i love it...now make me hate it

[jeepjamie32]

i dont like working my life away
never have, never will
i really hope i can get that WBRU internship
cause i would enjoy doing that
and it would be a nice change

i go for interview next wednesday

tonihgt, im massively bored
worked 10-6 and then jsut ate and coughed

i wanna do something...without doing anything
make sense?
i dunno...i'd like to just curl up and watch a movie
i'd really like to curl up with someone and watch a movie
i guess i'll ahve to settle for my favorite blanket

i've decided that burger king/taunton in general, makes me insecure
when i was in NH, i felt on top of the world for those last 3 weeks
i dont really know why this is
i just feel like ive gradually gotten bleh-er and bleh-er since i been back
i wanna go back to NH and feel alive
i want ben to be there...or here...

i feel weird cuz i feel like i like him more than i should
and even tho nothign changes from day to day
each day i end up thinkin more and more that i want him
but he's down in FL gettin drunk with his buds...
he's not sitting down there thinking "i want her more and more each day"

i suck...wooo

my hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me
so wont you kill me
so i'll die happy