TWW
There is so much I should be writing, all these days, all this time.
Things, like
.I love Chile. It's funny how, usually, people dont really embrace their "nationality" until they leave. Anyways, that was my case, now I feel big time melancholic watching the news, documentaries, reading my friend's blogs and looking at pictures of the parties Im missing, or watching comedy shows that no one but a chilean would understand and laugh at, feeling happy about small things,small triumphs, that again, only chileans would appreciate; Looking at my friend's current lives, I realize how our bond gets weaker and weaker.
I got my third job today, hopefully that would also mean free sushi and constant thai iced tea.
It's all for the dream...
I have done a lot of research and planing for my trip to europe this summer. I'd meet up with my german friends and the italian family. I'd miss josh's return 'cause he is too ghey to come in April. But mostly, I'd be doing something I've been wanting to do for many, many years. I really hope this project happens, Im excited excited excited, it makes me smile when things go bad.
School doesnt start until next week. This should had been my last semester but it wasnt. I like it, because im super not ready to finish school, I dont think i want to start working for real anytime soon, and most importantly, I dont want to change the status quo. After Im done with shool Im supposed to leave and honestly I feel the world's weight on my shoulders because of that. There are many factors - for example, I HAVE to go because I'm on a student's visa, my family here, my family there, the potential jobs, M, familiar responsibilities and expectations, etc - The good thing is that I dont have to think about it now, or next year because Im doing one year practical training thing, like a paid internship. I also have to think about Grad school and how Im going to pay for it.
I work at admissions and I know all these people that have scholarship and Ah!!!!!!!! I super want one. All my work never paid off. I had a 4.0 from high school but Im not going to School in Chile, and here Im international so there is nothing! and GPA during College is useless too. That super pisses me off!
I like the winter but i didnt do anything extraordinary during the break, which is pretty bad. I barely see my roommates anymore and I feel the bond is weaker again. I dont see TPC either,( besides from the 2 weeks in a row parties), In conclusion I have no bond with no one and I dont spend time with no one either. Im not even writing a lot, im not even reading a lot. I havent touched my guitar in weeks.
Second conclusion, Im not doing anything with no one.
Just work, and school and I wasnt even going to school. My social skills are worse everyday, I should email my best friend from middle school and say hey, here is my soul, here is what's going on. But I havent, and I wont. I just eat all the thoughts and all the feelings.
But again, Praha Summer 07! and Easter Europe Discovery!!
Things, like
.I love Chile. It's funny how, usually, people dont really embrace their "nationality" until they leave. Anyways, that was my case, now I feel big time melancholic watching the news, documentaries, reading my friend's blogs and looking at pictures of the parties Im missing, or watching comedy shows that no one but a chilean would understand and laugh at, feeling happy about small things,small triumphs, that again, only chileans would appreciate; Looking at my friend's current lives, I realize how our bond gets weaker and weaker.
I got my third job today, hopefully that would also mean free sushi and constant thai iced tea.
It's all for the dream...
I have done a lot of research and planing for my trip to europe this summer. I'd meet up with my german friends and the italian family. I'd miss josh's return 'cause he is too ghey to come in April. But mostly, I'd be doing something I've been wanting to do for many, many years. I really hope this project happens, Im excited excited excited, it makes me smile when things go bad.
School doesnt start until next week. This should had been my last semester but it wasnt. I like it, because im super not ready to finish school, I dont think i want to start working for real anytime soon, and most importantly, I dont want to change the status quo. After Im done with shool Im supposed to leave and honestly I feel the world's weight on my shoulders because of that. There are many factors - for example, I HAVE to go because I'm on a student's visa, my family here, my family there, the potential jobs, M, familiar responsibilities and expectations, etc - The good thing is that I dont have to think about it now, or next year because Im doing one year practical training thing, like a paid internship. I also have to think about Grad school and how Im going to pay for it.
I work at admissions and I know all these people that have scholarship and Ah!!!!!!!! I super want one. All my work never paid off. I had a 4.0 from high school but Im not going to School in Chile, and here Im international so there is nothing! and GPA during College is useless too. That super pisses me off!
I like the winter but i didnt do anything extraordinary during the break, which is pretty bad. I barely see my roommates anymore and I feel the bond is weaker again. I dont see TPC either,( besides from the 2 weeks in a row parties), In conclusion I have no bond with no one and I dont spend time with no one either. Im not even writing a lot, im not even reading a lot. I havent touched my guitar in weeks.
Second conclusion, Im not doing anything with no one.
Just work, and school and I wasnt even going to school. My social skills are worse everyday, I should email my best friend from middle school and say hey, here is my soul, here is what's going on. But I havent, and I wont. I just eat all the thoughts and all the feelings.
But again, Praha Summer 07! and Easter Europe Discovery!!