je_united 2019 - Gift fic for naminami973
Je_united gift fic for naminami973
Title: Getting Back Together
Pairing: Kato Shigeaki/Tegoshi Yuya
Rating: PG
Warnings: none
Summary: After eight years of being apart Tegoshi tries to convince Shige to give their relationship a try again.
Notes: I’ll be honest this came our extremely different to when I first started writing this, I’m not even sure where this idea came from but I really hope you enjoy it!
“Shige, date me.” Shige looked up from his drink directly into the eyes of Tegoshi. Was this some sort of joke? The man was probably drunk...
“Tegoshi you’re drunk, we’ve already been over this before multiple times, I won’t date you again. We broke up for a reason you know.”
“I know that! This doesn’t mean that I don’t want us to be together again. Because, simply, I love you and you love me. Is that not a good enough reason?”
“Why would I want to date you? And why would you want to date me? I’m a socially awkward geek who doesn’t like to go out of my house unless it’s necessary! The total opposite of you, a social proficient jock who enjoys going outside regularly. We’re both idols whose agency would kill us if we got back together again, or have you forgotten why we broke up back then?” Shige was doing his best to list reasons why this would be a terrible idea and they’d regret it straight away.
“You know that none of that ever bothered me all those years ago and it still doesn’t bother me to this day. I don’t think the agency will force us to break-up again. As if what the agency thought has ever stopped you before anyway, you ignore what they tell you to do all the time and never do anything about it. If Yamashita-kun and Kame-chan can get married then I don’t understand why us dating wound be a problem. You know I was never one for rules. We dated once so why can’t we do it again?” Yamapi and Kame were... what? This was the first he’d heard of this at all… looking back Shige really shouldn’t be surprised. They always did act like an old married couple all the time, even when they were fighting - especially during those times actually!
“Tegoshi that was over eight years ago, we've both changed a lot since then. Didn’t you think one moment about the possibility that I might not love you anymore in that way?” Who was he fooling really, his feelings had, in fact, grown since then.
“You and I both know very well that’s bullshit. I’m not an idiot Shige, you can say that but anyone who knows you wouldn’t believe any of this. And if you think about it we never really properly broke up in the first place. All we did was drift apart by taking our distance. I mean only two people really knew what was actually happening, but I suspect more people than we would think were aware of how things were going between us. What are you so afraid of Shige?” Shige was afraid of a lot of things, most of which he could never say out loud.
“Well for one, I’m afraid of what this will mean for NEWS if thing got out of hand and we were found out by the press or something. Just because the agency allows it doesn’t mean the general public will be as accepting. I’m afraid of losing you and what we have now. You are very important to me, and I don’t want to destroy whatever we’re having now if we decide we can’t continue to be together anymore.” Shige already lost Tegoshi once, completely unintentionally but it still had hurt a lot. The feeling of loneliness never left him, even until now.
“Shige nothing comes without risks, that’s just a part of life. Nothing has to even change, and we will still be us. Even if our romantic relationship would come to an end again we can still remain friends can’t we? We were able to do it the first time it happened.” Sometimes he hated it when Tegoshi acted like the reasonable one between them.
“We shouldn’t even be having this conversation while having drinks. How about I take you home and we talk about this again in the morning? I need time to think about this.” He was tired and thinking about it while being half drunk wasn’t going to do him any favors. Tegoshi would probably forget about it overnight and they’d never have to have this painful conversation again.
“Fine, but we will definitely talk about this again. We need to talk about us and what we are. This conversation is a long time coming Shige, you can’t avoid it.” He knew that, this was the important talk the should have had all those years ago. But with everything else they had going on they kept putting it off until it got to this point.
Shige escorted Tegoshi to a taxi knowing the other man would not be able to get home on his own. Tegoshi has fallen asleep after getting into the car and Shige couldn’t be more thankful that the building had lifts because the blonde man was not light at all. He opened the door and was greeted by loud barks. Emma, upon realizing that it wasn’t a stranger coming through the door with her beloved master, calmed down and began to lick his leg. Shige carried Tegoshi to his room and laid him on the bed, only to find himself being pulled down by a surprisingly strong grip. He tried to move but Tegoshi only clung to him tighter. In the end, Shige gave in and moved his body around so he would be in a more comfortable position while Tegoshi was using him as a teddy bear.
“Shigee i love you, you know? I have for a long time and if that hasn’t changed in over eight years I dont think its going to change anytime soon.” he hated how his heart raced at the confession, shige wanted nothing more than to accept those loving words but he couldn't. They were both drunk and they needed to be clear headed when they talked about this.
