Love and Lust 2
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN JOHNNY DEPP... sadly.
Chapter 1
It had been 17 years since Jenna had told Johnny she was pregnant, and surprisingly (to the both of them) the world still hadn’t become tired of them. In movies- and as famous entities. But what came as even more of a surprise- the media hadn’t been able to print one picture of any of their children.
Johnny was officially 42 and damn happy he had made it that far. Jenna, on the other hand- was 41 and pregnant- again, with their 5th- and according to Jenna-last child.
They were sitting at the Oscars after-party, Jenna had won her second Oscar that night. Johnny had won his second Oscar two years ago- that had been a nightmare for him. But right now, Jenna felt like the least luckiest girl in the world.
“ooohhh why won’t she just bloody pop out of me already!” Jenna exclaimed, whispering loudly in Johnny’s ear. It was simple to say she was exhausted from being pregnant, any day she was due.
Johnny had insisted that they skip the Oscars, the risk being too great, but George- Jenna’s agent, simply wouldn’t have it. So Johnny made sure to have ambulances waiting by at every back entrance- just in case Jenna decided to force the baby out.
“Just be patient, it’ll happen.” Johnny reassured her before taking a sip of his wine.
“No! I’m so tired of being patient! -Johnny, the doctor said that if I get horny then it shortens the wait. Come on- say something sexy.”
Jenna’s hormones, Johnny had noticed- were completely haywire during her pregnancies.
There was a period of time for 4 years straight where Jenna had a baby every year right after her first one.
Jack was the first born, he was now 17 and certainly a mystery to his parents. He was a kind, soft spoken boy- something he took after his father. But his long days and nights locked in his room worried everyone, having a child full of secrets was not an easy thing to live with.
But the hardest one Johnny and Jenna found to tame was 16 year old Danny. In short- he was the bad boy with no manners, and nothing kind to say. It was almost as if Johnny had been split in two between Jack and Danny- one taking the light side and the other taking after the dark. Needless to say Danny certainly had a reputation for multiple girlfriends, late nights out partying without his parents permission, and what frightened Johnny (especially) most- was the drugs.
Thankfully, there were at least 3 out of the four children who turned out with the better traits. At only 15 years old, Lily wanted nothing more than to be an actress on the big screen. Of course when she told Johnny that he pushed her to “become a nun god damnit!” (She had most definitely taken almost completely after her mother) Finally an agreement was reached that 18 would be the age for her to choose her career. And a bit of a geek at heart- Lily officially had her father stuck to her. She was his little girl.
Lastly there was the small tragedy of 14 year old Tim, born deaf. In the beginning, the struggle was awful. But, soon enough the entire family had learned sign language and Tim had learn how to read lips faster than he read words. Being the writer and artist of the family, he didn’t need to be able to achieve what he wanted, his ambitions never let him down.
And there Jenna sat, feeling like a whale with their 5th child- their next daughter.
“Jen, I’m not going to say something sexy.” Johnny replied to his girl. 17 years together and she still insisted on this every time she had gotten pregnant and they would go out.
“Johnnnyyy come on!” She exclaimed.
Johnny refused to reply, Jenna Sighed in defeat.
“Fine, I wanna go home now though and take the first plane back to France.” She said stubbornly.
“Now that’s something I agree to.” Johnny replied, helping her stand up from her chair.
As they walked towards the back exit they ran into Joan Rivers, who went on to say how beautiful Jenna looked. And Jenna promptly called her an old hag and a liar once her back was turned.
When they arrived in France, they stepped inside their two story house at around midnight, the children obviously asleep. Jenna made her way upstairs wanting to get into bed as soon as she possibly could.
Johnny walked over to the couch and shook awake his old friend. “Hey Tim man wake up.”
Tim Burton snorted himself out of his sleep as he looked tiredly up at Johnny.
“How was it? Did Jenna Win?” He asked standing up and stretching before grabbing his coat.
“Yep- I think it took every muscle in her body not to strangle the presenter when they said her name. Her hormones are really twisting her around at this point, she’s never been so wired and strange.” Johnny said as they walked to the front door.
“Oh man the more and more pregnancies the more wired the woman get during them. Helena got her tubes tied after she had Chaucer so no more babies for me- 4’s my limit man- I don’t know how you’re going to keep track of five.” Tim said. He and Helena lived next door to Johnny and Jenna and the couples always were around to help each other out.
“I don’t know either Tim, I mean- we haven’t had sex since we found out she was pregnant 9 months ago… I’m dying over here. I don’t even think we’ve had a real kiss in 9 months. And not only that but once the baby’s born we’ll have 5 kids to run after- including a new-born, I swear I’m starting to piss blood.” Johnny exclaimed.
“Well you know that’s how Helena is too- I don’t know what it was that she didn’t find appealing in sex anymore. Let me tell you something though, women don’t find being pregnant sexy. Especially in the last couple of months. And once the baby’s born they won’t want to have sex either, you’re just going to have to be patient.”
“Easier said than done. We don’t get any time for ourselves anymore. I suppose it‘s a good thing Jenna‘s getting her tubes tied.” Johnny sighed.
“I know how you feel about kids Johnny, but 5 is enough. Especially with the last one having a 15 year age difference from your 4th one.”
“Yeah, but at least Lily will have another girl in the house. Listen I’ll see you tomorrow maybe I think I’m gunna head off to bed.”
Johnny and Tim said their last good bye’s before Johnny headed up the stairs feeling more exhausted than ever. Suddenly just as he reached the top of the stairs he heard a thump come from Danny’s room.
Slowly looking through the crack of the door, Johnny looked as he watched his 16 year old crawl himself through his window into the bathroom vomiting in the toilet. Gripping the door handle tight Johnny held in his anger, it had been this past year when Danny had turned out like this.
There were some serious issues going on with that boy, and it drove Jenna and Johnny insane and up to their wits with him. But Johnny knew that now was not the time or the place to attempt in knocking some sense into his once kind son.
Creeping into his room and shutting the door behind him, Johnny saw Jenna sprawled out on the bed lying uncomfortably on her back. Johnny took off his clothes leaving him in nothing but his boxers as he laid on the bed next to his very much pregnant girl.
“…you’re still beautiful.” Johnny whispered looking down at her, running his hand over her enormous stomach.
Careful to lay his head on the top of Jenna’s breast, Johnny fell asleep almost immediately.
Johnny wasn’t asleep for too long as he felt himself get caught up in his dream. Opening his eyes quickly he looked down to see his rather large member standing fully up.
‘f*ck’ he thought, this had been the 7th week in a row where he had woken up in the middle of the night to ‘take care of business’
He sat down at the edge of the bathtub wrapping his hand around his thick penis, closing his eyes rubbing himself back and forth as he imagined it was Jenna’s hand doing it to him- or even better- her mouth.
Johnny held back his moan as he though of her under him, biting her bottom lip weeping as he moved himself in and out of her. The feeling of her soft breasts under his toned tan chest, her legs fully wrapped around his lower back- and finally her nails digging into his back side cheeks begging him to go deeper.
Johnny felt himself erupt in his hand as he wheezed heavily for air. It wasn’t enough for him to feel satisfied- he hadn’t been satisfied in a long time.
Just as he was finishing cleaning up he heard a knock at the door, opening it slowly he saw his girl standing there scratching her stomach.
“Johnny can you get out please, I have to pee.” She said tiredly.
“Yeah, sure.” He said walking past her.
“Hem hem…” Jenna said, catching Johnny’s attention. “Don’t you think you’re forgetting something?”
Johnny almost began to smile, for this last pregnancy she hadn’t let Johnny kiss her for more than a split second. Just as he was about to walk back towards her and get what he had been aching to do for the past 9 months- she held up a towel making him stop.
“When you’re done washing your hands you hang the towels back up again” She said with a raised eyebrow, putting the towel back up before closing the door in his face.
Johnny hid his obvious disappointment well as he just painfully smiled at her before the door closed in his face and sprawled himself back on their bed, using every ounce of his will power not to scream at the top of his lungs from frustration.
For the past 17 years Johnny and Jenna were perhaps the most passionate couple ever. Making love at least 6 times a week (even during work times), always making time for romantic dinners. Never forgetting to leave work at work. Talking and laughing together about everything, having the outmost trust in one another.
But this last pregnancy certainly sprung them for a surprise. It was changing everything. Although the kids were handling it well (Except for Danny who rolled his eyes at the news), Jenna was exhausted after the first day. Johnny understood perfectly- she had already been through 4 pregnancies in a row- one right after the other, he understood how exhausted she was even if they were 15 years ago.
Her body (thankfully) Had returned to it’s normal state after all four pregnancies, of course there were a couple of stretch marks on her hips, but nothing too drastic.
But for the past 9 months Jenna had paid Johnny little to no attention. No kisses, no hugs, no nothing. She of course didn’t notice it, but Johnny was going mental on the inside.
chapter 2
“Hey Cameron…” Johnny said smiling, walking into his agent Tracey’s office. Cameron was his new personal assistant, his sister had the job for a while- but when she and her girlfriend decided to adopt- she hired someone else to take her place.
Cameron Smear was in her mid-30’s. Thin, tall, blonde and beautiful. A girl from New York, she always wanted to go after something big. Johnny, she felt, was just that for her.
Johnny took the seat next to her as they both waited for Tracey to arrive, Tracey had just flown from L.A. to reach Johnny since he refused to go back unless it was a matter of life and death.
“Hey Johnny, how have you been? Haven’t seen you for months…” She said smiling at him, her bright blue eyes sparkling in the sun.
“I know right? Not since my last movie wrapped up.” He replied.
“How’s the lady of the house?”
“Very much pregnant.” Johnny chuckled, Cameron raised her eyebrows in surprise.
“She hasn’t had the baby yet? But she was at least 3 months pregnant since the last time I saw you.” Cameron had been there for the first three months, and was the first and only outsider to notice Jenna’s neglect for Johnny the moment the pregnancy was discovered. Cameron felt a huge sense of bitterness towards Jenna- how could a woman possibly take a man like Johnny for granted? And that, pissed Cameron off the most.
“Yeah I know, believe me if anything to me and her it seems like she’s been pregnant for years.”
“so, things going slow in the Depp house-hold?”
“Yeah, I guess you could say that.” Johnny said, unable to hide the disappointment in his voice as he looked down.
Not a moment later did Cameron take Johnny’s hand in hers as she began to stroke it. “you know… I’m always here if you need someone. For anything.”
Johnny looked up immediately at her. He knew exactly what she was implying, but for the first time ever since being with Jenna- he didn’t know how to answer. Nine months of constantly being ignored could do a lot of bad to a man…
“you should call me sometime Mr. Depp…” She said softly, raising his hand to her lips.
