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There are many things I'd wanna know. How things work, how to do different things, most importantly how people feel towards a certain issue/subject.
There is so many things in life I have yet to discover. I want to find out. Yet, many a time I was given answers like "Its better that you don't know" and the stupid "Ignorance is bliss". F off and die lah. If its a secret, just tell me its a secret. If you don't feel like telling, just say so. Don't give this kind of shit, throwing in another excuse or 2 and then change the topic.
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I feel that I have anchored the 'wrong' emotions onto my dad. Everytime he comes and talk to be, I'll be angered and be all grumpy. I can't really control. But honestly I feel that I am not totally at fault. The way he speaks, its as though he thinks he knows everything in the world. He thinks he knows whats best for me. He thinks he gets to decide what I do in MY LIFE.
No. If you think that I'm one of those teens who wants to get control of his life too much, I tell you I am not. Yes I agree that there are many things in life that I have not experienced and not know of yet. Its the way he tries to control my life. He would TELL ME to do this and that when I already have plans or know what to do already. No. He doesn't tell, he insist.
Just minutes ago, he came into my room,
Dad : "You should stop coming home late. Stop doing those 'unorthodox' things outside. Quit dancing"
Going home late, I have nothing to say. True, I always come home late.
Unorthodox things. WTF was that for? I lead a very healthy young adult life and I don't think that there's a problem with it. I don't do anything against the law and had never got into trouble. What unorthodox things is he refering to.
Quit dancing. If he wants me to quit dancing becaue HE THINKS that dancing is unorthodox, he is truely unreasonable. I would have used more impactful and harsh words but no. He know nuts about what I'm doing. He know nuts about what I want. He has no right to tell me to quit dancing. Yes he is my father but no, he don't understand like how one should.
Yes I know its harsh, but its true. He tried and I give him credit for that but he never succeeded.
then again maybe I AM just like one of those kids who very much wants to get control of their life.
There is so many things in life I have yet to discover. I want to find out. Yet, many a time I was given answers like "Its better that you don't know" and the stupid "Ignorance is bliss". F off and die lah. If its a secret, just tell me its a secret. If you don't feel like telling, just say so. Don't give this kind of shit, throwing in another excuse or 2 and then change the topic.
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I feel that I have anchored the 'wrong' emotions onto my dad. Everytime he comes and talk to be, I'll be angered and be all grumpy. I can't really control. But honestly I feel that I am not totally at fault. The way he speaks, its as though he thinks he knows everything in the world. He thinks he knows whats best for me. He thinks he gets to decide what I do in MY LIFE.
No. If you think that I'm one of those teens who wants to get control of his life too much, I tell you I am not. Yes I agree that there are many things in life that I have not experienced and not know of yet. Its the way he tries to control my life. He would TELL ME to do this and that when I already have plans or know what to do already. No. He doesn't tell, he insist.
Just minutes ago, he came into my room,
Dad : "You should stop coming home late. Stop doing those 'unorthodox' things outside. Quit dancing"
Going home late, I have nothing to say. True, I always come home late.
Unorthodox things. WTF was that for? I lead a very healthy young adult life and I don't think that there's a problem with it. I don't do anything against the law and had never got into trouble. What unorthodox things is he refering to.
Quit dancing. If he wants me to quit dancing becaue HE THINKS that dancing is unorthodox, he is truely unreasonable. I would have used more impactful and harsh words but no. He know nuts about what I'm doing. He know nuts about what I want. He has no right to tell me to quit dancing. Yes he is my father but no, he don't understand like how one should.
Yes I know its harsh, but its true. He tried and I give him credit for that but he never succeeded.
then again maybe I AM just like one of those kids who very much wants to get control of their life.