this is me right now
i'm experimenting with stuff...i'm also writing it down in my journal...it'll be science and fun all in one...but hopefully as rigorous as i can make it. no use doing something you don't know much about and sometimes you have to delve into something to learn only what these experiences can tell you. unfortunately, this is due to the fact that people cannot communicate as good as they should, and that's why i have to delve into experiences instead of hearing about it in the fullest detail. this is the only way i can see to truly imprint this onto my mind. don't worry - i've studied my shit for the most part. maybe i'll even blog it on here what i've experienced if i can bring myself to it - but fuck, what will that even prove or help me? w/e i won't push it too far.