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Ok now that I can finally update this damned thing...I am.
So today I have done nothing...I want more than anything is to get out of here...By out of here I mean out of this damned house...out this town. JUST OUT! But I know that the last will never happen. I swear I am going to call an old friend of mine and tell her that I am going to stay with her a couple of days. Or at least just for a night or so. Because pretty soon I am going to go insane!!
Anyways so I have realized I dont understand why I have any of the friends that I do. Well actually the 2 of them that I do. I am so damned mean and take everything out on them. Either that or I am so negative around them all the time. I am going to try and change but at the same time I dont think I can because of everything that is going on. Or if I did I would all just be one big lie! I was happy there for a couple of days but now I just think the only real reason I am eating better is because OF PMS! Plus I dont think I will EVER get off!! Which by the way sucks..and I dont care who you are that reads this but you if you dont like to hear about then poo on you. Because I dont care.
So I dont think that I am ever going to get cake. I have been craving cake...BUT I AM NEVER GOING TO GET IT!! And for anyone that does know me know that I normally dont like cake or chocolate or anything like that...BUT THE ONE TIME I DO...I CANT HAVE IT!!! So I think I am going to give up on the whole cake thing. because i am never going to get it.
Ok well thats all for now.
So today I have done nothing...I want more than anything is to get out of here...By out of here I mean out of this damned house...out this town. JUST OUT! But I know that the last will never happen. I swear I am going to call an old friend of mine and tell her that I am going to stay with her a couple of days. Or at least just for a night or so. Because pretty soon I am going to go insane!!
Anyways so I have realized I dont understand why I have any of the friends that I do. Well actually the 2 of them that I do. I am so damned mean and take everything out on them. Either that or I am so negative around them all the time. I am going to try and change but at the same time I dont think I can because of everything that is going on. Or if I did I would all just be one big lie! I was happy there for a couple of days but now I just think the only real reason I am eating better is because OF PMS! Plus I dont think I will EVER get off!! Which by the way sucks..and I dont care who you are that reads this but you if you dont like to hear about then poo on you. Because I dont care.
So I dont think that I am ever going to get cake. I have been craving cake...BUT I AM NEVER GOING TO GET IT!! And for anyone that does know me know that I normally dont like cake or chocolate or anything like that...BUT THE ONE TIME I DO...I CANT HAVE IT!!! So I think I am going to give up on the whole cake thing. because i am never going to get it.
Ok well thats all for now.