When stars align
I've found myself in a very positive space... finally.
For so long now I've been caught up in this crazy storm where I couldn't explain where I was, I couldn't see where I was going and I couldn't hold on to anything.
It's stopped. My feet are planted firmly on the ground and although there is still wind... it's a nice thing. It's like that breeze that blows on a cold fall day and, even though it messes up your hair, you don't care because it feels so thrilling and refreshing to have the burst of it zip up the back of your head.
I'm happy. Genuinely. and Undefined.
Life is filled with so many things that you can only ever learn for yourself, and it is those things which are hardest to grasp. They're also those that are most meaningful and enlightening.
I've been smiling a lot. For every reason and also for none at all.
I'm really excited about school again. I love everything that I'm learning and am excited about becoming a lawyer. Like, an excitement stronger than when First decided I wanted to be a lawyer back in the day. I'm also going to be really great at it... and I can't wait to get out there and make a difference.
A really good friend told me that the only person who can ever hold me back is me. This is something that I had always believed, but in that storm I was in I couldn't hold onto that idea and understand what it meant. But it's true. And it's not just true for me. It's true for you and everyone. Don't ever forget the powerful impact of positive thinking and faith in yourself.
I really feel like I can accomplish anything. Wait... Scratch that... I KNOW that I can accomplish anything. The world is big and bright and exciting and I'm just getting started.
I've started a new discourse with the universe and with myself, and I am grateful that I know what that means and the incredible power that comes with that. I've been learning so many things and having light bulb moments all over the place. The world, society and law are all finally starting to make sense. It's definitely still hard and a lot of work, but I'm getting it. I feel bad for those who never seek higher education or who never develop a thirst for books. It's amazing what you can learn for yourself while reading about the thoughts and experiences of others. There are many markers out there. Go reach for them.
Love to you all,
-Chad
PS: Can I just say that the universe must have felt this was coming and is celebrating with me. Everyone... and I do mean EVERYONE has a new album coming out. I can't wait. Whitney, Britney, Cyndi, Madonna, Celine, Mariah, Dolly, Kylie, Sophie, ... even Cher!
I'm excited to buy albums again. :)