Tilte: Lie between lines
Tilte: Lie between lines
Parings: Yamachii, Yamajima; Okajima
Author:jeakachan92
Genre: Angst, romance.
Sum: I can't make one, read the title and the story you will know.
Tadaima!!!
I pecked my head over the door first, but received no response. JUMP should be at home now, it was 11 o'clock at night already. I released a heavy sigh. Though it was another exhausting day to me either. I immediately went home after finishing the last scene of the " Sprout", the drama that I was currently starring, with an emty stomach. I should have eaten something, some staff, even my partner had tried to make me eat something in vain. I felt sorry to them but no one can force me to eat when I had no mood, even him. Right him!! My heart stinged a bit when his name rang beside my ears. That's why I didn't want to touch those food, delicious or not they made me think about him.
"Yuri You have to eat something. Onegai, though just a little bit."
I hate him. Hate the way he entered my mind so damn easily. I hate myself too, myself who never had courage to get over my feeling for him. It's been 2 weeks, he didn't send me any messages or did anything that show his care for me. Right I am nothing more than a friend to him coz he has someone, someone special and that someone not me. I shouldn't be disappointed and hurt, coz I am the one who know his heart more than anybody, even his crush.
Suddenly I heard a loud noise, someone shouting, something broken. Knowing that familiar voice, my feet automatically ran as fast as it can to the source of those noise. Here in the kitchen, my crush was lying on the floor with a man sitting on his stomach, holding his collar shirt. The man seemed so angry like he could bit the miserable one under him anytime, I have never seem him like this before. The Keito I knew was the kindest and gentlest man I ever met, a good-natured gentleman who didn't harm even a fly. Now his eyes were full of hurt and hatred thing. And my heart pounded strongly to my ribs as I saw him, the man I love lying hopelessly on the floor. His hair was so messy, covering his beautiful face which was terribly bruised as if he was hit really hard. I was about to run to intervene but something in my mind stopped me from approaching them. My feet didn't move a bit. Here I was listening to their conversation with my heart pouned fast.
"I told you get away from him. You bastard, why don't you care about other feelings. Don't play with othes' heart!!!"
I could heard Keito shout from the top of his lung.
To my surprise, Ryousuke just put his smile, his mischievious smlie that I rarely saw before.
"Lemme tell you Okamoto-kun. He never belongs to you, even a second. He hasn't accepted your love right??? And he said that he had feeling for me, too. And so do I, I love him, really do. So why do I have to draw back?? What's more, I don't play with anyone's feeling."
"What about Chinnen? You said you love him before. Is that a lie??"
My heart seemed to stop when he call my name, my eyes never left Ryousuke. A dead silience that killed me inside. Please don't...
Ryousuke took a sigh before looking up at Keito with determined glint.
"Yup. I said it to him and everyone. That's right I like him but ... no more than a normal friend. It's not kind of feeling I have for Yuto."
And then my heart died like being stabbed hard. I wanted to cry out but why tears didn't come from my eyes, as if something blocked it. Here I am standing like a statue. His sentence killed my slightest hope. Yes, I should have known ... it.
"So if you love him, don't make him cry!!!"
Keito was about to give him a hard punch, which woke me up. I tried to reach them, but before I did, someone had stopped him.
STOPPPP!!!
He hold Keito's wrist before he could hurt Ryousuke more.
"Yu..to"
"That's enough, Keito. Stop hurting him."
Right. It's him, Yuto, the reason for those commotions.
"But ...he.. he deserves that. He makes you cry, Yuto. And I can't stand that. His reckless action, his flirting around hurt everyone."
Yuto pushed Keito off Ryousuke, seemingly hard. but Keito, as usual, no reponse, he was just shock. Yuto put his hand under Ryo's chin, checking his injuries with gentle eyes. I heard him ask and Ryosuke reply while Keito just sit there, his eyes reflect his broken heart, like me. Then he looked back at Keito, his glint, I didn't think I ever seen them like this.
"No, he is not at fault. Besides that what he said is true, Keito. He loves me. And I love him too. Our problem doesn't concern you. Everything between us, let us deal with them."
Then he pulled Ryosuke up with him, they were holding hand. Pang, like another shot to my bleeding soul. Keito did too, it seemed that he was crying.
"What's going on here?"
Yabu appeared on the stair, looking at those chaos with extremely astonishing expression on his face, standing behind him were other members, wearing the same expression.
"It's ok, Kouta. We've done."
"Whatever happens, I don't want to see JUMP's members break up or get fight. So Yamada, Keito talk to me in the livingroom"
It seemed like they didn't want to make the leader angry, everyone was reluctant to accept.
But right after Ryousuke turned back, his eyes suddenly met mine. His eyes got bigger, he appeared very surprised knowing that I stood their, observing their fight. That meaned I listened to his every word too. I was speechless, I couldn't utter a single word coz my mind was still dizzy with the pain inside, I just stood there frozen, trying to fight back my tear. And before I got my conciousness back, Ryousuke had stood in front of my eyes. He put his familiar warm hand on my head like usual.
