"Oh give these clay feet wings to fly, to touch the face of the stars"

Mar 04, 2008 22:14

My martial arts instructor told the class tonight that we need to focus on the present, on what we're doing in order to succeed. He's right, and I have the worst time doing just that. I get so distracted sometimes during class because my mind just won't shut up. Like in the movie "Last Samurai": "Too many mind" :-p. My head is full of the "what ifs" that can drive a person mad. I think I'm just at that point in life where uncertainty is common place, and I should just accept that. I'm uncertain about my career and about my living situation. I have a job that doesn't challenge me, I don't make enough money and I still live with my parents. Change is the only constant. In the next year things are going to keep improving, last year was recovery, this year is renewal.
I'm just desperatly trying to figure out this life, and my path in it, but if I don't calm down I'll end up missing it all. I need to refocus, redo, reduce the clutter of doubt that builds up inside me. It's hard to explain what goes on inside my head, even to those that I care most about.

I think spring will help. I can always think clearer when the sun is shining and I can get some fresh air without freezing my lungs. If only it would stop snowing! Who knows...but for now I should probably go to bed. Writing everything down has finally made my mind quiet and I think I should take advantage of that.

"When the dark wood fell before me
And all the paths were overgrown
When the priests of pride say there is no other way
I tilled the sorrows of stone

I did not believe because I could not see
Though you came to me in the night
When the dawn seemed forever lost
You showed me your love in the light of the stars

Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me

Then the mountain rose before me
By the deep well of desire
From the fountain of forgiveness
Beyond the ice and the fire

Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me

Though we share this humble path, alone
How fragile is the heart
Oh give these clay feet wings to fly
To touch the face of the stars

Breathe life into this feeble heart
Lift this mortal veil of fear
Take these crumbled hopes, etched with tears
We'll rise above these earthly cares

Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me..."
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