My old addiction
I gave up wheat, potatoes, corn and sugar for nearly 2 years. Now they're sneaking back in. One by one, innocent seeming, I eat them and pretend that I'll just go to the gym and run them off that evening.
Only I haven't been getting to the gym more than once a week.
It's so easy to fall into the moods and activities around me. I'm too much a social creature, and it's hard to get myself AND someone else off to do something I don't love to do in the first place.
Operation Summer Grill is back on. I need to eat more flamed animal flesh and vegetables, and stop buying tasty bread products. And no more tasty corn chips either somehow.
I've already given up my delightful morning mochas (or what passes for them at work, combining insta brewed coffee with cocoa in the cup) for tea with low fat vanilla soy milk. This turns 300 calories (hot chocolate) into about 20, and I had at least 2/day all winter. This is why my favorite jeans muffin up, and I'm really down on myself about it.
It's also harder when I'm cooking for everyone instead of just eating what I want when I'm hungry. I definitely need to go back to cooking healthier, and letting others buy groceries and things more often. Rice dishes are yummy, but they're not on the list of things I eat.
And I think I'm just a little sad that it's still this hard, after two years of being good. When does it get easier?
Only I haven't been getting to the gym more than once a week.
It's so easy to fall into the moods and activities around me. I'm too much a social creature, and it's hard to get myself AND someone else off to do something I don't love to do in the first place.
Operation Summer Grill is back on. I need to eat more flamed animal flesh and vegetables, and stop buying tasty bread products. And no more tasty corn chips either somehow.
I've already given up my delightful morning mochas (or what passes for them at work, combining insta brewed coffee with cocoa in the cup) for tea with low fat vanilla soy milk. This turns 300 calories (hot chocolate) into about 20, and I had at least 2/day all winter. This is why my favorite jeans muffin up, and I'm really down on myself about it.
It's also harder when I'm cooking for everyone instead of just eating what I want when I'm hungry. I definitely need to go back to cooking healthier, and letting others buy groceries and things more often. Rice dishes are yummy, but they're not on the list of things I eat.
And I think I'm just a little sad that it's still this hard, after two years of being good. When does it get easier?