"What does apathy mean?" "That you don't care." "You'll do fine."
I, for some reason, feel like apathetic must be the word of the week. And in the spirits, I really don't feel like going into details of bashing all those who have been incredibly apathetic towards me or others in general ::cough cough mostly mrs. cooke cough cough::
It's cold today, football lost, and I'm tired as hell.
I knew it would be tough, but four games in a row wasn't supposed to do anything but make me want a good night's sleep. I wasn't supposed to cry, especially not infront of mr. chimileski. Is it a bad sign when you realize you can talk with your volleyball team more freely than your own best friends? I guess when you spend almost all of your time with them... it just kind of happens.
I have such an urge to just scream "I TOLD YOU SO," at someone right now. Somehow I feel like that won't help any of my current situations.
I find out my SAT scores in 6 days. I'm nervous as hell. If I don't do better, I think I may really freak out.
I'm wondering if going to John's is really the best idea tonight. Obviously, I'm the driver, but in my embittered state, I'm just wondering if I'll still have fun. Do you know what? Dwelling never helps. I'm just going to go into a mindless ramble right now.
Congress retreat was truly amazing. Soleil and I got there late after our Haldane game (which we lost again, but in 4 games, all deadly close and without Erin or Jen). My knee was huge again, so I had ice pack in hand and as we walked down the cabin, Soleil and I noticed the camp fire and thout it was cute. We got there, and everyone was still eating, so we got good food! Best thing was when I went into the back room to find <3 Mr. Chimileski <3 eating tacco salad. He asked me how my knee was. Swoon. But yeah. So we ate, then went outside and did an icebreaker, went inside, watched a movie (well, I slept through it), then had our discussion. At this point, I was tired and not feeling well (from the steriods... damn them!), so all I wanted to do was go to sleep since we had another game. But instead, we went back outside around the fire and made smores. Mr. Chimileski stole Soleil's seat and sat next to me (!!!!!!!!!!). Oh my god, it was SO CUTE! We stayed up until 2 in the morning and we talked the entire time, Soleil was laughing so hard and it was so cute! The entire Congress retreat, he kept on sitting next to me, because I'm like the only person he knows/feels comfortable talking to, so it was awesome. Soleil may be president, but Mr. Chimileski likes me more. We decided that I win.
Wow, that's kind of sad, but that made me feel better, talking about cute teachers who actually like talking to me makes me happy. Definitely going to be fine at John's tonight! Time to go bounce around some!