sing me something soft sad and delicate......
*I've got desperate desires and unadmirable plans
My tongue will taste of gin and malicious intent
Bring you back to the bar
Get you out of the cold
A sober, straight face gets you out of your clothes
And they're scared that we'll know
All the crimes they'll commit
Who they'll kiss before they get home
I will lie awake
Lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
Let you fall for every empty word I say
Barely conscious in the door where you stand
Your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes its demands
You laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
I almost feel sorry for what I'm going to do
And your hair smells of smoke
Who will cast the first stone?
You can sin or spend the night all alone*
Hey everyone hope you all had a good new years...mine was decent enough lol. I have decided this year that I MUST DIET. I have gained so much weight it is ridiculous...so far I have totally cut down on how much I eat and I've been doing excessive amounts of crunches lol. Hopefully it will work and i will stick with it because I am utterly disgusted with myself, I can't believe how much weight I've gained. Today I did a little retail therapy with my mom and my sister... i got three things in the limited (a cute green short sleeved kamono type shirt w/ sequins, a tube top with sequins and a little beige sweater) and a cheerleading picture frame in DEB. Other then shopping at various malls through out NJ I havent really done much all break..I know what a boring life I lead lol. I've been doing a lot of thinking trying to figure out what to do with my life being as I'm graduating in May. I went ot a career fair yesterday and I think it was a little too much for me. I totally came home with an uneasy feeling like I made a mistake and going into economics wasn't such a great idea. All I can really do is finance or other banking if I want ot stay in NJ, and I don't really like finance:/ I really wanna do marketing and advertising, but unfortunately all those jobs are in NYC and I don't want ot commute into the city it is two and ahlf hours of traffic each way, I mean what kind of life is that???? Leave you house at 6 AM and not get home till around 8ish at night..I don't want that. I figure if I really hate finance I can tale the state exam and become an elementrary school teacher, whichc is something I have always been interested in. I don't know what to do I'm so confused and I'm really stressing about what to do for the rest of my life. I am so scared I'm not gonna get a job because I got arrested for using a fake ID and I'm not sure if I can even be a teacher with that on my record. I mean it wasn't a criminal offense but it was a 2C charge so I don't know. Ugh I am so stressed out about everything and I feel like I have no one to talk to or turn to. I don't have a best friend anymore and even when I did I always leaned on my bf he was my crutch but we've been broken up for like 3 yrs now and I still feel like i can't replace him. I have secretly been stalking him I accidentally found his profile and I constantly check it. I have to admit I'm jealous bc his new GF is gorgeous..I can't compete with that!!!I admit I miss him but I don't think i could ever be him again he hurt me way too much..I just miss his friendship and that clutch someone to lean on, someone to just chill with on a friday night go out to dinner and watch movies with..I think I just miss having a bf not actually him..idk I'm so fucked up sometimes. I have ot admit though I never really got over over him there will always be a place for him in my heart. I guess what they say is true you never get over your first real love. And Nick whatever he's always with his gf so idk if they'll ever break up or what hteyre deal is. Well I guess thats enough ranting for now..I guess I'm not going out otnight so I'm gonna go wash off all my makeup, put on my PJ's and watch Beauty and the Geek, and True Life. Talk to you soon!!!
xoxo Danielle <3<3
*Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us*
My tongue will taste of gin and malicious intent
Bring you back to the bar
Get you out of the cold
A sober, straight face gets you out of your clothes
And they're scared that we'll know
All the crimes they'll commit
Who they'll kiss before they get home
I will lie awake
Lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
Let you fall for every empty word I say
Barely conscious in the door where you stand
Your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes its demands
You laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
I almost feel sorry for what I'm going to do
And your hair smells of smoke
Who will cast the first stone?
You can sin or spend the night all alone*
Hey everyone hope you all had a good new years...mine was decent enough lol. I have decided this year that I MUST DIET. I have gained so much weight it is ridiculous...so far I have totally cut down on how much I eat and I've been doing excessive amounts of crunches lol. Hopefully it will work and i will stick with it because I am utterly disgusted with myself, I can't believe how much weight I've gained. Today I did a little retail therapy with my mom and my sister... i got three things in the limited (a cute green short sleeved kamono type shirt w/ sequins, a tube top with sequins and a little beige sweater) and a cheerleading picture frame in DEB. Other then shopping at various malls through out NJ I havent really done much all break..I know what a boring life I lead lol. I've been doing a lot of thinking trying to figure out what to do with my life being as I'm graduating in May. I went ot a career fair yesterday and I think it was a little too much for me. I totally came home with an uneasy feeling like I made a mistake and going into economics wasn't such a great idea. All I can really do is finance or other banking if I want ot stay in NJ, and I don't really like finance:/ I really wanna do marketing and advertising, but unfortunately all those jobs are in NYC and I don't want ot commute into the city it is two and ahlf hours of traffic each way, I mean what kind of life is that???? Leave you house at 6 AM and not get home till around 8ish at night..I don't want that. I figure if I really hate finance I can tale the state exam and become an elementrary school teacher, whichc is something I have always been interested in. I don't know what to do I'm so confused and I'm really stressing about what to do for the rest of my life. I am so scared I'm not gonna get a job because I got arrested for using a fake ID and I'm not sure if I can even be a teacher with that on my record. I mean it wasn't a criminal offense but it was a 2C charge so I don't know. Ugh I am so stressed out about everything and I feel like I have no one to talk to or turn to. I don't have a best friend anymore and even when I did I always leaned on my bf he was my crutch but we've been broken up for like 3 yrs now and I still feel like i can't replace him. I have secretly been stalking him I accidentally found his profile and I constantly check it. I have to admit I'm jealous bc his new GF is gorgeous..I can't compete with that!!!I admit I miss him but I don't think i could ever be him again he hurt me way too much..I just miss his friendship and that clutch someone to lean on, someone to just chill with on a friday night go out to dinner and watch movies with..I think I just miss having a bf not actually him..idk I'm so fucked up sometimes. I have ot admit though I never really got over over him there will always be a place for him in my heart. I guess what they say is true you never get over your first real love. And Nick whatever he's always with his gf so idk if they'll ever break up or what hteyre deal is. Well I guess thats enough ranting for now..I guess I'm not going out otnight so I'm gonna go wash off all my makeup, put on my PJ's and watch Beauty and the Geek, and True Life. Talk to you soon!!!
xoxo Danielle <3<3
*Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us*