BULLL SHIT BULL SHIT BULL SHIT
Well work was alright. I went to the OBGYN after work to do some test I needed to get done.. All the test were negative THANK GOD.. Then I went ahead and updated my depo so whatever. Then in my chart it said that my last breat exam was abnormal so the lady told me that and I was like no one told me that before. An so we did some Xrays and another breat exam come to find out that the lump they found in FEBRUARY that NO ONE told me about got BIGGER.. So now I gotta go get a damn mamagram to find out if it is a cancer cell.. Anyways... Immeditally when I got out Ic allee4d Nick and told him becase he had been worried most of the day then I called my step mom and I desided to Sue Exodus Womans Center.. (my OBGYN) Adn if it is cancerious I think i'm going to sue them for like 10 million just to be a bitch thats MALPRACTICE baby.. Fuck you you stupid ass people.. Anyways either way i'm probably going to get an attorny.. I think that it's fucked up the never mentioned there was a kump in my breast!!! Anyways Shellie just left. We been ahnging out alot lately.. She went with me to the doctors. Amber was suppost to go but she never showed up. Then when i fucking called her to tel her what the doctor said she goes "oh that sucks" i couldn't beleive that.. I'm sitting here telling you there is a good chance i got breat cancer and you say that sucks.. Anyways she is stuck up gregs ass how the could i even mention the fact i needed her support.. what a bad friend i am trying to pull her away from greg for something life threatening... I swear sometimes I wonder what the hell some people are thinking.. Anyways Nicholas and I are good. Nikki and Joey are still not togfether but Joey will go back to her his lil stripper left for a month so of course joey will go runnin back to nikki. Question is ... Is she dumb enough to take him back.... My stomach is all in nights about this bull shit with the doctor and my ear is still fucked up.. oh i didn't tell you that there is a cut on my inner ear lobe next to my fucking ear dru, my ear was bleeding theother day and i can hardly hear out of it... I don;t understand what the fucking problem is.. All I wanna be is a fucking mom taking care of her kids and it seems like anything that could possibly go wrong DOES.. Anyways i'm totally loking forward to GIRLS NIGHT OUT THURSDAY.. I need to get the hell away from everything and I need to clear my head., My mom called and said she wasn't taking JC again this weekend.. So I don't know what i'm going to do about that. Shawn had an interview today at my job but he never called to tell me how it went so I have no clue what is going on with that. I talked to him for a second today. And I have not seen him since mothers day.. I'm really glad I spent my mothers day with him, Shawn is such a postitive person he is like a pick me up.. Always so happy and untouchable sort of speak.. Its funny. We sat on the swings at sadie park for a while and jsut talked about thigns. since we had not seen each since like february... We had a good talk on the way home from Bville too. Anyways i'm going to go get my kids laid down I need to get some shit off my mind. So I'm probably going to go get in bed ...