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just got a letter from denison, saying i'm accepted with a $10,000 scholarship. don't know yet whether i'm happy or.. not.
i mean, denison WAS the school i really, really, really, REALLY wanted to go to (really!), but, now i don't know. i still really like it. and i like the distance. but i guess that's also the reason i really DISlike it. i like the IDEA of going far away, but there are people who i don't want to leave behind.
so, secretly, i guess i was kind of hoping i'd only be accpted at eau claire or something. it's a nice school.
and now, i think i'm just... torn. i don't want to get sucked into staying in a town where i'm not happy (and if i go to eau claire, i'm afraid i'll keep coming back too often to really get my feet on the ground over there), but i also don't want to go so far away that i'd be utterly unhappy there, anyway.
i also never envisioned myself sticking around to marry/be with/not break up with my high school sweetheart. but he isn't the only reason.
maybe i'm just lazy.
i mean, denison WAS the school i really, really, really, REALLY wanted to go to (really!), but, now i don't know. i still really like it. and i like the distance. but i guess that's also the reason i really DISlike it. i like the IDEA of going far away, but there are people who i don't want to leave behind.
so, secretly, i guess i was kind of hoping i'd only be accpted at eau claire or something. it's a nice school.
and now, i think i'm just... torn. i don't want to get sucked into staying in a town where i'm not happy (and if i go to eau claire, i'm afraid i'll keep coming back too often to really get my feet on the ground over there), but i also don't want to go so far away that i'd be utterly unhappy there, anyway.
i also never envisioned myself sticking around to marry/be with/not break up with my high school sweetheart. but he isn't the only reason.
maybe i'm just lazy.