(no subject)
Well here's to another ruined holiday.
My younger sister and I were supposed to be on our way to Tampa to have celebrate Thanksgiving. I worked my ass off to try and get everyone to go up there because one of my brothers wasn't going to be able to come down, and for some reason everyone seemed fine with it. I've been excited for an entire week about this. I've played out how it was all going to happen in my head. Could it be we were going to have a normal holiday?
Of course not. All I want to do is talk to somebody about my family. Maybe a professional. I swear we're all crazy. I'm really in the paranoia department. I've lost touch with everyone, myself, and reality. I know there are other families out there like mine. Crazy. But who can I talk to that isn't secretly judging me in their own mind? Someone who just isn't pretending to understand.
I don't realize how lonely I am until moments like this, when I'm screaming in my head.
I hate holidays. I don't believe in anyone anymore.
My younger sister and I were supposed to be on our way to Tampa to have celebrate Thanksgiving. I worked my ass off to try and get everyone to go up there because one of my brothers wasn't going to be able to come down, and for some reason everyone seemed fine with it. I've been excited for an entire week about this. I've played out how it was all going to happen in my head. Could it be we were going to have a normal holiday?
Of course not. All I want to do is talk to somebody about my family. Maybe a professional. I swear we're all crazy. I'm really in the paranoia department. I've lost touch with everyone, myself, and reality. I know there are other families out there like mine. Crazy. But who can I talk to that isn't secretly judging me in their own mind? Someone who just isn't pretending to understand.
I don't realize how lonely I am until moments like this, when I'm screaming in my head.
I hate holidays. I don't believe in anyone anymore.