Johnny had known Cameron was a flirt, and he always sensed she had a thing for him. He knew that one day she would eventually come on to him, and before Jenna got pregnant he knew straight away that he would turn her away and tell her if she tried something like that again- she would lose her job.
Johnny felt an internal battle. He had no feelings for Cameron what so ever. But she was the first person for the past 9 months to have given him honest attention. To talk to him, to hang out with him… to touch him with care.
Just as Cameron put his hand back down,, Tracey walked into the room taking her seat behind her desk.
“Hello Johnny…” She said his name in a less enthusiastic tone making Johnny smile.
“Trace, baby- you know you love flying.” He said, knowing she hated this act.
“about as much as I love spending time with you Johnny.” Tracey shot back, a smile on her face.
“Ouch!” He exclaimed.
“Cameron, what are you doing here?” Tracey asked suspiciously, P.A.’s were rarely ever involved in agency situations.
“Oh, I just wanted to come to Paris for a bit, thought I’d stop by and sit in, see what’s going on.” She replied innocently.
“Alright then. Johnny- how long are you planning this hiatus?” Tracey said, cutting straight to the point.
“Ugh Trace it’s only been like 6 months- and I won’t even consider looking at a script until summer! Especially with the baby coming and all probably at the end of this week-”
“I was just wondering Johnny- but I figured as much since that’s what George and Gerald told me about Jenna. But I’m not here to talk to you about that. Tomorrow night your film is going to be premiering in Italy, you need to make an appearance at least on the red carpet. Your flight will leave tomorrow morning, you’ll only be staying one night there and then you can come back here the next day.”
Johnny sighed, he most definitely didn’t want to leave. He wanted to stay and take care of Jenna, especially with time being so close to the birth.
“I don’t know Tracey…”
“Please Johnny- just one more time. It’ll hold the press off since you’ll be out of the spot for a while.” Tracey pleaded.
“Fine. But I hope neither you or they are expecting Jenna to come. I was scared enough when we went to the Oscars that something would happen God forbid to the baby.”
“Don’t worry I don’t expect it, but I don’t want you to be alone either. …Cameron will be going with you.”
“I’m home!” Johnny shouted as he walked through the front door.
“Hi daddy.” His beautiful young girl said smiling up at him, giving him a kiss on the cheek.
“Hi princess, how was school today?” He asked taking off his jacket.
“Boring…” Lily said sighing dramatically.
“Lily… what is it?”
“Well, there’s this audition-”
“A movie audition?”
“…..maybe.”
“absolutely not Lily.” Johnny said demandingly. Lily was just like her mom in every way- including her young desire for acting. But Johnny and Jenna’s rule was simple- she couldn’t do film acting until she turned 18. They didn’t want her to miss out on her childhood. Fame at only 15 was a big deal- and she would miss a lot if she had it.
“But dad-”
“No buts Lily. You know the rule. I don’t care if it’s directed by the Coen Brothers- You’re not auditioning for this movie. You‘re only asking me because we both know if you asked your mom she would demand you not do it until 21.”
Lily scrunched up her face at her father and growled walking away from him, mumbling angry words in French.
Johnny sighed and rubbed his eyes, he hated disappointing her, but it was for her own good. As he walked into the kitchen he spotted Danny sitting at the table with his head in his arms.
“we need to have a talk Dan…” Johnny said after pouring himself a cup of coffee and turning to his son who was dressed in all black- as usual. At receiving no answer Johnny continued. “I saw you crawl into your bedroom last night and vomit a sh*t load of what I assume is every drug imaginable into your toilet.”
“Yeah, and why do you care?” Danny asked carelessly as he looked up at his dad. He had his mothers bright green eyes which stood out immensely as he had inherited his dads dark jet colored hair.
“Danny- Don’t be stupid-” Johnny began angrily.
“Yeah well the last time I checked you seem to only care about your 3 other perfect children- even the deaf one who mumbles like a moron!” Danny shouted, he had slammed the backdoor before Johnny could get to him.
Johnny, who’s anger boiled untamed in his body turned to the kitchen door to see Tim walk in.
‘what’s wrong?’ he signed, noticing how angry his dad looked.
‘nothing.’ Johnny signed back, giving his youngest a smile. For once he was happy that Tim was deaf so he couldn’t hear Danny’s shouting about him as it had echoed throughout the house.
Giving Jack a kiss on his head, Johnny walked past him and up the stairs to look for his girl. Being caught off guard as he walked towards his bedroom, he ran right into his oldest, Jack.
“Hey dad, I could always knock some sense into Danny if you want.” he suggested.
“You’re too smart for that Jack, just please go downstairs and keep an eye on Tim. The kids at school have been teasing him nonstop and Danny hasn’t stood up for him once.”
“why am I not surprised. But yeah, I’ll hang out with him now, I have time.” Jack replied, he was always the more ‘hippiesh’ person of the family. His hair was shaggy and his scarf collection was huge, but yet his maturity was even larger.
Finally sighing as he closed his bedroom door behind him, he found Jenna hunched over the windowsill with her face in her hands.
“we have to do something about that kid.” She said softly, obviously talking about Danny.
“I know. But right now we have to take care of you and this kid.” Johnny said coming up behind her and rubbing her stomach.
After a few moments of silence, Johnny knew that now was the best time.
“I have to leave tomorrow morning to Italy. I’ll only be staying the night, I’ll be back the day after tomorrow.”
Slowly Jenna turned around facing him, obviously not happy. But to his surprise she didn’t say anything, only gave him a hard stare.
“Say something Jen-” He said softly.
“What do you want me to say? …I can’t believe that you actually agreed to go, you know the baby’s due in a couple of days.”
“Yes, I know I know- but I have to go.”
“No. You don’t have to go.” Jenna said brushing past him angrily, leaving him alone in the room.
That night Johnny couldn’t get a wink of sleep. But he wasn’t thinking about Lily’s wanting to audition, or Danny’s ‘issues’, or Tim being picked on or Jack- although all of their issues were in his mind, they weren’t what he was focusing on just then. He expected nothing less, they were going through their teenage years. The worst years of their life.
Johnny instead was thinking of the woman next to him. …when had she turned so cold?
All of a sudden as if on cue, Jenna bolted and sat right up, breathing heavily and sweating slightly.
“What’s wrong?” Johnny asked worriedly as he sat up too, rubbing her back lightly.
“I-In my dream… you died in it.” She said with a shaky voice, her wide eyes looking down still in a state of shock.
“What?” He replied surprised.
“You were dead in my dream… you died and left me all alone…” She said again, her voice obviously showing she was on the edge of tears. Wasting no time Johnny took her in his arms and let her cry into his chest.
“Shhhh… I’m not gunna die baby… I’m still here…” He whispered in her ear.
A bad time to pick up and go to Italy for two days with Cameron- that much he knew.
chapter 3
Johnny began to open his bag slowly, he could hear Cameron do the same in her room. Their rooms were separated by only one door- that had no lock on it. Cameron’s part had the t.v. and Johnny’s part had the kitchen, along with each of their bedrooms. This definitely made Johnny nervous.
He hadn’t expected to only have a door in between them, but with the premier, everything was overbooked and it was the best Tracey could get.
Johnny mindlessly looked through the items in his bag, he wasn’t even going to bother unpacking if he was only going to stay the night- but there were two items that he always took out.
Johnny placed the framed photographs on the dresser next to his bed so he could stare at them whenever he wanted.
In the first one, it was a close-up of Johnny and Jenna’s face, him behind her with their cheeks up against the others’ smiling- it reminded Johnny of the better times.
The other picture he remembered when Tim took the picture last summer at a barbeque between the Burton family and the Depp family. It was a common occurrence during summers where none of the adults were working, especially since they lived next door to each other.
In the picture Johnny was sitting down in a chair with his arm wrapped around Jenna’s waist as she sat on his lap with her arms wrapped around his shoulders, they were staring at each other with their noses touching, laughing, looking one another straight in the eyes. Around them were their children standing up all laughing and smiling- even Danny. Jack had his elbow resting on Danny’s shoulder, while Tim stood behind lily with his arms wrapped around her- Johnny’s heart fell as he took a closer look at the picture and saw that Tim’s practically useless hearing aid was in full view.
Sighing Johnny placed the picture back on the dresser thinking how badly he wanted things to be like they were in that picture again. Danny to be smiling and kind, Lily to not be begging for auditions… well that had never stopped but it didn’t mean Johnny still wasn’t wishing for it, Jack to not feel so much responsibility and to be more care-free as he used to be, and finally Timmy to not have the kids tease him in school.
Johnny had given Tim the same advice that Johnny’s mom had given him when he was a kid and people were picking on him. His mother told him precisely to pick up the nearest rock- and ‘do that damn kid in.’ Johnny had done it- and he felt good about it. But Tim, sweet Tim was too kind. While Danny who is completely ashamed of his challenged brother, has never helped him. That didn’t just anger Johnny and Jenna- it broke their hearts.
All of their children went to the same high school. Tim a freshman, beautiful Lily a sophomore, Danny a Junior, and Jack a senior. They were all pleasant, intelligent, and well balanced (well, three out of four).
Johnny chuckled at the thought that Tim was exactly like the man he was named after- kind, weird, and curly haired. Eventually when they would all get together confusion arose when someone would say the name ‘Tim’, so the nickname Timmy arose for Johnny’s little boy. A kid who deserved so much more in life.
“knock knock”
Johnny heard a light female voice from across the room on the other side of the separating door, breaking him from his trance.
“Uh.. Yeah I’m here, come on in.” He said not really thinking about where he was.
In no more than a split second Cameron was walking into his bedroom. He was finding her standing insanely close to him as she picked up the framed picture.
“Awe, how sweet.” She cooed. “I’ve never actually met your children.”
“Well you know me and Jenna- work and family are on waaay separate spheres.”
“Wow- your children are really attractive.” Cameron said with wide eyes. Johnny and Jenna knew that their children were quite good looking, it only worried Johnny more about Lily- and proved his point that she, in his words ‘hurry herself to a nunnery.’
“Thank you.” He replied simply, Cameron put the picture back down and turned to him.
“I don’t know why I was so surprised though, I figured they’d be so good looking since they are after all your children….”
Johnny cleared his throat as she got so close to him he could feel her breath on his face. Cameron began to lean up her lips so close to his, Johnny just stood there looking down at her- the entire scene playing out in slow motion. suddenly he felt his phone vibrate in his pocket, just as her lips were to touch his.
