Boo...
Don't you hate when you have those dreams that are so real you think it actually happened? I had a dream last night that Whitney finally forgave me for what I did and allowed me to come back to her. For some reason she also gave me my first kissed, and I remembered thinking "there was nothing special about that, why does everyone think kissing is so great?" Weird dream, and of course upon waking up all I feel is depressed since I know things will never be good with us. I'm trying really hard to let her go...I just can't. Being with her for those measly 7 months was the best time of my life, I finally had someone that mostly understood me. Now its almost 2 years since I left her and anytime I try to talk with her she never responds. I haven't tried since telling her on Valentines Day to go to "Definitely, Maybe" since it was a movie I know she'd love. I was tempted to text her last night and tell her to go see "Made of Honor" (which is where the kiss in my dreams came from, I guess). I decided not to, don't know if I can handle any rejection at the moment...