a thoughtful process
So some random thoughts... Honestly ? all I can say is I dont think I have ever been happier in my entire life, since I moved away from tacoma (in washington) I always just wished I could be as happy as I was before I moved. Dont get me wrong but I had alot of fun in kent and boca... but it was just good memories and good times (and an exception for ashley, she got me through alot of shit, just knowing that she was always there to talk or to listen, even though we didnt agree on stuff and she always gave me here opinion when it wasnt what I wanted to hear, or I didnt ask for it, she was always honest, and I always had comfort there and I cant forget you scott either, you helped me out alot but remember your at the brother status, and always will be!! speaking of ashley, I'll get your ass down here soon... but you know im not letting you leave, you can live with me dan and lexi, lol or we'll just bunk you with chris ;) anyways back to me being happy, see I can brag, I have bragging rights, because I spent 3 years of forgeting and wishing I could remember how it felt to be happy, I would always look back on freshman yr and wonder what happened, what went wrong , how did I loose it, loose that, loose happyness... and now ever since 3 thursdays ago today (only one person knows what 3 thursdays ago today is) I have never been happier, its like my feelings and perspectives all switched around, and now I dont remember being this happy before.. Like I said before I feel accomplished !! if I were to die today, I would die a happy son of a bitch... but I know theres more for me to achieve, and knowing that I havent lost anything, or I had lost everything but Now I found myself with the help of one man, I have everything and more, which down the road will help me achieve my goals, and also having someone there who truly cares, truly loves me, someone who will catch me if i fall (because I have to admitt, I fall alot, I mess up, I make mistakes, but what human being doesnt, and why should I be at fault, for learning, for teaching myself) and help me back up on my own to feet, someone who will allow me to be independent, but dependent at the same, Dan I love you, with every bit of my heart and I will always be here for you, through thick and thin, no matter what the situation, circumstance, or mistakes made, I will always love you !!!