Restless tonight

[jeannealice]

I just finished watching Closer for the first time, and it was wonderful. However, now I can't sleep. I've been in an introspective mood that past couple of days and have been having thoughts that are not particularly helpful to my situation. Sometimes I feel like I maybe "settled down" too early in life, but I know that's really not the case. I just like making drama up for myself and need to stop. These thoughts pass through my mind every six months or so, and I'm always sorry I had them later. Last time they caused me to reconnect (do not read too much into this) with a certain prominent ex. I hope I'm able to have enough self-control to not do anything that drastic this time. I think I just love the beginning of romantic relationships, but one can't always have beginnings. I'm generally quite happy with being "an old, married couple", but lately I've been longing for that *new* feeling, especially when I'm around a certain person. But this too will pass.

BTW, in my restless mode, I have uploaded lots of pictures onto facebook and taken nearly a dozen myspace surveys.