The Girl who cried LOVE
STUPID L-O-V-E
Yes, I admit, I’ve been through FOUR relationships already (plus one when I was in kinder). Among those, only two were REAL and serious, at least for me that is. I am as experienced as any other seventeen year old girl in the world. The fact that I went to an exclusive school contributes to the way I think. If there’s a girl who knows how boys think, that would probably be ME! I know how they feel, how they act around girls, and how they hide the truth. Why is this so? Probably because I have some experience with girls as well.
When I was in grade school, grade four to be exact, there was this person who caught my attention. Since then, he became my crush. During my first relationship (I excluded my puppy love), my infatuation didn’t disappear, even until I reached high school. We never talked when we were in elementary. I am a complete STRANGER to him. He barely knows my name! All my friends and classmates know that I have a crush on him though. Even his classmates know! After five years, thanks to my best friend, we had a chance to talk. She gave me his number, but AS A GIRL, I didn’t want to text first, so he was the first to make a move. I was surprised to know that I was no stranger to him. We ask some questions, get to know one another, but sadly, he’s committed to a good-for-nothing two-timer bitch. That time, they were having problems, so I was the one who comforted him. I gave him some advice and a little encouragement, though it breaks my heart. He was a martyr to that girl as I am to him. I wanted to make him realize that he could dump that girl and I’ll openly accept him. I didn’t to that. I COULDN’T! I know he loves her so much even though she takes him for granted. So whenever they have problems, he’d come crying to me. If he says “I love you” or just act weird, it means their relationship is not doing well. I know him better than anyone else, given a short period of time. I’ll tell him how DUMB he is for not letting go, but eventually I’ll say that things would work out soon. I brought one of my friends to their school and I introduced her to him. WRONG MOVE! To my astonishment, he had an instant CRUSH on her. That’s just SHIT! Again, I helped him. I gave him her number, let them be friends etc. etc. But there were no developments actually. When I reached fourth year, I wasn’t that updated about his love life anymore.
Entrance exams here and there and the results were already out. I eagerly told him I passed this and that school, and he was happy for me. One thing that affected me so much was when he said that he wouldn’t be staying here and would go to another country soon. I was dumbfounded. That was really unexpected. I realized my time was over, and there’s no more chance for me, for US! I have to STOP. College, it wasn’t anything like I expected. So we’re friends for two years and FINALLY some progress could happen. One day I saw his girl walking around the campus with another boy. I was about to report it to him, but then he started acting weird again. I was given compliments every where. I know that behavior, and so I thought. One time, we met in my school, and we had a nice talk. When I told him what I saw and asked him how things were going, he said they were not together anymore. WELL THAT’S NEW! At last! But sadness and pity were the first things I felt after hearing that. FRIENDS FIRST before my feelings, that is one of my low-brained principles. He started saying “If you grow up a little bit more, I might consider you…” and “I’ll make you a real girl.” DAMN! I was so irritated. Was he making fun of me? I let it pass.
The next day, we unexpectedly went to the mall together and he treated me for a movie. When I got home, he confessed to me. Again, I was flabbergasted. It wasn’t a good joke at all. They broke up for quite sometime and now he wants to date me? YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME? FUDGE!!! I just said that if he wants to turn me into a girly girl, then it is not necessary for him to do that because it won't work. But then he said he was serious and that I need to believe him. No more role-playing like boyfriend-and-girlfriend when he’s having problems with his EX. This time, it’s for REAL. Good news? NOT! He knew almost NOTHING about me actually. Things started to get BORING. I hope this won’t continue. Or else, my YOU’RE-A-TOTAL-TURN-OFF-LOSER! attitude might overpower my consciousness and end up dumping him. *LOL*. Seven years worth of waiting, what will happen next?
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