“Shut up and go to sleep. We’ll talk in the morning.” Tegoshi leaned over and placed a quick peck on Shige’s lips before drifting off. It was quick but Shige could still feel his lips lingering on his own. It had been a long time since they last kissed but shige still very much enjoyed them
If Shige was honest he didn’t like talking about his feelings, it was easier to just ignore them then even try to think about it let alone explaining it. His feelings for Tegoshi were pretty simple yet he could never find the proper words to explain them. A simple ‘I love you’ DIDN'T quite cover what Tegoshi was to Shige.
Shige had known Tegoshi since before they debuted, they were often paired together as juniors and they quickly formed a good friendship even if he had found him rather annoying at first.
A couple of months after they debuted and things began to change, both being the youngest of the group, they spent the most amount of time with each other. When members starting leaning one by one Shige leaned on Tegoshi for support.
He doesn’t remember how feelings started to change, a lot of things went unsaid between them even back then. They both were always terrible at communicating. He does remember the first time they had sex, they had waited until Tegoshi’s 18th birthday. It was a special day that they both could never forget.
Shige didn’t know what he was going to do now, Tegoshi had asked to date him again even if shige has spent the last ears running away from whatever they had. Technically they never broke up so they were actually still kind of dating even if neither of them admitted it.
Shige knew Tegoshi wasn’t going to give up on this, he was stubborn like that. But shige was a coward who never admitted his feelings to anyone, let alone himself. He was constantly running away pretending it wasn’t there and slowly it was killing him from the inside.
-
Shige woke to a pounding headache, the sound of sizzling meat and a cold bed, Tegoshi must have woken up before him whatever was being cooked smelled heavily. Shige’s stomach was practically begging him to check it out with the way it was rumbling. Shige could really do with some greasy food to help his hangover. He crawled out of bed and wondered into the kitchen to find tegoshi in a bright pink apron cooking to what looked like bacon, just what he needed. Tegoshi Looked up from what he was cooking, took one look at shige and gave him a bright smile. He cursed that tegoshi was able to go drinking all night long and not get hungover in the morning.
“I made breakfast, i know you get terrible hangovers and enjoy eating greasy food in the mornings when you do. thanks for getting me home last night by the way, i don't think i would have been able to get home on my own. I hope i didn’t say anything to ridiculous last night, the whole evening is just a big blur for me, i didn’t do anything stupid right..?” so he didn’t remember, shige expected this but it still hurt. He could play this two ways, completely deny anything happened last night and forget about ever fixing there relationship or he could tell tegoshi the truth and maybe there relationship could go back to what it was all those years ago, maybe more.
“I'm going to be honest with you because apart of me can’t keep denying this anymore. Last night you asked to date me, i refused. You refused to take no for an answer, stubborn as always. I hated admitting to myself that i was constantly running away from us, i have been for a long time. When only dated a few years but it was honestly one of the happiest periods of my life. I admit i wasn’t the most pleasant person to date but you stuck around me even when i was stubborn about my feelings. At some point we drifted apart, while we never we did break up. I never admitted it but i never stopped loving you either. Last night you called me out on my bullshit and apart of when would have accepted you if we both were not drunk. I've missed you a lot through the years even if i never said it and i did love you even if i never said it,still do, so if you’ll have me i would like to accept your offer of us dating again.”
Tegoshi stared at him stunned, mouth gaping.he had lied to shige about remembering last night, he had been drunk and it was obvious shige wasn’t going to accept him. This way he wouldn’t have had to deal with the sting of rejecting but for shige to go and do this, openly admit his feelings without him saying anything first was surprising. He knew shige never admitted what he was feeling and tegoshi learned to accept that. At some point they had broken up without saying anything to each other and he accepted that to. He expected his feelings to disappear but they didn’t, they grew stronger as the years went by and he honestly never expected them to talk about what they were and how they felt let alone try to date again. But here they were, tegoshi took his drunken courage and decided to ask shige to date him. Shige refused but he knew he would and he accepted it but here shige was confessing his feelings and tegoshi was unsure what to say. He wanted to cry tears of happiness.
“Shige you stupid idiot of course i’ll have you, i’ll accept you any day of the week. I love you so much and i’m grateful you told me how you feel. I know you were never one to admit them but it makes me extremely happy that you’ve told me. Now come here and give me a hug.” shige obliged and pulled tegoshi into a long and comforting hug.