“Hello?” He said with a shaky voice, turning away from Cameron immediately, he couldn’t believe he almost let that happen.
“Hey Johnny it’s Tracey- are you ok? You sound a bit shaken up?”
“Yeah, it’s cool. So, what’s the plan for tonight?”
“Arrive at the red carpet in about an hour and only take a couple of pictures for the paparazzi, then sign as many autographs as you want- and for you that’s everyone your arm can get to until someone forces you away from your fans- and then you can go back to your hotel room and relax. Sound good?”
“Sounds good trace- I’ll see you tonight.”
Johnny listened to the empty line for a bit to get his thoughts straight. Cameron wouldn’t be going with him to the premier, but she would be spending the night practically in the same place as him. And knowing her, she would insist they stay up late and talk as she usually did. But this time it would be different, because now Johnny knew- she had enough courage to go after what she wanted.
Johnny hung up his phone and turned to Cameron who looked at him with a smirk on her face. Johnny gulped air as he watched her slowly tip the photograph of him and Jenna so it was flat on the dresser before she sauntered out of his room giving him a good show of her rear end.
Chapter 4
Johnny sat on the floor laughing with Cameron, it was about 1 in the morning and just as he predicted they were sitting around talking.
“So you seriously don’t mind dressing in women’s clothing?” Cameron giggled.
“Well… no, I don’t mind. I’m not a cross-dresser or anything- I don’t do it in my spare time, but when the time calls for it, I’ve been known to strap on one sexy pair of high heels.”
As Cameron began to laugh again Johnny’s mind took him to a place back- far back. It was 17 years ago, Johnny and Jenna’s first couple of months together. Johnny remembered they had planned to have sex for the first time but unexpectedly her period had started and she refused to smile because she felt she had ruined everything. Johnny felt he had no choice.
During the last 20 minutes of ‘the notebook’ he snuck into her room, put on her clothes and makeup and lip synched to Aerosmith just to make her laugh. Even after all these years he could never forget a minute he’d had with her.
“what are you thinking about?” Cameron asked softly, noticing Johnny’s distant look.
“Oh…uh…” Johnny began to laugh lightly. “I was just remembering a time when my girl was down in the dumps, I had dressed up in her clothes, put on her makeup and lip synched to ‘Jaded’ just to get to smile…”
Once again Johnny found himself lost in his own world, before Cameron spoke up. “You’re one in a million Johnny.”
Johnny looked up at her with is eyebrows raised. “Who? Me? God no I’m not one in a million. I’m just a guy who’s been very much in love…”
“A guy in love with a girl who’s not treating him like she loves him.” Cameron said firmly. Johnny opened his mouth ready to reply, but nothing came out.
“Johnny… I know you’re a great guy- hell you’re f*cking amazing… but it’s such a shame that the girl who’s got you treats you like crap. I noticed it from the first day I started working with you-”
“Yeah but Cameron you have to understand that all of this came about during this pregnancy- she was never like this before-”
“Pregnant or not- you deserve someone who treats you just as well as you treat her.” Cameron said firmly.
Johnny didn’t know what to say, this was one of the few times that he had actually been rendered speechless. Most of those times he found was when he was with Cameron.
“Johnny…” Cameron began scooting closer to him. Johnny’s back was against the couch and now she was so close that he could smell her sweet perfume.
She raised her hand to his cheek, rubbing it lightly.
“Cameron… I’m too old for you.” He said with a light smile on his face.
“Johnny- I’m 37-”
“and I’m 42.”
“…You don’t look 42. Even in the magazine’s they say you don’t look a day older than 25.” She said seductively.
“Okay, so my Cherokee blood is giving me some good traits- but it doesn’t change the fact that I have a girl, a family-”
“A girl who doesn’t treat you well and a family I’m dying to meet…you‘re not even married to her-”
It seemed with everyone of her words she inched her face closer to his.
“Well, we’re as good as married. We consider ourselves married- contract or not.” Johnny said firmly. Even after all these years he could never forget the misunderstanding and nightmare that was created between him and Jenna almost 17 years ago.
“Well then…” She began straddling Johnny’s legs that were straight out in front of him. She sat on the top of his thighs, right below his member. “There’s still no binding contract.” She whispered her lips so close to Johnny’s.
Just as he was going to reply he mouth had landed on his. He knew it was wrong but it was heaven to be able to kiss someone with passion again- Johnny couldn’t believe it but he was actually kissing her back. In his latest movie, ’the Rum Diary’, he didn’t have to kiss anyone, so it had been a while for him.
Cameron slipped her tongue into his warm mouth taking Johnny by surprise and snapping him back into reality.
Immediately he broke the kiss and stood up, moving her away from him.
“Cameron, no. I can’t do this. I love Jenna. What’s happening now is just temporary-”
“if it’s just temporary- then why did you kiss me back?” She challenged, obviously not happy that he was denying her. Cameron was an unbelievably attractive woman, and Johnny knew that almost no one denied her.
“That was my d*ck talking- not my heart.” He said, so ashamed of himself. He’d never kissed another girl except Jenna- unless it was for a scene- and even then he didn’t kiss them like he’d kiss her. He’d almost given Cameron that.
“Well, all we need tonight is your d*ck to talk. We can worry about that second part later” She said smiling and standing up, Johnny swallowed.
Slowly she took off her t-shirt and sweat pants proving she had no underwear or bra on leaving nothing for Johnny’s imagination as he looked at her wide-eyed.
“It’s just one time Johnny…” She began seductively as she walked till she was right in front of him. “Then we can decide from there.”
She took his hand and placed his palm on her warm soft breast, making him unconsciously close his eyes at the contact. Cameron softly kissed his lips and whispered against them, “Tell me you don’t want me.”
“I do want you…” Johnny whispered.
Cameron smiled and leaned her lips up to his lips once more as Johnny let his hand fall from her breast. But before she could reach his mouth Johnny took his hands and held her head still, bringing his lips to her ear and her chin to his shoulder.
“I want you…” He whispered, “to put your clothes back on while I go back into my bedroom. Then by the time I come out again, I want you back in your room calling some of your connections to look for another job. And I want you to never mention Jenna again, because you don’t know the kind of woman she really is. A woman you’ll never live up to, no matter how many desperate guys you get to screw you. I’m not one of them.”
With that Johnny turned his back on Cameron walking straight on towards his room to call his girl, never looking back as he closed his bedroom door behind him.
For months Cameron had tortured him, showing him what he could have that he wasn’t getting at home. But it was as if in one huge flash between the time that Cameron had undressed herself and she had put his hand on her breast, his life before he had met Jenna popped into his head.
He hadn’t been speaking with his family, he did drugs, was constantly depressed, slit his wrists, even attempted suicide a couple of times. And then right after those popped into his head, one particular time put everything in complete perspective.
It was when Stacy had come, she had manipulated him and turned him against her. In one day of treating her like crap and one night of treating her almost like a common prostitute- he had almost lost her forever. Even today, Johnny knew that what he had done those 1 ½ days were a million times worse than what she had been doing to him- or rather not been doing to him for 9 months.
‘She’s my girl, stuck with me through everything- changed my world completely… she gave birth to our children and has been the most amazing mother to them for God’s sake!’ his voice screamed in his head the moment his hand touched Cameron’s breast.
So there Johnny sat on his bed. Still horny. Still aggravated from the lack of attention he was receiving at all ends of Jenna. But still crazy in love with that girl- after all these years.
His cell phone suddenly vibrated in his pocket, making him jump. Looking at the caller id, it read ‘lover’. Johnny smiled, opened the phone and held it to his ear.
“Hey Jen.” He said softly into the phone, but what he got in response was not what he had expected.
“Johnny?” Jenna wept, Johnny could hear her sob even though she tried to keep it down so the rest of the house couldn’t hear.
“Jenna, baby what’s wrong? Are you ok? Are the children ok? Is there something wrong with the baby??” Johnny asked urgently all in one breath.
“Yes Johnny we’re all fine…” She said blowing her nose.
He let out a sigh of relief as he laid back on the bed, happy it wasn’t something tragic.
“Well then, tell me what’s wrong cupcake.” he said.
“I had another dream Johnny… and you died in it.”
Just when he thought her voice had begin to calm down, she had broken into a heap of tears.
“What happened in it?” He asked calmly, hoping it would calm her down as well.
“I don’t know… we were just laying around, lounging on our bed, then all of a sudden you just died. I don’t know but you weren’t there anymore, I was all alone. You were gone, I knew you were dead!” She exclaimed before another wave of sobs had overcome her.
Before Johnny could speak she had continued desperately, “never leave me Johnny, I need you so bad- I can’t do this alone… I need you so much…” She repeated to him.
“Shhh baby, it’s ok, calm down.” He cooed softly into the phone. “I need you too, more than you’ll ever know. I won’t leave you baby… I’ll never leave you…”
chapter 5
Tim- or Timmy Depp, sat at the lunch table doodling in his sketch book as he ate his sandwich. He usually found himself sitting alone at lunch- none of the kids really wanted to sit with him. It was ok though, he was use to it.
The only thing that made him sad was knowing that Lily and Jack would most definitely sit by him- but they each had a different lunch time than him. Thus, making Tim have the same lunch time as his brother Danny.
‘no wonder I’m sitting alone.’ Tim thought to himself.
Just as he finished his drawing, a hand slammed his book shut. Tim looked up at the kid, he was no stranger to him.
Paul Dermit had been picking on Tim for the past year, taunting him constantly, because Tim was the only kid who had a disability at the American-French high school in Paris. Tim found himself unlucky, because he knew that Jack would stick up for him in a heart-beat, as would Lily, but he found that everything surrounded Danny. Their classes were near each others, they shared the same lunch times, had the same gym class, and Danny never stuck up for him.
“What’s wrong Timmy… deafness got your tongue?” Paul said his group of friends around him laughing. The entire cafeteria was watching them, it was their form of entertainment. Tim could only hear the tone of Paul’s voice, but he was an expert at lip reading and could form his words quite well when he spoke.
“Just leave me alone Paul.” Tim said, attempting to go back to his drawing.
“Just leave me alone Paul!” Paul mocked Tim, imitating his voice that sounded strange since he couldn’t hear himself when he spoke. The entire cafeteria broke out into laughter, It was only the sophomore and Junior class- but it was still quite a bit of people.
Tim couldn’t hear the laughs, but he saw it on people’s faces. He observed around him as he saw that almost all of the guys were laughing, while most of the girls laid low not laughing- but not sticking up for him either. Finally Tim’s eyes landed on Danny who sat at the top of the lunch table- not laughing but just staring as Paul continued to mock Tim.
