Christmas
My vacation went really well. I spent a lot of QT with the family and we only got in one argument...it was really more of a debate, i guess. I got to see a few of my cousins and that was cool because i feel like we get closer as we get older. Sunday I went to church with my parents and then my brother came home. We spent the entire day together as a family and it was great. I went to bed that night feeling good about us. THEN monday morning dad came into my room as i was waking up and said that we needed to have a talk. He told me once again that I'm flamboyant, and that even though my parents deal with me being gay, he said that he "will not sit across the table from some filthy homosexual that you bring home for the holidays in 5 years." Thanks, dad, because i didn't already realize that. that basically ruined my entire christmas. i barely spoke, barely ate, and left a day earlier than expected. ya know, the only times i ever cry are when i'm driving home from my parents house. *sigh* so to follow that, i got an email last night from my mom stating that we argue when i'm home because i'm so flamboyant that i make her uncomfortable. ok seriously...i'm not that flamboyant. i'm not masculine, and i realize that, but i don't think i'm flamboyant. i think that what my dad said hurts me so much because it means that no matter if i have my own family my parents will never accept it. that's got to be one of the most painful thoughts someone can have...or at least it is for me. and they always like to follow discussions like that by telling me that suicide is a sin. funny how i don't even contemplate killing myself. but i guess they realize how much they hurt me since they think it could make me kill myself? i've got a bright future and i'm not gonna kill myself because it may or may not involve them. So how was everybody else's vacation??