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[jdawgactor]

Middle of the night. Of course I can't sleep. It seems like a decade since I last wrote for you guys. But I have been just a little busy. Assassins is over. It was the greatest show I have ever done, I mean ever. Matt saw it. It meant the world to me, and only matt saw it. I guess its times like that you realize its time to move on with your life. I miss you guys at home a lot, but most of the time I will miss the people here, at college. I was universally accepted for the first time in my life, no one made fun of me, no one put me down, no one used me. I entered a group of people, and they seemed proud to have me with them. Two graduating seniors put me in their speeches for their final goodbyes. I am living with the three greatest guys I have ever meet. I grew as an actor, I reached new heights, I got amazing opportunities, I made friends who genuinely love me. And at home I have never had a bad summer, summer is always great, ice cream, pool. But there will be something missing. I will be at home worrying if I am coming on too strong to people I have stopped wanting to get with 2 years ago. I will have to deal with being called immature, uncaring, an asshole. I am none of these. I know that now, I see it in the eyes of people I can finally call my peers. I miss you guys at home, I can't wait to see you, but I will miss Hofstra more, and returning to the bullshit that exists in Boxford Massachusetts? Well maybe you grew up! Maybe you aren't afraid to spend time with me. Maybe you realize that my love for you went as a far as 4 round trip bus rides to see you in moonlight shows. Maybe your realize that College is not about being fucking pretentious, that its about being yourself, someone you lost sight of 3 years ago. Maybe you realize that these last two years have been a waste trying to prove you are more mature then anyone should ever have to be. I believe in miracles, the red sox won the world series, I got to be in the greatest cast anyone could ask for, I can finally say that I am a true actor, so maybe you can grow up. I love you guys so much, I will never stop loving you. And the most important thing I learned, the thing that has really changed me: I want to be a better man.
Soon to be returning from the Island he loves so dearly.