When Danny’s eyes caught Tim looking at him, he immediately turned his head away-ignoring the silent pleas of his brother.
Without even bothering to look up at Paul, Tim grabbed his book and his messenger bag and walked away knowing that he was still being mocked as he walked out of the Cafeteria door.
‘don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry,’ Tim repeated to himself in his head, slamming his eyes shut.
“Jenna?” Johnny shouted dropping his bag on the floor, his voice echoed through the house. He knew the kids were at school, but he specifically told Jenna to stay at home until he came back- he didn’t want her to go anywhere alone when she was due any day.
“Jenna?” Johnny called out again as he walked up the stairs into their room.
Finally he opened the door and found her laying on her back atop of the covers on the bed, just staring at the ceiling.
“Jenna…” He whispered laying on the bed next to her, hovering over her as he leaned on his elbow. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m so tired…” Her soft voice said, “but I can’t go to sleep. I don’t want to go to sleep. What if I wake up and you’re not here.”
“Baby…” Johnny whispered, his fingers lightly tracing on her cheek. “I’ll always be here. Now come on, I’m tired too, we’ll both go to sleep. And when you wake up- I’ll still be here and you’ll be with me.”
Finally, Jenna’s eyes moved to look into his. “Promise?” She asked making him smile.
“I swear.”
Johnny helped Jenna move slowly to lay on her side so he back was towards his chest. Wrapping his arms around her, he took both of her hands in his and placed them over her Large stomach, falling asleep almost immediately.
“Pere… Pere…” A soft voice said in Johnny’s ear.
“Hmmm?” He replied, his eyes still shut knowing it was Lily.
“It’s almost dinner time.”
“Go order some food for everyone, your mom and I will be down in a bit.” He mumbled before hearing Lily walk out of the room closing the door behind her.
“Jenna…” Johnny whispered in his girl’s ear. “Jen wake up.”
No more then a second later did Jenna’s eyes burst wide open as she gasped for air, coughing and almost sobbing no doubt coming out of another terrible nightmare.
“Shh I’m still here.” Johnny whispered in her ear, making his hold on her as tight as possible. “See? It’s just a dream.”
Jenna rolled on to her back staring up at Johnny who was holding his weight on his forearms, not wanting to put any pressure on the belly.
“You are still here.” She said softly with a light smile on her face as she ran her fingers through his hair.
“I’m sorry Johnny.” Jenna said suddenly, making him furrow his eyebrows.
“For what?”
“for these past 9 months… I’ve realized in these past couple of days how badly I’ve been treating you. But I promise that after we get settled when the baby’s born- I’ll make it up to you… I swear I will. -as long as you won’t mind making love to a woman still chubby from giving birth, just had her tubes tied, and will poses a rather large pair of milk filled breasts.”
Johnny and Jenna broke out into laughter. He leaned down and rubbed his nose against hers looking her straight in the eyes. “I wouldn’t want to make love to anyone else.”
“Good. …I love you Johnny.”
“And I love you baby.”
“DINNER’S HERE!! WOOOOOO!!!!” Jack’s voice shouted throughout the whole house making Johnny and Jenna chuckle, their son always did think with his stomach first.
“So how was school?” Jenna asked taking a huge bite from her pasta, they had ordered her 2 entrées knowing the consequences would be horrific if they had only ordered one.
“It was a BOOOORREEE.” Jack whined, he had wanted to drop out after sophomore year but his parents refused to let him.
“Same old same old.” Lily replied, not really caring too much for the subject.
Tim and Danny avoided their parents eyes, neither not wanting to answer. Tim, because he was ashamed and embarrassed by what happened. Danny because he didn’t want to face anyone about it.
Tim felt his shoulder being shook and finally looked up at his father who signed, ‘what’s wrong?’
‘nothing.’ Tim signed back.
‘Tim was being teased today and Danny did nothing.’ Jack signed angry.
Johnny dropped his fork, ‘is this true?’
‘then entire school knows about it, Paul wouldn’t stop bragging for the rest of the day.’ Lily signed to the table.
‘it’s really ok-’ Tim began to sign before his father cut him off.
‘No. It’s not.’
Danny looked up at his dad and saw anger burning in his eyes, finally his eyes landed on his mom who looked at him with absolute sadness.
‘I’m so disappointed in you Danny.” She signed before sighing and laying her forehead on Johnny’s shoulder.
Johnny threw his napkin down, raised his finger at Danny ready to give him a piece of his mind once and for all. But before he could, he was cut off.
“OH MY GOD.” Jenna bellowed gasping and grabbing her stomach.
“Baby, what is it?” Johnny asked worried.
“….My water just broke.”
Chapter 6
“YOU BASTARD YOU DID THIS TO ME!!!!” Jenna shouted at the top of her lungs before vaulting her palm against Johnny’s cheek.
“OUCH!” He shouted putting his hand against his abused cheek.
Jenna was already three hours into labor as she laid on the table and he sat and waited till it was time for the baby to come out. Their kids sat in the waiting area along with Tim, Helena, and George and Gerald who had flown in from London at last minute.
Johnny had been right next to Jenna during all four of their children’s birth- this marking the fifth. But this time it was different. Jenna was sweating more, heaving for air- and as he recalled even after 14 years since the last time she had given birth- he’d never remembered her being in this much pain.
Granted Johnny knew that a woman giving birth went through the worst pain imaginable in the world- but he had never actually seen her sob only 3 hours into labor. As far as they knew they could be there for 72 hours.
“Monsieur Depp… Une fois la femme obtient violent nous pensons c'est meilleur pour la sûreté de l'homme qu'il part la pièce. (once the woman gets violent we think it's best for the safety of the man that he leave the room.)” The doctor said as if he were talking about the weather, smiling at Johnny who found this all quite comical.
“No no no baby don’t leave me please I need you here don’t go I’m sorry…” Jenna rambled on and on sobbing, Johnny immediately grabbed her hand and squeezed it turning to the doctor.
“Merci pour votre inquiétude, mais violent ou pas- je reste avec ma fille. (Thank you for your concern, but violent or not- I'm staying with my girl.)” Johnny replied smiling turning back to Jenna.
“How do you feel darling?”
Jenna breathed quickly, her chest heaving and her body completely flushed and sweaty as tears unconsciously rolled down her cheeks.
“It hurts so bad Johnny, even with all the drugs…” She sobbed. Not a moment later did he stand up and wrap his arms around her shoulder, bending over so he could bury his face in her hair that still smelled sweet.
“I’m here with you… we’ll do this together.” He whispered kissing the top of her head before sitting back down in his chair still holding her hand, smiling at her.
Jenna noticed that they were now the only ones in the room, she didn’t know if it was out of hormones or from the drugs- but she all of a sudden felt the need to confess all the emotions she’d held up inside her for way too long.
“Listen Johnny I know this isn’t the right time…” She said breathing heavily, her free hand placed over her stomach. “but I have a confession to make.”
Johnny looked at her confused, urging her to continue- not caring whether it was the right time or not.
“… I started getting the nightmares since the beginning of the pregnancy…” Jenna said, unable to look at Johnny who looked at her with wide eyes.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” Johnny demanded.
“Because I was too busy being jealous and acting like I didn’t need you.”
It was as if the words were vomited out of Jenna’s mouth because they came out so quickly, even Johnny saw that the moment they had come out- she had regretted saying it.
“Jealous of who?” Johnny said, trying to keep calm and remember that she was going to birth his child and she didn’t need more stress.
“Cameron.” Jenna said beginning to sob.
Johnny just sat staring at her with his jaw agape his heart beating a million times faster. Jenna began to speak up again not letting Johnny say anything.
“She was hired at the beginning of the pregnancy, a hotter, younger, blonder- most definitely thinner woman than I am! I always saw her eye you and then I’d look down at myself and think why the hell as to why you are with me. I tried to convince myself that I didn’t need you, I saw Cameron taking you away from me and I had to stick my ground. I thought maybe you were… sleeping with her. I started having nightmares that you died, that you left me because I thought that you would!” Jenna began to sob immensely into the palms of her hands, but her shocking words still came out crisp and clear to Johnny’s ears. “So I pushed you away for these past nine months- just incase you decided to leave me. -This f-fat, worthless girl w-who’s only good for carrying children- 17 years together and I’ll never be good enough to please you l-like Cameron!!!”
Before Johnny had a moment to register the colossal amount of shock that over took him, a split second after her rant of honesty- Jenna braced herself against her elbows, slamming her eyes shut and screaming at the top of her lungs.
Doctors ran into the room, ready for Jenna to push the baby out. Forcing himself to push anything else but the baby out of his mind- Johnny re-grabbed Jenna’s hand and squeezed it urging her along with the other doctors.
“Come on baby push… you can do it…” Johnny said softly to her as the doctors encouraged as well, but all Jenna could hear was his voice.
Gritting her teeth, using all of her strength imaginable, Jenna screamed as she pushed- feeling her insides split in two.
“She’s crowning!” The doctor shouted, but Jenna knew the worst wasn’t over.
Pushing again with even more force, Jenna squeezed Johnny’s hand as if her life depended on it. After her push Jenna knew that she still had the rest of the baby’s body to go.
Letting her back fall against the perched up pillows, she began to sob. Never out of all four pregnancy’s had they been this painful.
“No more… I can’t… I’m so sorry I can’t…” Her tiny voice whispered as tears ran down her cheek mixing with the sweat that drenched her.
“Jenna- we need to push the rest of this baby out now!” The doctor urged only making her sob.
Suddenly she felt her head being turned, forcing her eyes opened she looked into the eyes of the man that she would die for.
“Jen… do this one last push. I know you can do it.” He urged softly, his heart breaking as he watched her nod her head at him- even when she was in so much pain she would do anything to make him happy. It had to be done.
Taking a large breath Jenna braced herself one more time, pushing harder than she ever thought possible. Grinding her teeth together a large growl erupted in her chest- not a moment later only to be mixed with the sounds of a baby crying. Her body fell backwards from exhaustion.
Even with the pain still surging through her, Jenna couldn’t help but smile and laugh as she saw her baby.
Johnny cut the umbilical chord as he had done with their other children as well, taking the small baby in his arms. He placed their child between them, feelings of euphoria flooding both of the parents senses as they looked down at their baby. Another piece of them that they created.
The doctors were already tying her tubes not wasting any time. It was when Jenna took Johnny’s hand that they averted their attention to each other just as the nurse took their child out of the room to newborn care.
“Take care of our little girl.” Jenna whispered smiling at him before closing her eyes, her head falling back.
As if in a flash, a loud constant beep sounded throughout the room.
She had flat lined.
