"I've been sooo damn tired"
SO now I can relax...for a day anyway. I had my first all-niter last sunday...I do not recommend it. I managed to stay awake fairly easily but by my first class I was dead, so I came back and crashed for an hour...and later on took another hour nap. I haven't been able to sleep in since I think Sat...so I'm way past overtired. It paid off I guess, I got an A and a target for every part of my education portfolio. I was proud of how much I worked this week, I spent about 7 hours writing up my proofs-I want them back too cause I put soo much time into them, but then around 5 yesterday I lost it. My brain couldn't function anymore and I lost any kind of focus for the rest of the night. I'm glad my brain decided to come back today, about an hour into the proof exam everything came back. Anyway enough with my classes.
The Gavin DeGraw concert never happened...he cancelled on us. I'm mad, lost $15 in shipping fees. Gone to Rochester a couple of times, did decent in scrabble which is amazing for me. Dropped DQ. Brought Katy home for the weekend I had to "babysit," met some of her friends at SU, saw Sarah. Kevin came up to visit last week and we watched survivor like old times. Last weekend I went to a math conference in Mass. which was awesome, I'd soo do it again. There were three talks I really wanted to hear, 2 were cancelled...and the other one he didn't explain dark matter, just the equations behind it which was still cool but no way I could follow him. I'd give anything to learn more about relativity, black holes, and dark matter. Was supposed to go see the RIT ragatta but they weren't competing sunday and I couldn't go Sat. The Galileo project actually went well to my surprise. Even though I complained and said I'd never do it again, I might. As I kept repeating my presentation, it got easier and easier to interact with the students what they were and weren't getting. I actually liked it. I know I'm an education major, but I really just jumped in I don't know if its for me or not, it's my back up to math right now. But things seem to be reenforcing it so that's good I guess. Went for walks around campus, it was funny to watch the drunk people. I like walking around campus it's soo pretty, it's one of those things that keeps your sanity...speaking of which I wanted to take lots of pictures before I leave. We went out to dinner in Rochester Monday nite as a reward for classes being over. Very nice as opposed to RJ...
Half way done with my college career, well probably not half but it's really scary cause I still don't have a clue. A lot of people here my age are just dying to get out, I'm just stuck, I have no where to go, nothing to do, nothing to look forward to yet, no ambition. I know people are different and such but I can't help but feeling a shit load of pressure in which I just want to resist all of it...grrrrr
I think my anxiety has hit a peak...Summer's coming in 4 days. In 4 days I will be home. In 4 days I will have to call up Price Chopper and start looking for a job. In 4 days I will have to start reviewing calc 2, teaching myself ELA and DQ. In 4 days...I will leave a place I finally was able to call home :( In 4 days I will see old friends some of whom I haven't seen in a year :) In 4 days I will unpack in my room. In 4 days I won't have a roomate. In 4 days I have good/healthy food. In 4 days I will have time for music/art projects. In 4 days I will be a mess...
The Gavin DeGraw concert never happened...he cancelled on us. I'm mad, lost $15 in shipping fees. Gone to Rochester a couple of times, did decent in scrabble which is amazing for me. Dropped DQ. Brought Katy home for the weekend I had to "babysit," met some of her friends at SU, saw Sarah. Kevin came up to visit last week and we watched survivor like old times. Last weekend I went to a math conference in Mass. which was awesome, I'd soo do it again. There were three talks I really wanted to hear, 2 were cancelled...and the other one he didn't explain dark matter, just the equations behind it which was still cool but no way I could follow him. I'd give anything to learn more about relativity, black holes, and dark matter. Was supposed to go see the RIT ragatta but they weren't competing sunday and I couldn't go Sat. The Galileo project actually went well to my surprise. Even though I complained and said I'd never do it again, I might. As I kept repeating my presentation, it got easier and easier to interact with the students what they were and weren't getting. I actually liked it. I know I'm an education major, but I really just jumped in I don't know if its for me or not, it's my back up to math right now. But things seem to be reenforcing it so that's good I guess. Went for walks around campus, it was funny to watch the drunk people. I like walking around campus it's soo pretty, it's one of those things that keeps your sanity...speaking of which I wanted to take lots of pictures before I leave. We went out to dinner in Rochester Monday nite as a reward for classes being over. Very nice as opposed to RJ...
Half way done with my college career, well probably not half but it's really scary cause I still don't have a clue. A lot of people here my age are just dying to get out, I'm just stuck, I have no where to go, nothing to do, nothing to look forward to yet, no ambition. I know people are different and such but I can't help but feeling a shit load of pressure in which I just want to resist all of it...grrrrr
I think my anxiety has hit a peak...Summer's coming in 4 days. In 4 days I will be home. In 4 days I will have to call up Price Chopper and start looking for a job. In 4 days I will have to start reviewing calc 2, teaching myself ELA and DQ. In 4 days...I will leave a place I finally was able to call home :( In 4 days I will see old friends some of whom I haven't seen in a year :) In 4 days I will unpack in my room. In 4 days I won't have a roomate. In 4 days I have good/healthy food. In 4 days I will have time for music/art projects. In 4 days I will be a mess...