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went 2 a meeting at my moms house, I brought my daughter along with the rest of my fam 2.Things went well, my daughter got restless twords the end so we decided 2 go home .thinking she was tired, but mostly for the rest of us who had 2 goto work/school in the morn.
wellp dinner went off without a hitch, n let aryana out of the chair, n she said her goodnights 2 mom n big bro.gave her night cap(a warm cup o milk)
and proceded 2 go have my last smoke of the night.thinking she was cotent.
And then she lost it, n i put out a newly lit one to go tend 2 her, c whats up, dyper dry(check), bottel -half full/empty (check)and so forth,why was my daughter acting so whiney?So she told me... now i under stand some of what shes sayin,but something bout going car ride 2 drandmas , n no grampa( as her face just contorts n lets out big tears n sniffels, conposes hersel n coumntines this grampa / grams thing 4 over 40 mins, as we sat in our rocking chair, i held her we jabbrd n drank a new bottle of warm milk , rocked herself 2 sleep.and now it hits me she fineally knows that grampas gone.
and this my friends us wht we chose 4 our daughter not 2 join us at the memorial.(she did come n join us 4 the actual funeral servace)
not 2 b mean but we knew if she saw that huge pic of him , she would have lost it 4 sure.I know it will b a lot easyer 2 talk with her when we can actually have a conversation( some adults need 2 learn this ability 2 comunicate).
but I cant expect a hole lot from her ither at 19months going on 20.
reason again 4 me 2 let go certain bad habits.
wellp dinner went off without a hitch, n let aryana out of the chair, n she said her goodnights 2 mom n big bro.gave her night cap(a warm cup o milk)
and proceded 2 go have my last smoke of the night.thinking she was cotent.
And then she lost it, n i put out a newly lit one to go tend 2 her, c whats up, dyper dry(check), bottel -half full/empty (check)and so forth,why was my daughter acting so whiney?So she told me... now i under stand some of what shes sayin,but something bout going car ride 2 drandmas , n no grampa( as her face just contorts n lets out big tears n sniffels, conposes hersel n coumntines this grampa / grams thing 4 over 40 mins, as we sat in our rocking chair, i held her we jabbrd n drank a new bottle of warm milk , rocked herself 2 sleep.and now it hits me she fineally knows that grampas gone.
and this my friends us wht we chose 4 our daughter not 2 join us at the memorial.(she did come n join us 4 the actual funeral servace)
not 2 b mean but we knew if she saw that huge pic of him , she would have lost it 4 sure.I know it will b a lot easyer 2 talk with her when we can actually have a conversation( some adults need 2 learn this ability 2 comunicate).
but I cant expect a hole lot from her ither at 19months going on 20.
reason again 4 me 2 let go certain bad habits.