Jenna’s heart had completely stopped.
Chapter 1
It had been 17 years since Jenna had told Johnny she was pregnant, and surprisingly (to the both of them) the world still hadn’t become tired of them. In movies- and as famous entities. But what came as even more of a surprise- the media hadn’t been able to print one picture of any of their children.
Johnny was officially 42 and damn happy he had made it that far. Jenna, on the other hand- was 41 and pregnant- again, with their 5th- and according to Jenna-last child.
They were sitting at the Oscars after-party, Jenna had won her second Oscar that night. Johnny had won his second Oscar two years ago- that had been a nightmare for him. But right now, Jenna felt like the least luckiest girl in the world.
“ooohhh why won’t she just bloody pop out of me already!” Jenna exclaimed, whispering loudly in Johnny’s ear. It was simple to say she was exhausted from being pregnant, any day she was due.
Johnny had insisted that they skip the Oscars, the risk being too great, but George- Jenna’s agent, simply wouldn’t have it. So Johnny made sure to have ambulances waiting by at every back entrance- just in case Jenna decided to force the baby out.
“Just be patient, it’ll happen.” Johnny reassured her before taking a sip of his wine.
“No! I’m so tired of being patient! -Johnny, the doctor said that if I get horny then it shortens the wait. Come on- say something sexy.”
Jenna’s hormones, Johnny had noticed- were completely haywire during her pregnancies.
There was a period of time for 4 years straight where Jenna had a baby every year right after her first one.
Jack was the first born, he was now 17 and certainly a mystery to his parents. He was a kind, soft spoken boy- something he took after his father. But his long days and nights locked in his room worried everyone, having a child full of secrets was not an easy thing to live with.
But the hardest one Johnny and Jenna found to tame was 16 year old Danny. In short- he was the bad boy with no manners, and nothing kind to say. It was almost as if Johnny had been split in two between Jack and Danny- one taking the light side and the other taking after the dark. Needless to say Danny certainly had a reputation for multiple girlfriends, late nights out partying without his parents permission, and what frightened Johnny (especially) most- was the drugs.
Thankfully, there were at least 3 out of the four children who turned out with the better traits. At only 15 years old, Lily wanted nothing more than to be an actress on the big screen. Of course when she told Johnny that he pushed her to “become a nun god damnit!” (She had most definitely taken almost completely after her mother) Finally an agreement was reached that 18 would be the age for her to choose her career. And a bit of a geek at heart- Lily officially had her father stuck to her. She was his little girl.
Lastly there was the small tragedy of 14 year old Tim, born deaf. In the beginning, the struggle was awful. But, soon enough the entire family had learned sign language and Tim had learn how to read lips faster than he read words. Being the writer and artist of the family, he didn’t need to be able to achieve what he wanted, his ambitions never let him down.
And there Jenna sat, feeling like a whale with their 5th child- their next daughter.
“Jen, I’m not going to say something sexy.” Johnny replied to his girl. 17 years together and she still insisted on this every time she had gotten pregnant and they would go out.
“Johnnnyyy come on!” She exclaimed.
Johnny refused to reply, Jenna Sighed in defeat.
“Fine, I wanna go home now though and take the first plane back to France.” She said stubbornly.
“Now that’s something I agree to.” Johnny replied, helping her stand up from her chair.
As they walked towards the back exit they ran into Joan Rivers, who went on to say how beautiful Jenna looked. And Jenna promptly called her an old hag and a liar once her back was turned.
When they arrived in France, they stepped inside their two story house at around midnight, the children obviously asleep. Jenna made her way upstairs wanting to get into bed as soon as she possibly could.
Johnny walked over to the couch and shook awake his old friend. “Hey Tim man wake up.”
Tim Burton snorted himself out of his sleep as he looked tiredly up at Johnny.
“How was it? Did Jenna Win?” He asked standing up and stretching before grabbing his coat.
“Yep- I think it took every muscle in her body not to strangle the presenter when they said her name. Her hormones are really twisting her around at this point, she’s never been so wired and strange.” Johnny said as they walked to the front door.
“Oh man the more and more pregnancies the more wired the woman get during them. Helena got her tubes tied after she had Chaucer so no more babies for me- 4’s my limit man- I don’t know how you’re going to keep track of five.” Tim said. He and Helena lived next door to Johnny and Jenna and the couples always were around to help each other out.
“I don’t know either Tim, I mean- we haven’t had sex since we found out she was pregnant 9 months ago… I’m dying over here. I don’t even think we’ve had a real kiss in 9 months. And not only that but once the baby’s born we’ll have 5 kids to run after- including a new-born, I swear I’m starting to piss blood.” Johnny exclaimed.
“Well you know that’s how Helena is too- I don’t know what it was that she didn’t find appealing in sex anymore. Let me tell you something though, women don’t find being pregnant sexy. Especially in the last couple of months. And once the baby’s born they won’t want to have sex either, you’re just going to have to be patient.”
“Easier said than done. We don’t get any time for ourselves anymore. I suppose it‘s a good thing Jenna‘s getting her tubes tied.” Johnny sighed.
“I know how you feel about kids Johnny, but 5 is enough. Especially with the last one having a 15 year age difference from your 4th one.”
“Yeah, but at least Lily will have another girl in the house. Listen I’ll see you tomorrow maybe I think I’m gunna head off to bed.”
Johnny and Tim said their last good bye’s before Johnny headed up the stairs feeling more exhausted than ever. Suddenly just as he reached the top of the stairs he heard a thump come from Danny’s room.
Slowly looking through the crack of the door, Johnny looked as he watched his 16 year old crawl himself through his window into the bathroom vomiting in the toilet. Gripping the door handle tight Johnny held in his anger, it had been this past year when Danny had turned out like this.
There were some serious issues going on with that boy, and it drove Jenna and Johnny insane and up to their wits with him. But Johnny knew that now was not the time or the place to attempt in knocking some sense into his once kind son.
Creeping into his room and shutting the door behind him, Johnny saw Jenna sprawled out on the bed lying uncomfortably on her back. Johnny took off his clothes leaving him in nothing but his boxers as he laid on the bed next to his very much pregnant girl.
“…you’re still beautiful.” Johnny whispered looking down at her, running his hand over her enormous stomach.
Careful to lay his head on the top of Jenna’s breast, Johnny fell asleep almost immediately.
Johnny wasn’t asleep for too long as he felt himself get caught up in his dream. Opening his eyes quickly he looked down to see his rather large member standing fully up.
‘f*ck’ he thought, this had been the 7th week in a row where he had woken up in the middle of the night to ‘take care of business’
He sat down at the edge of the bathtub wrapping his hand around his thick penis, closing his eyes rubbing himself back and forth as he imagined it was Jenna’s hand doing it to him- or even better- her mouth.
Johnny held back his moan as he though of her under him, biting her bottom lip weeping as he moved himself in and out of her. The feeling of her soft breasts under his toned tan chest, her legs fully wrapped around his lower back- and finally her nails digging into his back side cheeks begging him to go deeper.
Johnny felt himself erupt in his hand as he wheezed heavily for air. It wasn’t enough for him to feel satisfied- he hadn’t been satisfied in a long time.
Just as he was finishing cleaning up he heard a knock at the door, opening it slowly he saw his girl standing there scratching her stomach.
“Johnny can you get out please, I have to pee.” She said tiredly.
“Yeah, sure.” He said walking past her.
“Hem hem…” Jenna said, catching Johnny’s attention. “Don’t you think you’re forgetting something?”
Johnny almost began to smile, for this last pregnancy she hadn’t let Johnny kiss her for more than a split second. Just as he was about to walk back towards her and get what he had been aching to do for the past 9 months- she held up a towel making him stop.
“When you’re done washing your hands you hang the towels back up again” She said with a raised eyebrow, putting the towel back up before closing the door in his face.
Johnny hid his obvious disappointment well as he just painfully smiled at her before the door closed in his face and sprawled himself back on their bed, using every ounce of his will power not to scream at the top of his lungs from frustration.
For the past 17 years Johnny and Jenna were perhaps the most passionate couple ever. Making love at least 6 times a week (even during work times), always making time for romantic dinners. Never forgetting to leave work at work. Talking and laughing together about everything, having the outmost trust in one another.
But this last pregnancy certainly sprung them for a surprise. It was changing everything. Although the kids were handling it well (Except for Danny who rolled his eyes at the news), Jenna was exhausted after the first day. Johnny understood perfectly- she had already been through 4 pregnancies in a row- one right after the other, he understood how exhausted she was even if they were 15 years ago.
Her body (thankfully) Had returned to it’s normal state after all four pregnancies, of course there were a couple of stretch marks on her hips, but nothing too drastic.
But for the past 9 months Jenna had paid Johnny little to no attention. No kisses, no hugs, no nothing. She of course didn’t notice it, but Johnny was going mental on the inside.
chapter 2
“Hey Cameron…” Johnny said smiling, walking into his agent Tracey’s office. Cameron was his new personal assistant, his sister had the job for a while- but when she and her girlfriend decided to adopt- she hired someone else to take her place.
Cameron Smear was in her mid-30’s. Thin, tall, blonde and beautiful. A girl from New York, she always wanted to go after something big. Johnny, she felt, was just that for her.
Johnny took the seat next to her as they both waited for Tracey to arrive, Tracey had just flown from L.A. to reach Johnny since he refused to go back unless it was a matter of life and death.
“Hey Johnny, how have you been? Haven’t seen you for months…” She said smiling at him, her bright blue eyes sparkling in the sun.
“I know right? Not since my last movie wrapped up.” He replied.
“How’s the lady of the house?”
“Very much pregnant.” Johnny chuckled, Cameron raised her eyebrows in surprise.
“She hasn’t had the baby yet? But she was at least 3 months pregnant since the last time I saw you.” Cameron had been there for the first three months, and was the first and only outsider to notice Jenna’s neglect for Johnny the moment the pregnancy was discovered. Cameron felt a huge sense of bitterness towards Jenna- how could a woman possibly take a man like Johnny for granted? And that, pissed Cameron off the most.
“Yeah I know, believe me if anything to me and her it seems like she’s been pregnant for years.”
“so, things going slow in the Depp house-hold?”
“Yeah, I guess you could say that.” Johnny said, unable to hide the disappointment in his voice as he looked down.
Not a moment later did Cameron take Johnny’s hand in hers as she began to stroke it. “you know… I’m always here if you need someone. For anything.”
Johnny looked up immediately at her. He knew exactly what she was implying, but for the first time ever since being with Jenna- he didn’t know how to answer. Nine months of constantly being ignored could do a lot of bad to a man…
“you should call me sometime Mr. Depp…” She said softly, raising his hand to her lips.
