Major birthday coming
In a few weeks I'll have a Big Birthday. Trying to finally have a party, something that for years has suffered the Birthday Curse, usually a blizzard, repeated weekend after weekend if necessary if I postpone the party. Being a major mega milestone number this year, and being so down otherwise I had high hopes this would be good.
Trouble is, I can't get anyone to come, so it's not making sense to spend money-- well, credit-- on an empty party. A new friend will DJ (in return for massages later), and found me a good place since I can't use the house. But except for one person, who for some reason can always be counted on to come all the way from North Babylon, all my old friends, the ones you want to be the backbone or any big event in your life, can't commit to that Sunday night. Or else haven't returned the call.
I know my life since starting this LJ has been a downer, but I'm trying. I just can't be enthusiastic about this without at least three friends I can count on showing up.
Trouble is, I can't get anyone to come, so it's not making sense to spend money-- well, credit-- on an empty party. A new friend will DJ (in return for massages later), and found me a good place since I can't use the house. But except for one person, who for some reason can always be counted on to come all the way from North Babylon, all my old friends, the ones you want to be the backbone or any big event in your life, can't commit to that Sunday night. Or else haven't returned the call.
I know my life since starting this LJ has been a downer, but I'm trying. I just can't be enthusiastic about this without at least three friends I can count on showing up.