END
Title: Getting Back Together
Pairing: Kato Shigeaki/Tegoshi Yuya
Rating: PG
Warnings: none
Summary: After eight years of being apart Tegoshi tries to convince Shige to give their relationship a try again.
Notes: I’ll be honest this came our extremely different to when I first started writing this, I’m not even sure where this idea came from but I really hope you enjoy it!
“Shige, date me.” Shige looked up from his drink directly into the eyes of Tegoshi. Was this some sort of joke? The man was probably drunk...
“Tegoshi you’re drunk, we’ve already been over this before multiple times, I won’t date you again. We broke up for a reason you know.”
“I know that! This doesn’t mean that I don’t want us to be together again. Because, simply, I love you and you love me. Is that not a good enough reason?”
“Why would I want to date you? And why would you want to date me? I’m a socially awkward geek who doesn’t like to go out of my house unless it’s necessary! The total opposite of you, a social proficient jock who enjoys going outside regularly. We’re both idols whose agency would kill us if we got back together again, or have you forgotten why we broke up back then?” Shige was doing his best to list reasons why this would be a terrible idea and they’d regret it straight away.
“You know that none of that ever bothered me all those years ago and it still doesn’t bother me to this day. I don’t think the agency will force us to break-up again. As if what the agency thought has ever stopped you before anyway, you ignore what they tell you to do all the time and never do anything about it. If Yamashita-kun and Kame-chan can get married then I don’t understand why us dating wound be a problem. You know I was never one for rules. We dated once so why can’t we do it again?” Yamapi and Kame were... what? This was the first he’d heard of this at all… looking back Shige really shouldn’t be surprised. They always did act like an old married couple all the time, even when they were fighting - especially during those times actually!
“Tegoshi that was over eight years ago, we've both changed a lot since then. Didn’t you think one moment about the possibility that I might not love you anymore in that way?” Who was he fooling really, his feelings had, in fact, grown since then.
“You and I both know very well that’s bullshit. I’m not an idiot Shige, you can say that but anyone who knows you wouldn’t believe any of this. And if you think about it we never really properly broke up in the first place. All we did was drift apart by taking our distance. I mean only two people really knew what was actually happening, but I suspect more people than we would think were aware of how things were going between us. What are you so afraid of Shige?” Shige was afraid of a lot of things, most of which he could never say out loud.
“Well for one, I’m afraid of what this will mean for NEWS if thing got out of hand and we were found out by the press or something. Just because the agency allows it doesn’t mean the general public will be as accepting. I’m afraid of losing you and what we have now. You are very important to me, and I don’t want to destroy whatever we’re having now if we decide we can’t continue to be together anymore.” Shige already lost Tegoshi once, completely unintentionally but it still had hurt a lot. The feeling of loneliness never left him, even until now.
“Shige nothing comes without risks, that’s just a part of life. Nothing has to even change, and we will still be us. Even if our romantic relationship would come to an end again we can still remain friends can’t we? We were able to do it the first time it happened.” Sometimes he hated it when Tegoshi acted like the reasonable one between them.
“We shouldn’t even be having this conversation while having drinks. How about I take you home and we talk about this again in the morning? I need time to think about this.” He was tired and thinking about it while being half drunk wasn’t going to do him any favors. Tegoshi would probably forget about it overnight and they’d never have to have this painful conversation again.
“Fine, but we will definitely talk about this again. We need to talk about us and what we are. This conversation is a long time coming Shige, you can’t avoid it.” He knew that, this was the important talk the should have had all those years ago. But with everything else they had going on they kept putting it off until it got to this point.
Shige escorted Tegoshi to a taxi knowing the other man would not be able to get home on his own. Tegoshi has fallen asleep after getting into the car and Shige couldn’t be more thankful that the building had lifts because the blonde man was not light at all. He opened the door and was greeted by loud barks. Emma, upon realizing that it wasn’t a stranger coming through the door with her beloved master, calmed down and began to lick his leg. Shige carried Tegoshi to his room and laid him on the bed, only to find himself being pulled down by a surprisingly strong grip. He tried to move but Tegoshi only clung to him tighter. In the end, Shige gave in and moved his body around so he would be in a more comfortable position while Tegoshi was using him as a teddy bear.
“Shigee i love you, you know? I have for a long time and if that hasn’t changed in over eight years I dont think its going to change anytime soon.” he hated how his heart raced at the confession, shige wanted nothing more than to accept those loving words but he couldn't. They were both drunk and they needed to be clear headed when they talked about this.