Johnny had known Cameron was a flirt, and he always sensed she had a thing for him. He knew that one day she would eventually come on to him, and before Jenna got pregnant he knew straight away that he would turn her away and tell her if she tried something like that again- she would lose her job.
Johnny felt an internal battle. He had no feelings for Cameron what so ever. But she was the first person for the past 9 months to have given him honest attention. To talk to him, to hang out with him… to touch him with care.
Just as Cameron put his hand back down,, Tracey walked into the room taking her seat behind her desk.
“Hello Johnny…” She said his name in a less enthusiastic tone making Johnny smile.
“Trace, baby- you know you love flying.” He said, knowing she hated this act.
“about as much as I love spending time with you Johnny.” Tracey shot back, a smile on her face.
“Ouch!” He exclaimed.
“Cameron, what are you doing here?” Tracey asked suspiciously, P.A.’s were rarely ever involved in agency situations.
“Oh, I just wanted to come to Paris for a bit, thought I’d stop by and sit in, see what’s going on.” She replied innocently.
“Alright then. Johnny- how long are you planning this hiatus?” Tracey said, cutting straight to the point.
“Ugh Trace it’s only been like 6 months- and I won’t even consider looking at a script until summer! Especially with the baby coming and all probably at the end of this week-”
“I was just wondering Johnny- but I figured as much since that’s what George and Gerald told me about Jenna. But I’m not here to talk to you about that. Tomorrow night your film is going to be premiering in Italy, you need to make an appearance at least on the red carpet. Your flight will leave tomorrow morning, you’ll only be staying one night there and then you can come back here the next day.”
Johnny sighed, he most definitely didn’t want to leave. He wanted to stay and take care of Jenna, especially with time being so close to the birth.
“I don’t know Tracey…”
“Please Johnny- just one more time. It’ll hold the press off since you’ll be out of the spot for a while.” Tracey pleaded.
“Fine. But I hope neither you or they are expecting Jenna to come. I was scared enough when we went to the Oscars that something would happen God forbid to the baby.”
“Don’t worry I don’t expect it, but I don’t want you to be alone either. …Cameron will be going with you.”
“I’m home!” Johnny shouted as he walked through the front door.
“Hi daddy.” His beautiful young girl said smiling up at him, giving him a kiss on the cheek.
“Hi princess, how was school today?” He asked taking off his jacket.
“Boring…” Lily said sighing dramatically.
“Lily… what is it?”
“Well, there’s this audition-”
“A movie audition?”
“…..maybe.”
“absolutely not Lily.” Johnny said demandingly. Lily was just like her mom in every way- including her young desire for acting. But Johnny and Jenna’s rule was simple- she couldn’t do film acting until she turned 18. They didn’t want her to miss out on her childhood. Fame at only 15 was a big deal- and she would miss a lot if she had it.
“But dad-”
“No buts Lily. You know the rule. I don’t care if it’s directed by the Coen Brothers- You’re not auditioning for this movie. You‘re only asking me because we both know if you asked your mom she would demand you not do it until 21.”
Lily scrunched up her face at her father and growled walking away from him, mumbling angry words in French.
Johnny sighed and rubbed his eyes, he hated disappointing her, but it was for her own good. As he walked into the kitchen he spotted Danny sitting at the table with his head in his arms.
“we need to have a talk Dan…” Johnny said after pouring himself a cup of coffee and turning to his son who was dressed in all black- as usual. At receiving no answer Johnny continued. “I saw you crawl into your bedroom last night and vomit a sh*t load of what I assume is every drug imaginable into your toilet.”
“Yeah, and why do you care?” Danny asked carelessly as he looked up at his dad. He had his mothers bright green eyes which stood out immensely as he had inherited his dads dark jet colored hair.
“Danny- Don’t be stupid-” Johnny began angrily.
“Yeah well the last time I checked you seem to only care about your 3 other perfect children- even the deaf one who mumbles like a moron!” Danny shouted, he had slammed the backdoor before Johnny could get to him.
Johnny, who’s anger boiled untamed in his body turned to the kitchen door to see Tim walk in.
‘what’s wrong?’ he signed, noticing how angry his dad looked.
‘nothing.’ Johnny signed back, giving his youngest a smile. For once he was happy that Tim was deaf so he couldn’t hear Danny’s shouting about him as it had echoed throughout the house.
Giving Jack a kiss on his head, Johnny walked past him and up the stairs to look for his girl. Being caught off guard as he walked towards his bedroom, he ran right into his oldest, Jack.
“Hey dad, I could always knock some sense into Danny if you want.” he suggested.
“You’re too smart for that Jack, just please go downstairs and keep an eye on Tim. The kids at school have been teasing him nonstop and Danny hasn’t stood up for him once.”
“why am I not surprised. But yeah, I’ll hang out with him now, I have time.” Jack replied, he was always the more ‘hippiesh’ person of the family. His hair was shaggy and his scarf collection was huge, but yet his maturity was even larger.
Finally sighing as he closed his bedroom door behind him, he found Jenna hunched over the windowsill with her face in her hands.
“we have to do something about that kid.” She said softly, obviously talking about Danny.
“I know. But right now we have to take care of you and this kid.” Johnny said coming up behind her and rubbing her stomach.
After a few moments of silence, Johnny knew that now was the best time.
“I have to leave tomorrow morning to Italy. I’ll only be staying the night, I’ll be back the day after tomorrow.”
Slowly Jenna turned around facing him, obviously not happy. But to his surprise she didn’t say anything, only gave him a hard stare.
“Say something Jen-” He said softly.
“What do you want me to say? …I can’t believe that you actually agreed to go, you know the baby’s due in a couple of days.”
“Yes, I know I know- but I have to go.”
“No. You don’t have to go.” Jenna said brushing past him angrily, leaving him alone in the room.
That night Johnny couldn’t get a wink of sleep. But he wasn’t thinking about Lily’s wanting to audition, or Danny’s ‘issues’, or Tim being picked on or Jack- although all of their issues were in his mind, they weren’t what he was focusing on just then. He expected nothing less, they were going through their teenage years. The worst years of their life.
Johnny instead was thinking of the woman next to him. …when had she turned so cold?
All of a sudden as if on cue, Jenna bolted and sat right up, breathing heavily and sweating slightly.
“What’s wrong?” Johnny asked worriedly as he sat up too, rubbing her back lightly.
“I-In my dream… you died in it.” She said with a shaky voice, her wide eyes looking down still in a state of shock.
“What?” He replied surprised.
“You were dead in my dream… you died and left me all alone…” She said again, her voice obviously showing she was on the edge of tears. Wasting no time Johnny took her in his arms and let her cry into his chest.
“Shhhh… I’m not gunna die baby… I’m still here…” He whispered in her ear.
A bad time to pick up and go to Italy for two days with Cameron- that much he knew.
chapter 3
Johnny began to open his bag slowly, he could hear Cameron do the same in her room. Their rooms were separated by only one door- that had no lock on it. Cameron’s part had the t.v. and Johnny’s part had the kitchen, along with each of their bedrooms. This definitely made Johnny nervous.
He hadn’t expected to only have a door in between them, but with the premier, everything was overbooked and it was the best Tracey could get.
Johnny mindlessly looked through the items in his bag, he wasn’t even going to bother unpacking if he was only going to stay the night- but there were two items that he always took out.
Johnny placed the framed photographs on the dresser next to his bed so he could stare at them whenever he wanted.
In the first one, it was a close-up of Johnny and Jenna’s face, him behind her with their cheeks up against the others’ smiling- it reminded Johnny of the better times.
The other picture he remembered when Tim took the picture last summer at a barbeque between the Burton family and the Depp family. It was a common occurrence during summers where none of the adults were working, especially since they lived next door to each other.
In the picture Johnny was sitting down in a chair with his arm wrapped around Jenna’s waist as she sat on his lap with her arms wrapped around his shoulders, they were staring at each other with their noses touching, laughing, looking one another straight in the eyes. Around them were their children standing up all laughing and smiling- even Danny. Jack had his elbow resting on Danny’s shoulder, while Tim stood behind lily with his arms wrapped around her- Johnny’s heart fell as he took a closer look at the picture and saw that Tim’s practically useless hearing aid was in full view.
Sighing Johnny placed the picture back on the dresser thinking how badly he wanted things to be like they were in that picture again. Danny to be smiling and kind, Lily to not be begging for auditions… well that had never stopped but it didn’t mean Johnny still wasn’t wishing for it, Jack to not feel so much responsibility and to be more care-free as he used to be, and finally Timmy to not have the kids tease him in school.
Johnny had given Tim the same advice that Johnny’s mom had given him when he was a kid and people were picking on him. His mother told him precisely to pick up the nearest rock- and ‘do that damn kid in.’ Johnny had done it- and he felt good about it. But Tim, sweet Tim was too kind. While Danny who is completely ashamed of his challenged brother, has never helped him. That didn’t just anger Johnny and Jenna- it broke their hearts.
All of their children went to the same high school. Tim a freshman, beautiful Lily a sophomore, Danny a Junior, and Jack a senior. They were all pleasant, intelligent, and well balanced (well, three out of four).
Johnny chuckled at the thought that Tim was exactly like the man he was named after- kind, weird, and curly haired. Eventually when they would all get together confusion arose when someone would say the name ‘Tim’, so the nickname Timmy arose for Johnny’s little boy. A kid who deserved so much more in life.
“knock knock”
Johnny heard a light female voice from across the room on the other side of the separating door, breaking him from his trance.
“Uh.. Yeah I’m here, come on in.” He said not really thinking about where he was.
In no more than a split second Cameron was walking into his bedroom. He was finding her standing insanely close to him as she picked up the framed picture.
“Awe, how sweet.” She cooed. “I’ve never actually met your children.”
“Well you know me and Jenna- work and family are on waaay separate spheres.”
“Wow- your children are really attractive.” Cameron said with wide eyes. Johnny and Jenna knew that their children were quite good looking, it only worried Johnny more about Lily- and proved his point that she, in his words ‘hurry herself to a nunnery.’
“Thank you.” He replied simply, Cameron put the picture back down and turned to him.
“I don’t know why I was so surprised though, I figured they’d be so good looking since they are after all your children….”
Johnny cleared his throat as she got so close to him he could feel her breath on his face. Cameron began to lean up her lips so close to his, Johnny just stood there looking down at her- the entire scene playing out in slow motion. suddenly he felt his phone vibrate in his pocket, just as her lips were to touch his.
“Hello?” He said with a shaky voice, turning away from Cameron immediately, he couldn’t believe he almost let that happen.
