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10/13 ~hanging from the ceiling
blood soaked anguish
and the pain is in the hope
hanging from the ceiling
your words are my rope
keeping my eyes
on the dark night
i reach the fork
and slip into fright
choices to make
and voices will sting
i've never been right
not once at ths thing
and now it's the same
as i hang from the celing
the losses add up
and i've lost all the feeling
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10/16 joch
you, back off
this ones mine
you had your shot
you had your time
but you let her slip
and i worked my ways
and now she is mine
for all of my days
i wont let her go
you cannot recover
i'm the one she chose
i am her lover
so keep your space
and stand your ground
cuz she and I
dont want you around
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
10/16 They
you've got him
and i've got her
so either way
we're already hurt
i said i'd be yours
and you said you'd be mine
but somewhere along
those promises died
so now she's got me
and he has you
and i'm not quite sure
what i've got to do
should i try to steal his
or stay with mine
which do i want
which will i leave behind
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10/18 ~
sometimes I think it best
to put certain things to rest
feelings that I think are real
and other things i hate to feel
from what I think to what I know
I cannot see where I will go
but one thing I know is true
I want to spend my days with you
~~~~~~~~~
10/18 ~Above the Ground
soft and gentle beautiful voice
oh what a wonderful noise
the sound is music to my ears
soothing away all of my fears
a stirring found in my chest
a wonderous feeling that is the best
i see my assurance has been found
as the sun rises above the ground
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10/18 ~out
never did I know
never could I assume
that you’d end up
on my bed in my room
and a few months later
a flame exists
a perilous journey
with turns and twists
you've prevailed so well
I’m oh so content
I wish you luck
please don’t get all bent
I’ll never be mad
it's just how you feel
you're my 2 best friends
it's oh so surreal
sure I’m scared
and I cant impose
but you'll always be in love
and I’m out, I suppose
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10/21 Without you
life is not worth living
if i cant life it with you
i cant go another day
or walk in my shoes
i need your love i need your touch
i need you every day
i cant stand this anymore
it's over, gone away
i dont how to to recover
and move on with myself
i truly cannot see myself
recovering my hearts health
so this is it, my time has come
and now my heart tossed aside
love came and went and now i'm stuck
i'd rather just have died
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10/21 ~ripped in three
tore my heart
ripped it in three
took all the pieces
and left none for me
so here i sit
with no love to give
i'm dead to the world
i've got no life to live
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
10/23 ~good morning
good morning friends
as sleep time ends
we wipe our eyes awake
and with every breath
we're glad that death
did not take us away
though it may seem
that thought may gleam
it always will get better
with friends and love
and God above
we pray for better weather
if those poems dont tell you how my last few weeks have been, then my xanga sure will...
been a couple of wickedly wacky weeks...
meh. have fun