life is fun
Long, long time since I've posted.
Well, anymore, there aren't a whole lot of things that happen that really make me want to sit down and write about them. But, i've been in a slump since last Thursday night, so, I need to get some of this out.
Last week, my friend Kaitlin Chin came down from Milwaukee for a modeling gig/auditions and stuff. Over the course of the week, Kaitlin and I got pretty close. I ended up asking her out on a date for later that week.
We went out, and everything went really well. So well, that I had no problem asking her out on another date. Here's where my nervous feelings came true. She told me that she would want to go out again, but as friends. You see, things in her modeling career are really taking off right now. In fact, she's not even sure where she'll be next week. She could be moving down here to Chicago, or, she could be heading to Florida for a shoot. So, she really doesn't have the mental space right now for a relationship. Her career needs to come first.
I agreed with her. I really do want her to be successful with modeling. But, of course I really want to be with her. And I know it's weird, since we've only known each other for 2 months, but our connection was so strong over this past week.
I'm used to rejection. I mean, c'mon, I grew up a nerd. But this isn't rejection. This is "there is something there, we just can't have it right now". She said that if things clear up soon, then she would want to give us a shot, but I have no idea if that will happen.
So, right now, I'm left with this empty feeling inside. I hate constantly having life dangle things in front of me, and then yank them away. I've always been good at staying optimistc, and I belive that everything happens for a reason, but right now I'm finding it hard to do any of that. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.
Well, anymore, there aren't a whole lot of things that happen that really make me want to sit down and write about them. But, i've been in a slump since last Thursday night, so, I need to get some of this out.
Last week, my friend Kaitlin Chin came down from Milwaukee for a modeling gig/auditions and stuff. Over the course of the week, Kaitlin and I got pretty close. I ended up asking her out on a date for later that week.
We went out, and everything went really well. So well, that I had no problem asking her out on another date. Here's where my nervous feelings came true. She told me that she would want to go out again, but as friends. You see, things in her modeling career are really taking off right now. In fact, she's not even sure where she'll be next week. She could be moving down here to Chicago, or, she could be heading to Florida for a shoot. So, she really doesn't have the mental space right now for a relationship. Her career needs to come first.
I agreed with her. I really do want her to be successful with modeling. But, of course I really want to be with her. And I know it's weird, since we've only known each other for 2 months, but our connection was so strong over this past week.
I'm used to rejection. I mean, c'mon, I grew up a nerd. But this isn't rejection. This is "there is something there, we just can't have it right now". She said that if things clear up soon, then she would want to give us a shot, but I have no idea if that will happen.
So, right now, I'm left with this empty feeling inside. I hate constantly having life dangle things in front of me, and then yank them away. I've always been good at staying optimistc, and I belive that everything happens for a reason, but right now I'm finding it hard to do any of that. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.