“Hey Johnny it’s Tracey- are you ok? You sound a bit shaken up?”
“Yeah, it’s cool. So, what’s the plan for tonight?”
“Arrive at the red carpet in about an hour and only take a couple of pictures for the paparazzi, then sign as many autographs as you want- and for you that’s everyone your arm can get to until someone forces you away from your fans- and then you can go back to your hotel room and relax. Sound good?”
“Sounds good trace- I’ll see you tonight.”
Johnny listened to the empty line for a bit to get his thoughts straight. Cameron wouldn’t be going with him to the premier, but she would be spending the night practically in the same place as him. And knowing her, she would insist they stay up late and talk as she usually did. But this time it would be different, because now Johnny knew- she had enough courage to go after what she wanted.
Johnny hung up his phone and turned to Cameron who looked at him with a smirk on her face. Johnny gulped air as he watched her slowly tip the photograph of him and Jenna so it was flat on the dresser before she sauntered out of his room giving him a good show of her rear end.
Chapter 4
Johnny sat on the floor laughing with Cameron, it was about 1 in the morning and just as he predicted they were sitting around talking.
“So you seriously don’t mind dressing in women’s clothing?” Cameron giggled.
“Well… no, I don’t mind. I’m not a cross-dresser or anything- I don’t do it in my spare time, but when the time calls for it, I’ve been known to strap on one sexy pair of high heels.”
As Cameron began to laugh again Johnny’s mind took him to a place back- far back. It was 17 years ago, Johnny and Jenna’s first couple of months together. Johnny remembered they had planned to have sex for the first time but unexpectedly her period had started and she refused to smile because she felt she had ruined everything. Johnny felt he had no choice.
During the last 20 minutes of ‘the notebook’ he snuck into her room, put on her clothes and makeup and lip synched to Aerosmith just to make her laugh. Even after all these years he could never forget a minute he’d had with her.
“what are you thinking about?” Cameron asked softly, noticing Johnny’s distant look.
“Oh…uh…” Johnny began to laugh lightly. “I was just remembering a time when my girl was down in the dumps, I had dressed up in her clothes, put on her makeup and lip synched to ‘Jaded’ just to get to smile…”
Once again Johnny found himself lost in his own world, before Cameron spoke up. “You’re one in a million Johnny.”
Johnny looked up at her with is eyebrows raised. “Who? Me? God no I’m not one in a million. I’m just a guy who’s been very much in love…”
“A guy in love with a girl who’s not treating him like she loves him.” Cameron said firmly. Johnny opened his mouth ready to reply, but nothing came out.
“Johnny… I know you’re a great guy- hell you’re f*cking amazing… but it’s such a shame that the girl who’s got you treats you like crap. I noticed it from the first day I started working with you-”
“Yeah but Cameron you have to understand that all of this came about during this pregnancy- she was never like this before-”
“Pregnant or not- you deserve someone who treats you just as well as you treat her.” Cameron said firmly.
Johnny didn’t know what to say, this was one of the few times that he had actually been rendered speechless. Most of those times he found was when he was with Cameron.
“Johnny…” Cameron began scooting closer to him. Johnny’s back was against the couch and now she was so close that he could smell her sweet perfume.
She raised her hand to his cheek, rubbing it lightly.
“Cameron… I’m too old for you.” He said with a light smile on his face.
“Johnny- I’m 37-”
“and I’m 42.”
“…You don’t look 42. Even in the magazine’s they say you don’t look a day older than 25.” She said seductively.
“Okay, so my Cherokee blood is giving me some good traits- but it doesn’t change the fact that I have a girl, a family-”
“A girl who doesn’t treat you well and a family I’m dying to meet…you‘re not even married to her-”
It seemed with everyone of her words she inched her face closer to his.
“Well, we’re as good as married. We consider ourselves married- contract or not.” Johnny said firmly. Even after all these years he could never forget the misunderstanding and nightmare that was created between him and Jenna almost 17 years ago.
“Well then…” She began straddling Johnny’s legs that were straight out in front of him. She sat on the top of his thighs, right below his member. “There’s still no binding contract.” She whispered her lips so close to Johnny’s.
Just as he was going to reply he mouth had landed on his. He knew it was wrong but it was heaven to be able to kiss someone with passion again- Johnny couldn’t believe it but he was actually kissing her back. In his latest movie, ’the Rum Diary’, he didn’t have to kiss anyone, so it had been a while for him.
Cameron slipped her tongue into his warm mouth taking Johnny by surprise and snapping him back into reality.
Immediately he broke the kiss and stood up, moving her away from him.
“Cameron, no. I can’t do this. I love Jenna. What’s happening now is just temporary-”
“if it’s just temporary- then why did you kiss me back?” She challenged, obviously not happy that he was denying her. Cameron was an unbelievably attractive woman, and Johnny knew that almost no one denied her.
“That was my d*ck talking- not my heart.” He said, so ashamed of himself. He’d never kissed another girl except Jenna- unless it was for a scene- and even then he didn’t kiss them like he’d kiss her. He’d almost given Cameron that.
“Well, all we need tonight is your d*ck to talk. We can worry about that second part later” She said smiling and standing up, Johnny swallowed.
Slowly she took off her t-shirt and sweat pants proving she had no underwear or bra on leaving nothing for Johnny’s imagination as he looked at her wide-eyed.
“It’s just one time Johnny…” She began seductively as she walked till she was right in front of him. “Then we can decide from there.”
She took his hand and placed his palm on her warm soft breast, making him unconsciously close his eyes at the contact. Cameron softly kissed his lips and whispered against them, “Tell me you don’t want me.”
“I do want you…” Johnny whispered.
Cameron smiled and leaned her lips up to his lips once more as Johnny let his hand fall from her breast. But before she could reach his mouth Johnny took his hands and held her head still, bringing his lips to her ear and her chin to his shoulder.
“I want you…” He whispered, “to put your clothes back on while I go back into my bedroom. Then by the time I come out again, I want you back in your room calling some of your connections to look for another job. And I want you to never mention Jenna again, because you don’t know the kind of woman she really is. A woman you’ll never live up to, no matter how many desperate guys you get to screw you. I’m not one of them.”
With that Johnny turned his back on Cameron walking straight on towards his room to call his girl, never looking back as he closed his bedroom door behind him.
For months Cameron had tortured him, showing him what he could have that he wasn’t getting at home. But it was as if in one huge flash between the time that Cameron had undressed herself and she had put his hand on her breast, his life before he had met Jenna popped into his head.
He hadn’t been speaking with his family, he did drugs, was constantly depressed, slit his wrists, even attempted suicide a couple of times. And then right after those popped into his head, one particular time put everything in complete perspective.
It was when Stacy had come, she had manipulated him and turned him against her. In one day of treating her like crap and one night of treating her almost like a common prostitute- he had almost lost her forever. Even today, Johnny knew that what he had done those 1 ½ days were a million times worse than what she had been doing to him- or rather not been doing to him for 9 months.
‘She’s my girl, stuck with me through everything- changed my world completely… she gave birth to our children and has been the most amazing mother to them for God’s sake!’ his voice screamed in his head the moment his hand touched Cameron’s breast.
So there Johnny sat on his bed. Still horny. Still aggravated from the lack of attention he was receiving at all ends of Jenna. But still crazy in love with that girl- after all these years.
His cell phone suddenly vibrated in his pocket, making him jump. Looking at the caller id, it read ‘lover’. Johnny smiled, opened the phone and held it to his ear.
“Hey Jen.” He said softly into the phone, but what he got in response was not what he had expected.
“Johnny?” Jenna wept, Johnny could hear her sob even though she tried to keep it down so the rest of the house couldn’t hear.
“Jenna, baby what’s wrong? Are you ok? Are the children ok? Is there something wrong with the baby??” Johnny asked urgently all in one breath.
“Yes Johnny we’re all fine…” She said blowing her nose.
He let out a sigh of relief as he laid back on the bed, happy it wasn’t something tragic.
“Well then, tell me what’s wrong cupcake.” he said.
“I had another dream Johnny… and you died in it.”
Just when he thought her voice had begin to calm down, she had broken into a heap of tears.
“What happened in it?” He asked calmly, hoping it would calm her down as well.
“I don’t know… we were just laying around, lounging on our bed, then all of a sudden you just died. I don’t know but you weren’t there anymore, I was all alone. You were gone, I knew you were dead!” She exclaimed before another wave of sobs had overcome her.
Before Johnny could speak she had continued desperately, “never leave me Johnny, I need you so bad- I can’t do this alone… I need you so much…” She repeated to him.
“Shhh baby, it’s ok, calm down.” He cooed softly into the phone. “I need you too, more than you’ll ever know. I won’t leave you baby… I’ll never leave you…”
chapter 5
Tim- or Timmy Depp, sat at the lunch table doodling in his sketch book as he ate his sandwich. He usually found himself sitting alone at lunch- none of the kids really wanted to sit with him. It was ok though, he was use to it.
The only thing that made him sad was knowing that Lily and Jack would most definitely sit by him- but they each had a different lunch time than him. Thus, making Tim have the same lunch time as his brother Danny.
‘no wonder I’m sitting alone.’ Tim thought to himself.
Just as he finished his drawing, a hand slammed his book shut. Tim looked up at the kid, he was no stranger to him.
Paul Dermit had been picking on Tim for the past year, taunting him constantly, because Tim was the only kid who had a disability at the American-French high school in Paris. Tim found himself unlucky, because he knew that Jack would stick up for him in a heart-beat, as would Lily, but he found that everything surrounded Danny. Their classes were near each others, they shared the same lunch times, had the same gym class, and Danny never stuck up for him.
“What’s wrong Timmy… deafness got your tongue?” Paul said his group of friends around him laughing. The entire cafeteria was watching them, it was their form of entertainment. Tim could only hear the tone of Paul’s voice, but he was an expert at lip reading and could form his words quite well when he spoke.
“Just leave me alone Paul.” Tim said, attempting to go back to his drawing.
“Just leave me alone Paul!” Paul mocked Tim, imitating his voice that sounded strange since he couldn’t hear himself when he spoke. The entire cafeteria broke out into laughter, It was only the sophomore and Junior class- but it was still quite a bit of people.
Tim couldn’t hear the laughs, but he saw it on people’s faces. He observed around him as he saw that almost all of the guys were laughing, while most of the girls laid low not laughing- but not sticking up for him either. Finally Tim’s eyes landed on Danny who sat at the top of the lunch table- not laughing but just staring as Paul continued to mock Tim.
