friends, really. I miss him. We haven't talked in like three weeks. It's really weird. It's still a compulsion for me to want to tell him things. Mostly just little silly things that aren't a big deal. But I just can't open that door right now. I don't know if ever. I guess maybe some day I would like to be able to talk to him even if it is just superficial silly stuff. But I just don't want it to hurt more than it's worth. That's a hard balance to find. I don't know if I'll ever be able to go there. I'm just too angry at him for being a stupid pathetic immature manchild that broke my heart. Ugh.
I wanna work on sorting some of the stuff in my room tomorrow. I really need to sort my drawers. Organizing and getting rid of stuff always feels so good and positive.
A little note to my lovely friend speaksoftlylove who is dealing with a lot of hard stuff right now. You're in my thoughts girl. Send some good vibes/thoughts/prayers her way if you can. <3
Nighty night.
xoxo