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I miss it!
I miss how it was,
I miss how it felt,
I missed the opportunity,
and i messed up the future!
Things have changed now, and even though I admittedly miss it, I am better now for it, I no longer want, or need, I am just doing for me, what feels right. Separation comes easy because I know ultimately won't be around for much longer.
Schools over, its time to look at the future, time to focus on whats really important, and thats building my life. Its time to start my life.
Take it in stride and don't let the same mistakes happen, focus on writing.
I am moving into the house in about two months, little less now, I am excited to be on my own, to show everyone that I can do this. My goal is to be in New York in the next year, a bit scary, but a bit exciting as well. The really good thing is that I really don't have to care about relationships now, but rather come to the acceptance that I have done what I could do, I have made mistakes, and those who except me and want me around will make the effort to do so.
I like to think that the relationships I have built are strong, and god knows everyone around me is important to me, other wise I wouldn't have them around. Only time will tell how strong they really are.
Over all the summer is amazing, I am so happy, so calm. Getting ready to take on the future on August, prepping for the future.
I miss how it was,
I miss how it felt,
I missed the opportunity,
and i messed up the future!
Things have changed now, and even though I admittedly miss it, I am better now for it, I no longer want, or need, I am just doing for me, what feels right. Separation comes easy because I know ultimately won't be around for much longer.
Schools over, its time to look at the future, time to focus on whats really important, and thats building my life. Its time to start my life.
Take it in stride and don't let the same mistakes happen, focus on writing.
I am moving into the house in about two months, little less now, I am excited to be on my own, to show everyone that I can do this. My goal is to be in New York in the next year, a bit scary, but a bit exciting as well. The really good thing is that I really don't have to care about relationships now, but rather come to the acceptance that I have done what I could do, I have made mistakes, and those who except me and want me around will make the effort to do so.
I like to think that the relationships I have built are strong, and god knows everyone around me is important to me, other wise I wouldn't have them around. Only time will tell how strong they really are.
Over all the summer is amazing, I am so happy, so calm. Getting ready to take on the future on August, prepping for the future.