"Okaeri"
Then he left.
I used to miss those hands alot, missed them so gentle and loving on my skin. Why now they made me so hurt, breaking my firewall, and those tears, those tears I tried to keep falling endlessly on my cheeks.
I know that's not the end. I know from the beggining that is just my one-sided love. Why I had to keep hoping for nothing, waiting for him looking back at me. That's not him, it's me who makes myself hurt. I should give up ... but why my every cell still cry for him.
I thought and thought, cried and cried before the tiredness sent me to my dream, lying like a bump on the couch with a thin blanket cover my body.
Again in my dream, he would be there, smiling and waving at me whole-heartedly.
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*Omake*
Yamada went through the corridor to his own room, but before reaching his room, his eyes landed on a thing on the sofa, no, not a thing but someone. His feet moved automatically to the couch, sitting in front of him. He smiled at the cute figure cuddling like a worm so gentle. But it immediately faded away when he noticed something, something that made his heart got hurt.
He put his slender fingers to trace along his cute face, his eyes' brows; his sucken checks, which made him worried that his cutie was slimmer and tired now; his pointed nose and lastly his most wanted part, his pink pale lips, which slightly opened. Yamada's eyes were so gentle and loving like everytime he looked this boy, of course secretly without his angel's notice. His face hot closer to the said boy'face, feeling his sweet breath and then he placed a slight kiss on his stained cheeks, which seemed bathed in his own tears before. Then his lips moved to the other's lips, tracing chasing kisses there.
I am sorry, Yuri.
Yamada put his arm under knee, the other under his neck so gentle not to wake him up. When he was about to move to his room, a voice stop him.
"Everything would not be like this if you just told him the truth."
He looked at the boy with surprising expression.
"I am sorry, you, Yuto. And Keito, sorry to drag you with me, hurting both you and him. But I just can't tell him. I wish I could but no. Without me, you and Keito and even him will be happier."
"Don't say like that Yamachan. You know we love you, and Chii does,too. Maybe he even love you more than us."
Yamada put on his sad smile, then he continued to head toward his room with Chinen Yuri on his arms.
END
I am sorry for making this. I just think that I won't be able to write again, but sth in my mind made me write this story. I can't keep it. I am not sure that I can continue writing or not, coz I am too busy.
Anyway, comments are loved.
Parings: Yamachii, Yamajima; Okajima
Author:jeakachan92
Genre: Angst, romance.
Sum: I can't make one, read the title and the story you will know.
Tadaima!!!
I pecked my head over the door first, but received no response. JUMP should be at home now, it was 11 o'clock at night already. I released a heavy sigh. Though it was another exhausting day to me either. I immediately went home after finishing the last scene of the " Sprout", the drama that I was currently starring, with an emty stomach. I should have eaten something, some staff, even my partner had tried to make me eat something in vain. I felt sorry to them but no one can force me to eat when I had no mood, even him. Right him!! My heart stinged a bit when his name rang beside my ears. That's why I didn't want to touch those food, delicious or not they made me think about him.
"Yuri You have to eat something. Onegai, though just a little bit."
I hate him. Hate the way he entered my mind so damn easily. I hate myself too, myself who never had courage to get over my feeling for him. It's been 2 weeks, he didn't send me any messages or did anything that show his care for me. Right I am nothing more than a friend to him coz he has someone, someone special and that someone not me. I shouldn't be disappointed and hurt, coz I am the one who know his heart more than anybody, even his crush.
Suddenly I heard a loud noise, someone shouting, something broken. Knowing that familiar voice, my feet automatically ran as fast as it can to the source of those noise. Here in the kitchen, my crush was lying on the floor with a man sitting on his stomach, holding his collar shirt. The man seemed so angry like he could bit the miserable one under him anytime, I have never seem him like this before. The Keito I knew was the kindest and gentlest man I ever met, a good-natured gentleman who didn't harm even a fly. Now his eyes were full of hurt and hatred thing. And my heart pounded strongly to my ribs as I saw him, the man I love lying hopelessly on the floor. His hair was so messy, covering his beautiful face which was terribly bruised as if he was hit really hard. I was about to run to intervene but something in my mind stopped me from approaching them. My feet didn't move a bit. Here I was listening to their conversation with my heart pouned fast.
"I told you get away from him. You bastard, why don't you care about other feelings. Don't play with othes' heart!!!"
I could heard Keito shout from the top of his lung.
To my surprise, Ryousuke just put his smile, his mischievious smlie that I rarely saw before.
"Lemme tell you Okamoto-kun. He never belongs to you, even a second. He hasn't accepted your love right??? And he said that he had feeling for me, too. And so do I, I love him, really do. So why do I have to draw back?? What's more, I don't play with anyone's feeling."
