She asked me for Love and Trust, I said Always and Never
What do you do when you get what you want but it doesnt make you happy? Does that mean that you DONT know what you want? Or am I just neurotic? Probly both. So goldbelt is over and done with. That last day was so trying that I felt like walking out, or busting some heads. Buffet opens at 9, with my help the room was ready by 1030. Half the staff didnt show and those that did proceded to get high or sat around doing Jack shit. But whatever, not everyone has a good work ethic or A work ethic. Bastards. Thats part of the reason ive had a weird couple of weeks, the other part was an ex started hanging out again and it got weird quick. Ive got all this resentment that I shouldnt have that I cant express because Im supposed to be over it. Refer to that neurotic line earlier.......Anyway. She wants to start dating and i told her flat out no, well maybe i dropped the "Let me think about it line...." which in my mind is a nice way of saying No. It started on superbowl sunday when I got loaded at the bar, than she started grilling me for information and I cant remember half of what I told her. She got mad when I told her I didnt mean half that. Than she got even more mad when i laughed. Than the cherry on top was when one of my ex-coworkers(whos a girl) calls and she automatically assumes its another girlfriend. Good times. Its not that Im not interested in dating. .........its just her, but how do you say that to someone with out carving their heart out with a rubber spatula? Bite the bullet and get it over with or do what i normally do and ignore the situation until one of us forgets about it. Ive got one hell of a track record with that last one so well see......Im done rambling, gonna play some vids than go rock climbing......than maybe Underworld Evolution.....Peace