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[jczbabygirl]

one question.. why.. why cant i stop thinking about it.. why cant people just learn to leave me alone.. why cant anyone these days stay faithful.. WHY.. why do i feel this way.. even if it isnt true.. why cant i just forget about it and be inlove with him.. why cant i just drop everything and come home.. and get this shit settled.. why cant i just knock this bitch in the face for all the drama shes causing. why cant i have a decent relationship where i dont have to deal with drama starting cunts almost every day.. this is rediculous.. im so tired of this. im tired of listening to the same thing every time.. im tired of feeling like im losing my entire world bit by bit each day.. sooner or later im not going to have anything left.. because everyone is going to take it away from me. i can never be happy.. i now will prolly never get the chance to have a family.. because stress got rid of it.. i*ll never be happy because people cant learn to stay out of my relationship. what have i ever done to deserve this. all i want is to be happy. but noooo cant do that.. then id actually get my way for once.. and thats not good.. i hate elmira... and i swear to god that as soon as i save enough money im out of this town for good.. i swear to fucking god on everything that i still have..

god i really dont feel good.. i hurt terribly.. maybe hopefully.. i really am dying.