Box
I had Jimmy give the box of all my stuff to a mutual friend.
I got the box this morning. Autumn and Kyle brought it out to me. Kyle helped me put it in the trunk then held me when I started to cry. Nuzzled my head. Told me it would be okay. Autumn said that I would be better off without Jimmy.
Spent the day with Vanessa. Who I met through Jimmy. She's really nice. She let me talk and bitch and cry a little. Was so understanding and encouraging. She's really nice. Relaxing to spend time just hanging out with her all day.
I admitted to Vanessa when we were talking about Autumn and Kyle's weird relationship that I think he and I would be well suited for each other. We would. I don't wish them to break up, but if they did, I would make a move on him. He has a lot of qualities that I want. And he's tall and blonde and has great hair. And gives amazing hugs. And is a very good boyfriend.
Yeah, I've always had feelings for him. I guess I don't feel as bad about it now. Still do a bit.
It was sad getting that box back. I brought it in my room and unpacked it as quickly as possible and put the box with the recycling in the garage. It was really sad. I didn't cry. But I will soon. I need a hug. I know I'll cry a lot tonight. Getting that stuff back was a hard kind of last step in ending the relationship. So sad.