"What about Chinnen? You said you love him before. Is that a lie??"
My heart seemed to stop when he call my name, my eyes never left Ryousuke. A dead silience that killed me inside. Please don't...
Ryousuke took a sigh before looking up at Keito with determined glint.
"Yup. I said it to him and everyone. That's right I like him but ... no more than a normal friend. It's not kind of feeling I have for Yuto."
And then my heart died like being stabbed hard. I wanted to cry out but why tears didn't come from my eyes, as if something blocked it. Here I am standing like a statue. His sentence killed my slightest hope. Yes, I should have known ... it.
"So if you love him, don't make him cry!!!"
Keito was about to give him a hard punch, which woke me up. I tried to reach them, but before I did, someone had stopped him.
STOPPPP!!!
He hold Keito's wrist before he could hurt Ryousuke more.
"Yu..to"
"That's enough, Keito. Stop hurting him."
Right. It's him, Yuto, the reason for those commotions.
"But ...he.. he deserves that. He makes you cry, Yuto. And I can't stand that. His reckless action, his flirting around hurt everyone."
Yuto pushed Keito off Ryousuke, seemingly hard. but Keito, as usual, no reponse, he was just shock. Yuto put his hand under Ryo's chin, checking his injuries with gentle eyes. I heard him ask and Ryosuke reply while Keito just sit there, his eyes reflect his broken heart, like me. Then he looked back at Keito, his glint, I didn't think I ever seen them like this.
"No, he is not at fault. Besides that what he said is true, Keito. He loves me. And I love him too. Our problem doesn't concern you. Everything between us, let us deal with them."
Then he pulled Ryosuke up with him, they were holding hand. Pang, like another shot to my bleeding soul. Keito did too, it seemed that he was crying.
"What's going on here?"
Yabu appeared on the stair, looking at those chaos with extremely astonishing expression on his face, standing behind him were other members, wearing the same expression.
"It's ok, Kouta. We've done."
"Whatever happens, I don't want to see JUMP's members break up or get fight. So Yamada, Keito talk to me in the livingroom"
It seemed like they didn't want to make the leader angry, everyone was reluctant to accept.
But right after Ryousuke turned back, his eyes suddenly met mine. His eyes got bigger, he appeared very surprised knowing that I stood their, observing their fight. That meaned I listened to his every word too. I was speechless, I couldn't utter a single word coz my mind was still dizzy with the pain inside, I just stood there frozen, trying to fight back my tear. And before I got my conciousness back, Ryousuke had stood in front of my eyes. He put his familiar warm hand on my head like usual.
"Okaeri"
Then he left.
I used to miss those hands alot, missed them so gentle and loving on my skin. Why now they made me so hurt, breaking my firewall, and those tears, those tears I tried to keep falling endlessly on my cheeks.
I know that's not the end. I know from the beggining that is just my one-sided love. Why I had to keep hoping for nothing, waiting for him looking back at me. That's not him, it's me who makes myself hurt. I should give up ... but why my every cell still cry for him.
I thought and thought, cried and cried before the tiredness sent me to my dream, lying like a bump on the couch with a thin blanket cover my body.
Again in my dream, he would be there, smiling and waving at me whole-heartedly.
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*Omake*
Yamada went through the corridor to his own room, but before reaching his room, his eyes landed on a thing on the sofa, no, not a thing but someone. His feet moved automatically to the couch, sitting in front of him. He smiled at the cute figure cuddling like a worm so gentle. But it immediately faded away when he noticed something, something that made his heart got hurt.
He put his slender fingers to trace along his cute face, his eyes' brows; his sucken checks, which made him worried that his cutie was slimmer and tired now; his pointed nose and lastly his most wanted part, his pink pale lips, which slightly opened. Yamada's eyes were so gentle and loving like everytime he looked this boy, of course secretly without his angel's notice. His face hot closer to the said boy'face, feeling his sweet breath and then he placed a slight kiss on his stained cheeks, which seemed bathed in his own tears before. Then his lips moved to the other's lips, tracing chasing kisses there.
I am sorry, Yuri.
Yamada put his arm under knee, the other under his neck so gentle not to wake him up. When he was about to move to his room, a voice stop him.
"Everything would not be like this if you just told him the truth."
He looked at the boy with surprising expression.
"I am sorry, you, Yuto. And Keito, sorry to drag you with me, hurting both you and him. But I just can't tell him. I wish I could but no. Without me, you and Keito and even him will be happier."
"Don't say like that Yamachan. You know we love you, and Chii does,too. Maybe he even love you more than us."
Yamada put on his sad smile, then he continued to head toward his room with Chinen Yuri on his arms.
END
I am sorry for making this. I just think that I won't be able to write again, but sth in my mind made me write this story. I can't keep it. I am not sure that I can continue writing or not, coz I am too busy.
Anyway, comments are loved.