something is wrong
i had the worst day of my life, and i have said this before, but today was terrifying/frustrating/depressed/stressful/aweful.
i woke up for work and knew right away i wasnt feeling well. i should point out that i have been having all sorts of weird feelings from tinglyness in my extremities and some pains shooting down them as well, wow like thats not scary. but it had been going on for a while and i hadnt died yet so i figured it was just pinched nerve or something. dont worry, this story doesnt end with me being really sick, but it does go somewhere. so i was sitting down this morning before i took my shower and my legs went numb and tingly at the same time and it happened really fast. i thought maybe i was sitting weird so i just took my shower but i was having trouble breathing and i felt like my chest was tight. i started really getting scared and i didnt know whether or not to tell my mom, but i just started crying and told her and i started hyperventalating and i lost control and i was crying and couldnt breathe and i was terrified.
anyways, my mom thinks it was a panic/anxiety attack, because she used to get them and she had all the similar symptoms. so took me outside to get some fresh air and when we got back in the house i was still crying and now i really couldnt breath and i was still terrified because well, i have felt so horrible later. well a few minutes later and some breathing into a paper bag and i was alright.
i felt so stupid because i have no idea why it happened or if i am sick or if its just my anxiety.
work sucked today, i got in late from my episode everyone was rude, we were busy and i broke down again at the end of the day because i was packing this huge really difficult picture and i still had to clean. cried. at work. came home, felt strung out and fell asleep for 2 hours, woke up and ate soft pretzels and ice cream watched forrest gump and cried more.
i woke up for work and knew right away i wasnt feeling well. i should point out that i have been having all sorts of weird feelings from tinglyness in my extremities and some pains shooting down them as well, wow like thats not scary. but it had been going on for a while and i hadnt died yet so i figured it was just pinched nerve or something. dont worry, this story doesnt end with me being really sick, but it does go somewhere. so i was sitting down this morning before i took my shower and my legs went numb and tingly at the same time and it happened really fast. i thought maybe i was sitting weird so i just took my shower but i was having trouble breathing and i felt like my chest was tight. i started really getting scared and i didnt know whether or not to tell my mom, but i just started crying and told her and i started hyperventalating and i lost control and i was crying and couldnt breathe and i was terrified.
anyways, my mom thinks it was a panic/anxiety attack, because she used to get them and she had all the similar symptoms. so took me outside to get some fresh air and when we got back in the house i was still crying and now i really couldnt breath and i was still terrified because well, i have felt so horrible later. well a few minutes later and some breathing into a paper bag and i was alright.
i felt so stupid because i have no idea why it happened or if i am sick or if its just my anxiety.
work sucked today, i got in late from my episode everyone was rude, we were busy and i broke down again at the end of the day because i was packing this huge really difficult picture and i still had to clean. cried. at work. came home, felt strung out and fell asleep for 2 hours, woke up and ate soft pretzels and ice cream watched forrest gump and cried more.