“Shut up and go to sleep. We’ll talk in the morning.” Tegoshi leaned over and placed a quick peck on Shige’s lips before drifting off. It was quick but Shige could still feel his lips lingering on his own. It had been a long time since they last kissed but shige still very much enjoyed them
If Shige was honest he didn’t like talking about his feelings, it was easier to just ignore them then even try to think about it let alone explaining it. His feelings for Tegoshi were pretty simple yet he could never find the proper words to explain them. A simple ‘I love you’ DIDN'T quite cover what Tegoshi was to Shige.
Shige had known Tegoshi since before they debuted, they were often paired together as juniors and they quickly formed a good friendship even if he had found him rather annoying at first.
A couple of months after they debuted and things began to change, both being the youngest of the group, they spent the most amount of time with each other. When members starting leaning one by one Shige leaned on Tegoshi for support.
He doesn’t remember how feelings started to change, a lot of things went unsaid between them even back then. They both were always terrible at communicating. He does remember the first time they had sex, they had waited until Tegoshi’s 18th birthday. It was a special day that they both could never forget.
Shige didn’t know what he was going to do now, Tegoshi had asked to date him again even if shige has spent the last ears running away from whatever they had. Technically they never broke up so they were actually still kind of dating even if neither of them admitted it.
Shige knew Tegoshi wasn’t going to give up on this, he was stubborn like that. But shige was a coward who never admitted his feelings to anyone, let alone himself. He was constantly running away pretending it wasn’t there and slowly it was killing him from the inside.
-
Shige woke to a pounding headache, the sound of sizzling meat and a cold bed, Tegoshi must have woken up before him whatever was being cooked smelled heavily. Shige’s stomach was practically begging him to check it out with the way it was rumbling. Shige could really do with some greasy food to help his hangover. He crawled out of bed and wondered into the kitchen to find tegoshi in a bright pink apron cooking to what looked like bacon, just what he needed. Tegoshi Looked up from what he was cooking, took one look at shige and gave him a bright smile. He cursed that tegoshi was able to go drinking all night long and not get hungover in the morning.
“I made breakfast, i know you get terrible hangovers and enjoy eating greasy food in the mornings when you do. thanks for getting me home last night by the way, i don't think i would have been able to get home on my own. I hope i didn’t say anything to ridiculous last night, the whole evening is just a big blur for me, i didn’t do anything stupid right..?” so he didn’t remember, shige expected this but it still hurt. He could play this two ways, completely deny anything happened last night and forget about ever fixing there relationship or he could tell tegoshi the truth and maybe there relationship could go back to what it was all those years ago, maybe more.
“I'm going to be honest with you because apart of me can’t keep denying this anymore. Last night you asked to date me, i refused. You refused to take no for an answer, stubborn as always. I hated admitting to myself that i was constantly running away from us, i have been for a long time. When only dated a few years but it was honestly one of the happiest periods of my life. I admit i wasn’t the most pleasant person to date but you stuck around me even when i was stubborn about my feelings. At some point we drifted apart, while we never we did break up. I never admitted it but i never stopped loving you either. Last night you called me out on my bullshit and apart of when would have accepted you if we both were not drunk. I've missed you a lot through the years even if i never said it and i did love you even if i never said it,still do, so if you’ll have me i would like to accept your offer of us dating again.”
Tegoshi stared at him stunned, mouth gaping.he had lied to shige about remembering last night, he had been drunk and it was obvious shige wasn’t going to accept him. This way he wouldn’t have had to deal with the sting of rejecting but for shige to go and do this, openly admit his feelings without him saying anything first was surprising. He knew shige never admitted what he was feeling and tegoshi learned to accept that. At some point they had broken up without saying anything to each other and he accepted that to. He expected his feelings to disappear but they didn’t, they grew stronger as the years went by and he honestly never expected them to talk about what they were and how they felt let alone try to date again. But here they were, tegoshi took his drunken courage and decided to ask shige to date him. Shige refused but he knew he would and he accepted it but here shige was confessing his feelings and tegoshi was unsure what to say. He wanted to cry tears of happiness.
“Shige you stupid idiot of course i’ll have you, i’ll accept you any day of the week. I love you so much and i’m grateful you told me how you feel. I know you were never one to admit them but it makes me extremely happy that you’ve told me. Now come here and give me a hug.” shige obliged and pulled tegoshi into a long and comforting hug.
END