welcome back welcome back welcome back
*Like a Saturday night I'll be gone
before you knew that I was there
So you wrote it down
i'm supposed to care
even though it's never there
sorry if i'm not prepared
Is it hard to see the things you substitute
for me and all my thoughts of you
it's eating me alive to leave you
maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong
but so is your blank stare in lieu of this song
maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong
don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong
you're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song
don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong
you're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song
I'm breathing in your skin tonight
quiet is my loudest cry
wouldn't wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside
and if it's healthier to leave you be
may a sickness come and set me free
kill me while i still believe that you were meant for me
finding my own words, my own little stage
my own epic drama, my own scripted page
i'll send you the rough draft, i'll seal it with tears
maybe you'll read it and i'll reappear
from the start it was shaky and the characters rash,
a nice setting for heart ache where emotions come last
all i have deep inside to overcome this desire
are friendly intentions and fairweather smiles*~Yellowcard
I am sooooooo pissed right now you have no idea. Yea nothing works out for me at all everything last night turned into a disaster and left with me getting screwed over yet again. I'm throuhg with it all I hope no one ever asks me for a friggin favor again all I asked was for this one thing this one favor and what happend nothing no one helped me and I was left alone. I will never help another one of my friends ( with a few exceptions) again because they never wnat to help me. Everything has to be done on their terms and I'm sick of it I'm sick of doing things I don't wanna do and not doing what I wanna do because my friends "don't feel like it" It's over I'm through being nice from this point in I look out for no one but myself I will be selfish and that is that. In happy news as of today I'm pretty much back at school:) I know that sounds dorky but I'd rather be at Rutgers then in Manalapan. I've got some shit to take care of before Wednesday when classes start (classes the only downfall of college) I need a book bag..I've decided standing on a bus for 30 min trying to hold my books and pocketbook just isn't gonna work anymore...I need a new umbrella and I have to get my books. The books are going to be pricey as always. On another happy note Kelly is transferring to Rutgers in the spring:)O and I'm pretty much throwing in the towel on Nick and I..I mean what can I do I never see him I don't talk to him and even if by some luck of God something did happen between us my friends would just mock it and make me feel like shit bor being with him because in honesty my happiness means nothing to them. I do believe I love him and deep down he loves me and I truely believe that we are meant to be together like fate but if it really is meant to be then fate will bring him to me, until then the only thing I can do is give up on him and myself. I know this is gonna sound morbid but when I was a freshman in HS Columbine happend and I remember my bio teacher giving a little lecture about what happend and he said god forbid something like that happend and one of us died what would people say about you. My friend Michelle turned to me and said "I'd have nothing but nice things to say about you" but then I thought did she really mean it???At this point in time I don't even think most of my friends would shed a tear if god forbid something happend to me. And that upsets me. I don't really feel like typing anymore because I am still angry about the fiasco last night..idk if I'm more angry or hurt that my friends just discard everything I say..o well ttyl
xoxo Danielle <3<3
*Trouble loves me
Walks beside me
To chide me
Not to guide me
It’s still much more
Than you’ll do
So, console me
Otherwise, hold me
Just when it seems like
Everything’s evened out
And the balance seems serene
See the fool I’ll be
Still running ’round
On the flesh rampage
Still running ’round*~Morrissey
before you knew that I was there
So you wrote it down
i'm supposed to care
even though it's never there
sorry if i'm not prepared
Is it hard to see the things you substitute
for me and all my thoughts of you
it's eating me alive to leave you
maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong
but so is your blank stare in lieu of this song
maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong
don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong
you're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song
don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong
you're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song
I'm breathing in your skin tonight
quiet is my loudest cry
wouldn't wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside
and if it's healthier to leave you be
may a sickness come and set me free
kill me while i still believe that you were meant for me
finding my own words, my own little stage
my own epic drama, my own scripted page
i'll send you the rough draft, i'll seal it with tears
maybe you'll read it and i'll reappear
from the start it was shaky and the characters rash,
a nice setting for heart ache where emotions come last
all i have deep inside to overcome this desire
are friendly intentions and fairweather smiles*~Yellowcard
I am sooooooo pissed right now you have no idea. Yea nothing works out for me at all everything last night turned into a disaster and left with me getting screwed over yet again. I'm throuhg with it all I hope no one ever asks me for a friggin favor again all I asked was for this one thing this one favor and what happend nothing no one helped me and I was left alone. I will never help another one of my friends ( with a few exceptions) again because they never wnat to help me. Everything has to be done on their terms and I'm sick of it I'm sick of doing things I don't wanna do and not doing what I wanna do because my friends "don't feel like it" It's over I'm through being nice from this point in I look out for no one but myself I will be selfish and that is that. In happy news as of today I'm pretty much back at school:) I know that sounds dorky but I'd rather be at Rutgers then in Manalapan. I've got some shit to take care of before Wednesday when classes start (classes the only downfall of college) I need a book bag..I've decided standing on a bus for 30 min trying to hold my books and pocketbook just isn't gonna work anymore...I need a new umbrella and I have to get my books. The books are going to be pricey as always. On another happy note Kelly is transferring to Rutgers in the spring:)O and I'm pretty much throwing in the towel on Nick and I..I mean what can I do I never see him I don't talk to him and even if by some luck of God something did happen between us my friends would just mock it and make me feel like shit bor being with him because in honesty my happiness means nothing to them. I do believe I love him and deep down he loves me and I truely believe that we are meant to be together like fate but if it really is meant to be then fate will bring him to me, until then the only thing I can do is give up on him and myself. I know this is gonna sound morbid but when I was a freshman in HS Columbine happend and I remember my bio teacher giving a little lecture about what happend and he said god forbid something like that happend and one of us died what would people say about you. My friend Michelle turned to me and said "I'd have nothing but nice things to say about you" but then I thought did she really mean it???At this point in time I don't even think most of my friends would shed a tear if god forbid something happend to me. And that upsets me. I don't really feel like typing anymore because I am still angry about the fiasco last night..idk if I'm more angry or hurt that my friends just discard everything I say..o well ttyl
xoxo Danielle <3<3
*Trouble loves me
Walks beside me
To chide me
Not to guide me
It’s still much more
Than you’ll do
So, console me
Otherwise, hold me
Just when it seems like
Everything’s evened out
And the balance seems serene
See the fool I’ll be
Still running ’round
On the flesh rampage
Still running ’round*~Morrissey