i tried, to go on like i never knew you:
HELLO.
Time for a little update.
Im feeling better this week.
It's weird, last wednesday i was sitting in our car and all of a sudden, i just felt better and the feeling ive had, that heartbroken feeling, easied up.
To be honest, i don't know what changed.
But i have a feeling something good happened with Dylan.
That made me feel better.
It also allowed me to sleep, and when i did, he was in my dream.
Somethings were a little different, but he answered some questions for me, and we hugged.
It was the best feeling.
And again last night, but that dream was strange.
I spoke to CJ for the first time in weeks on Saturday and again last night.
It was nice to catch up, i havent been much for talking lately.
And i spent ages talking to Adam yesterday too.
That was odd.
I told him the reason i declined all the times he's asked me to goto see him dj, is basically because, i dont want to see him.
And the reason: i havent seen him since January and there have been no complications. If i do see him, got knows what will happen.
And im not sure i want to put myself in that situation, not knowing how i feel about him and he doesnt know how he feels about me.
It was a long chat about what went wrong with us, and the stuff he was saying made me think maybe his shite talking is just an act.
He's actually quite bright.
But we'll see what happens.
*confused*
Its Vikki's 20th Birthday BBQ on saturday, i hope the weathers nice.
I havent seen her in a while.
I bought her gift today. I get the best presents for people me.
Ok, back to work.
<3
P.S - NICK CARTER STILL MAKES MY TUMMY FLUTTER AFTER 10 YEARS. HE'S GORGEOUS. oh yea, and i do still like the Backstreet boys. Go me!
Time for a little update.
Im feeling better this week.
It's weird, last wednesday i was sitting in our car and all of a sudden, i just felt better and the feeling ive had, that heartbroken feeling, easied up.
To be honest, i don't know what changed.
But i have a feeling something good happened with Dylan.
That made me feel better.
It also allowed me to sleep, and when i did, he was in my dream.
Somethings were a little different, but he answered some questions for me, and we hugged.
It was the best feeling.
And again last night, but that dream was strange.
I spoke to CJ for the first time in weeks on Saturday and again last night.
It was nice to catch up, i havent been much for talking lately.
And i spent ages talking to Adam yesterday too.
That was odd.
I told him the reason i declined all the times he's asked me to goto see him dj, is basically because, i dont want to see him.
And the reason: i havent seen him since January and there have been no complications. If i do see him, got knows what will happen.
And im not sure i want to put myself in that situation, not knowing how i feel about him and he doesnt know how he feels about me.
It was a long chat about what went wrong with us, and the stuff he was saying made me think maybe his shite talking is just an act.
He's actually quite bright.
But we'll see what happens.
*confused*
Its Vikki's 20th Birthday BBQ on saturday, i hope the weathers nice.
I havent seen her in a while.
I bought her gift today. I get the best presents for people me.
Ok, back to work.
<3
P.S - NICK CARTER STILL MAKES MY TUMMY FLUTTER AFTER 10 YEARS. HE'S GORGEOUS. oh yea, and i do still like the Backstreet boys. Go me!