you know whatz funny
What I find funny is that now Dre is so mobile. What I mean by that is he can spend all day visiting people. Alot of the times I will not hear from him becasue he is out some where visiting. I know that he has only been home since tuesday, but the frist thing that he did when he got home was go out and visit. Even the few times he come home for the weekend we was out the whole time. But when I would come home for breaks it was like hw could not come and see me. I really wounder how things are going to be when I come home. I know there will be some reason why he can not come and see me. Honestly I think that he lets his mom control him to much. It's like when ever he comes to see me he will get there alot later later than he said and he will only stay a little while. I know that he does not have a car. But he tells me that he will come and see me after he drops his mom off at work and he never really comes right after that. And that makes me so mad. But then its like he can see all of theres other peolpe but not me. And then there was a time when I did not have a car and I had to use my dad's car. But I still came to see him and I staied a while. But I do not know why he can not do the same for me. I know that things will be different this summer. Expectly now that I see how much he gets out. And he should be able to do the same for me. I do it for him it is now his turn.
Another thing that makes me mad is that I wanted him to come down here and meet all of my friends. I thought that he was going to get his ticket before he got out of school so he would have been down here now. But you know how he is he did not want to do things online. So I said thatz fine do what ever way that you want. You have to get the ticket 7 days in advance to get the lower price so i thoguht that he was going to get it as soon as he got home. So he would be leaveing Wendsady and he would be here Thursday of next week. But once again he did not. Then he told me that he was going to get it yestyerday. So I was ok thats fine too. Then I talk to him today and he wanted to know if her come next saturday would that be ok with me casue it is durning finals week. He would not really get here till Sunday and then he would leave like Wendesday or something and that would be pointless. I would be home in 3 days so what sence does that make. I know that he saids that he only focuses on one thing at once but if seems like I'm never the one that he fouceses on. And I do not know why. We had talked about this a long time ago. I did all this work to look into the prices and see what would be the cheapest thing for him to do. I thoguht that he was going to go this a long time ago. But no he waited to the last minute like he always does. That makes me so mad. He promised me, and what did I do I got my hopes up like I always do. And what did he do? He let me down like he always does. When will I ever learn. I want to talk to him about it but i do not know with out makeing it into an argurement or him saything that he is going to come. Maybe he can take me on a real date for a change. I do not know but I can not, not tell him. I can't just let him think that I am ok with this. I have been looking forward to him comming down here and meeting all of my friends since I have been here. But it seems like it is never the right time. I don't know, it's never the right time for him when it comes to me and I do not understand why not. When I am always doing things for him. When will he do something to make me happy. When? When?
~joslyn~
Another thing that makes me mad is that I wanted him to come down here and meet all of my friends. I thought that he was going to get his ticket before he got out of school so he would have been down here now. But you know how he is he did not want to do things online. So I said thatz fine do what ever way that you want. You have to get the ticket 7 days in advance to get the lower price so i thoguht that he was going to get it as soon as he got home. So he would be leaveing Wendsady and he would be here Thursday of next week. But once again he did not. Then he told me that he was going to get it yestyerday. So I was ok thats fine too. Then I talk to him today and he wanted to know if her come next saturday would that be ok with me casue it is durning finals week. He would not really get here till Sunday and then he would leave like Wendesday or something and that would be pointless. I would be home in 3 days so what sence does that make. I know that he saids that he only focuses on one thing at once but if seems like I'm never the one that he fouceses on. And I do not know why. We had talked about this a long time ago. I did all this work to look into the prices and see what would be the cheapest thing for him to do. I thoguht that he was going to go this a long time ago. But no he waited to the last minute like he always does. That makes me so mad. He promised me, and what did I do I got my hopes up like I always do. And what did he do? He let me down like he always does. When will I ever learn. I want to talk to him about it but i do not know with out makeing it into an argurement or him saything that he is going to come. Maybe he can take me on a real date for a change. I do not know but I can not, not tell him. I can't just let him think that I am ok with this. I have been looking forward to him comming down here and meeting all of my friends since I have been here. But it seems like it is never the right time. I don't know, it's never the right time for him when it comes to me and I do not understand why not. When I am always doing things for him. When will he do something to make me happy. When? When?
~joslyn~