When Danny’s eyes caught Tim looking at him, he immediately turned his head away-ignoring the silent pleas of his brother.
Without even bothering to look up at Paul, Tim grabbed his book and his messenger bag and walked away knowing that he was still being mocked as he walked out of the Cafeteria door.
‘don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry,’ Tim repeated to himself in his head, slamming his eyes shut.
“Jenna?” Johnny shouted dropping his bag on the floor, his voice echoed through the house. He knew the kids were at school, but he specifically told Jenna to stay at home until he came back- he didn’t want her to go anywhere alone when she was due any day.
“Jenna?” Johnny called out again as he walked up the stairs into their room.
Finally he opened the door and found her laying on her back atop of the covers on the bed, just staring at the ceiling.
“Jenna…” He whispered laying on the bed next to her, hovering over her as he leaned on his elbow. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m so tired…” Her soft voice said, “but I can’t go to sleep. I don’t want to go to sleep. What if I wake up and you’re not here.”
“Baby…” Johnny whispered, his fingers lightly tracing on her cheek. “I’ll always be here. Now come on, I’m tired too, we’ll both go to sleep. And when you wake up- I’ll still be here and you’ll be with me.”
Finally, Jenna’s eyes moved to look into his. “Promise?” She asked making him smile.
“I swear.”
Johnny helped Jenna move slowly to lay on her side so he back was towards his chest. Wrapping his arms around her, he took both of her hands in his and placed them over her Large stomach, falling asleep almost immediately.
“Pere… Pere…” A soft voice said in Johnny’s ear.
“Hmmm?” He replied, his eyes still shut knowing it was Lily.
“It’s almost dinner time.”
“Go order some food for everyone, your mom and I will be down in a bit.” He mumbled before hearing Lily walk out of the room closing the door behind her.
“Jenna…” Johnny whispered in his girl’s ear. “Jen wake up.”
No more then a second later did Jenna’s eyes burst wide open as she gasped for air, coughing and almost sobbing no doubt coming out of another terrible nightmare.
“Shh I’m still here.” Johnny whispered in her ear, making his hold on her as tight as possible. “See? It’s just a dream.”
Jenna rolled on to her back staring up at Johnny who was holding his weight on his forearms, not wanting to put any pressure on the belly.
“You are still here.” She said softly with a light smile on her face as she ran her fingers through his hair.
“I’m sorry Johnny.” Jenna said suddenly, making him furrow his eyebrows.
“For what?”
“for these past 9 months… I’ve realized in these past couple of days how badly I’ve been treating you. But I promise that after we get settled when the baby’s born- I’ll make it up to you… I swear I will. -as long as you won’t mind making love to a woman still chubby from giving birth, just had her tubes tied, and will poses a rather large pair of milk filled breasts.”
Johnny and Jenna broke out into laughter. He leaned down and rubbed his nose against hers looking her straight in the eyes. “I wouldn’t want to make love to anyone else.”
“Good. …I love you Johnny.”
“And I love you baby.”
“DINNER’S HERE!! WOOOOOO!!!!” Jack’s voice shouted throughout the whole house making Johnny and Jenna chuckle, their son always did think with his stomach first.
“So how was school?” Jenna asked taking a huge bite from her pasta, they had ordered her 2 entrées knowing the consequences would be horrific if they had only ordered one.
“It was a BOOOORREEE.” Jack whined, he had wanted to drop out after sophomore year but his parents refused to let him.
“Same old same old.” Lily replied, not really caring too much for the subject.
Tim and Danny avoided their parents eyes, neither not wanting to answer. Tim, because he was ashamed and embarrassed by what happened. Danny because he didn’t want to face anyone about it.
Tim felt his shoulder being shook and finally looked up at his father who signed, ‘what’s wrong?’
‘nothing.’ Tim signed back.
‘Tim was being teased today and Danny did nothing.’ Jack signed angry.
Johnny dropped his fork, ‘is this true?’
‘then entire school knows about it, Paul wouldn’t stop bragging for the rest of the day.’ Lily signed to the table.
‘it’s really ok-’ Tim began to sign before his father cut him off.
‘No. It’s not.’
Danny looked up at his dad and saw anger burning in his eyes, finally his eyes landed on his mom who looked at him with absolute sadness.
‘I’m so disappointed in you Danny.” She signed before sighing and laying her forehead on Johnny’s shoulder.
Johnny threw his napkin down, raised his finger at Danny ready to give him a piece of his mind once and for all. But before he could, he was cut off.
“OH MY GOD.” Jenna bellowed gasping and grabbing her stomach.
“Baby, what is it?” Johnny asked worried.
“….My water just broke.”
Chapter 6
“YOU BASTARD YOU DID THIS TO ME!!!!” Jenna shouted at the top of her lungs before vaulting her palm against Johnny’s cheek.
“OUCH!” He shouted putting his hand against his abused cheek.
Jenna was already three hours into labor as she laid on the table and he sat and waited till it was time for the baby to come out. Their kids sat in the waiting area along with Tim, Helena, and George and Gerald who had flown in from London at last minute.
Johnny had been right next to Jenna during all four of their children’s birth- this marking the fifth. But this time it was different. Jenna was sweating more, heaving for air- and as he recalled even after 14 years since the last time she had given birth- he’d never remembered her being in this much pain.
Granted Johnny knew that a woman giving birth went through the worst pain imaginable in the world- but he had never actually seen her sob only 3 hours into labor. As far as they knew they could be there for 72 hours.
“Monsieur Depp… Une fois la femme obtient violent nous pensons c'est meilleur pour la sûreté de l'homme qu'il part la pièce. (once the woman gets violent we think it's best for the safety of the man that he leave the room.)” The doctor said as if he were talking about the weather, smiling at Johnny who found this all quite comical.
“No no no baby don’t leave me please I need you here don’t go I’m sorry…” Jenna rambled on and on sobbing, Johnny immediately grabbed her hand and squeezed it turning to the doctor.
“Merci pour votre inquiétude, mais violent ou pas- je reste avec ma fille. (Thank you for your concern, but violent or not- I'm staying with my girl.)” Johnny replied smiling turning back to Jenna.
“How do you feel darling?”
Jenna breathed quickly, her chest heaving and her body completely flushed and sweaty as tears unconsciously rolled down her cheeks.
“It hurts so bad Johnny, even with all the drugs…” She sobbed. Not a moment later did he stand up and wrap his arms around her shoulder, bending over so he could bury his face in her hair that still smelled sweet.
“I’m here with you… we’ll do this together.” He whispered kissing the top of her head before sitting back down in his chair still holding her hand, smiling at her.
Jenna noticed that they were now the only ones in the room, she didn’t know if it was out of hormones or from the drugs- but she all of a sudden felt the need to confess all the emotions she’d held up inside her for way too long.
“Listen Johnny I know this isn’t the right time…” She said breathing heavily, her free hand placed over her stomach. “but I have a confession to make.”
Johnny looked at her confused, urging her to continue- not caring whether it was the right time or not.
“… I started getting the nightmares since the beginning of the pregnancy…” Jenna said, unable to look at Johnny who looked at her with wide eyes.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” Johnny demanded.
“Because I was too busy being jealous and acting like I didn’t need you.”
It was as if the words were vomited out of Jenna’s mouth because they came out so quickly, even Johnny saw that the moment they had come out- she had regretted saying it.
“Jealous of who?” Johnny said, trying to keep calm and remember that she was going to birth his child and she didn’t need more stress.
“Cameron.” Jenna said beginning to sob.
Johnny just sat staring at her with his jaw agape his heart beating a million times faster. Jenna began to speak up again not letting Johnny say anything.
“She was hired at the beginning of the pregnancy, a hotter, younger, blonder- most definitely thinner woman than I am! I always saw her eye you and then I’d look down at myself and think why the hell as to why you are with me. I tried to convince myself that I didn’t need you, I saw Cameron taking you away from me and I had to stick my ground. I thought maybe you were… sleeping with her. I started having nightmares that you died, that you left me because I thought that you would!” Jenna began to sob immensely into the palms of her hands, but her shocking words still came out crisp and clear to Johnny’s ears. “So I pushed you away for these past nine months- just incase you decided to leave me. -This f-fat, worthless girl w-who’s only good for carrying children- 17 years together and I’ll never be good enough to please you l-like Cameron!!!”
Before Johnny had a moment to register the colossal amount of shock that over took him, a split second after her rant of honesty- Jenna braced herself against her elbows, slamming her eyes shut and screaming at the top of her lungs.
Doctors ran into the room, ready for Jenna to push the baby out. Forcing himself to push anything else but the baby out of his mind- Johnny re-grabbed Jenna’s hand and squeezed it urging her along with the other doctors.
“Come on baby push… you can do it…” Johnny said softly to her as the doctors encouraged as well, but all Jenna could hear was his voice.
Gritting her teeth, using all of her strength imaginable, Jenna screamed as she pushed- feeling her insides split in two.
“She’s crowning!” The doctor shouted, but Jenna knew the worst wasn’t over.
Pushing again with even more force, Jenna squeezed Johnny’s hand as if her life depended on it. After her push Jenna knew that she still had the rest of the baby’s body to go.
Letting her back fall against the perched up pillows, she began to sob. Never out of all four pregnancy’s had they been this painful.
“No more… I can’t… I’m so sorry I can’t…” Her tiny voice whispered as tears ran down her cheek mixing with the sweat that drenched her.
“Jenna- we need to push the rest of this baby out now!” The doctor urged only making her sob.
Suddenly she felt her head being turned, forcing her eyes opened she looked into the eyes of the man that she would die for.
“Jen… do this one last push. I know you can do it.” He urged softly, his heart breaking as he watched her nod her head at him- even when she was in so much pain she would do anything to make him happy. It had to be done.
Taking a large breath Jenna braced herself one more time, pushing harder than she ever thought possible. Grinding her teeth together a large growl erupted in her chest- not a moment later only to be mixed with the sounds of a baby crying. Her body fell backwards from exhaustion.
Even with the pain still surging through her, Jenna couldn’t help but smile and laugh as she saw her baby.
Johnny cut the umbilical chord as he had done with their other children as well, taking the small baby in his arms. He placed their child between them, feelings of euphoria flooding both of the parents senses as they looked down at their baby. Another piece of them that they created.
The doctors were already tying her tubes not wasting any time. It was when Jenna took Johnny’s hand that they averted their attention to each other just as the nurse took their child out of the room to newborn care.
“Take care of our little girl.” Jenna whispered smiling at him before closing her eyes, her head falling back.
As if in a flash, a loud constant beep sounded throughout the room.
She had flat lined.
Jenna’s heart had completely stopped.