Whatever
Yeah, I just really need someplace to type when I have one of those days. I don't care if no one comments, whatever. I just need a place to dump my thoughts.
So to sum it all up, today sucked. Not even the events that unfolded today. I just had way too much time to think today and I realized just how much I really miss being around everyone here. I miss all of my friends back home here so much, that words cannot state my feelings. My guys back up at school are alright, but I really just don't feel like I can get as close with them as I have with everyone back at home. I just can't emphasize enough how much of an impact everyone has had on my life and how much I miss them every moment of every day. I know, I'm not online in AIM a lot, sometimes I don't talk or initiate a conversation or whatever. But I really do love you guys and I can't stress enough how much I wish we could just all be together again.
And second of all, I've been feeling really, ridiculously alone lately. I don't know why. I could be hanging with my friends at school, or whatever. But I'm still feeling really helpless and I really don't know why. I feel like something's missing in my life and I'm not sure if I can put my finger on it. I just wish that something other than frigging school would go my way for once. Sure, I'm happy that I'm keeping my grades up, but I really wish that there was more to my life at this point. I want....someone....and I seriously doubt anything on that front is going to happen in the next 4 years unless if I get some serious help. It's really sad when I think about it. Everyone keeps telling me that "there's someone out there" and "it'll happen eventually". Well, I don't see it. I'm always like a fucking "brother" to everyone. Eventually, 40 year old virgin = me. woot.
Sorry for taking up a space on your friend space thing or whatever with my batching and moaning, this isn't going to be a common occurrence.
So to sum it all up, today sucked. Not even the events that unfolded today. I just had way too much time to think today and I realized just how much I really miss being around everyone here. I miss all of my friends back home here so much, that words cannot state my feelings. My guys back up at school are alright, but I really just don't feel like I can get as close with them as I have with everyone back at home. I just can't emphasize enough how much of an impact everyone has had on my life and how much I miss them every moment of every day. I know, I'm not online in AIM a lot, sometimes I don't talk or initiate a conversation or whatever. But I really do love you guys and I can't stress enough how much I wish we could just all be together again.
And second of all, I've been feeling really, ridiculously alone lately. I don't know why. I could be hanging with my friends at school, or whatever. But I'm still feeling really helpless and I really don't know why. I feel like something's missing in my life and I'm not sure if I can put my finger on it. I just wish that something other than frigging school would go my way for once. Sure, I'm happy that I'm keeping my grades up, but I really wish that there was more to my life at this point. I want....someone....and I seriously doubt anything on that front is going to happen in the next 4 years unless if I get some serious help. It's really sad when I think about it. Everyone keeps telling me that "there's someone out there" and "it'll happen eventually". Well, I don't see it. I'm always like a fucking "brother" to everyone. Eventually, 40 year old virgin = me. woot.
Sorry for taking up a space on your friend space thing or whatever with my batching and moaning, this isn't going to be a common occurrence.