so yeaaaa
we may have started off with the worst intentions, but baby i've grown to love you, your the only boy that can make me cry, smile, laugh, sigh and everything else all in one conversation. your the only one i can tell everything to and know that no matter what i do, no matter what i say.. you'll always be there, your always there with open arms, if im ever scared you hold me tight and tell me its all gonna be alright and you're not gonna let anything or anyone mess with me, whenever i need someone to talk to cause im upset or mad, your there without the thought of ever leaving, you can calm me down like no other. you spend your whole night talking to me on the phone tellin me im your one and only baby and how much you love me and how you wanna be with me forever.. nobody's ever gonna be able to replace all the feelings i have for you, you were my first real love, it might have started off as just a little game and we both thought it wasn't gonna last this long, but as soon as we broke up the first time, i realized how much you meant to me and how bad i wanted to be with you, we both have messed up in the past, we've said some hurtful stuff, we've done some messed up shit to eachother, we've broke up.. but through all that immature bullshit, one thing that always remained to growing stronger was the feelings i have for you, the butterflys in my stomach, the smile glued to my face, my heart beating like crazy, everything.. i knew it wasn't ever really gonna be over between us and i cant explain how happy i am that we both stoped with the little games and finally agreed to settle down for a long lasting relationship, we've been off and on since August, but these past months we've had together made the year seem like nothing, it feels like i've been with you for so much longer. We may get into fights and may be complete selfish dumbass's to eachother ,but deep down we both know that theres nothing that can come between us, not the stupid lies people make up, the gay people, the silly fights, nothing. when i tell you i wanna be with you forever, i mean it with everything i got, you're the best thing that has ever happend to me, some people might think we weren't meant to be, some people might not want us together, but we know what we want and we know that no matter what happens, we're gonna be together. i've met pretty much everyone in your family, you know who my family is, we have the same friends, we're always together, nobody sees one of us on the weekend without the other one glued to eachothers side.. some people might think its annoying but they should know its not something thats gonna stop. i have no idea what im gonna do without you for a few months, your my world and so much more, this is gonna be really hard.. but as strong as we are and as much love as we have for eachother, i know we can make it, we can make it though anything. i love you with all my heart Joshua, you hear people sayin they "love" somebody all the time, but i put more meaning behind the word love then i could ever explain, theres just no me without you; i wanna be with you forever baby & i mean it from the bottom of my heart