Muse
The Muses
in Greek mythology, poetry, and literature are the goddesses or spirits who inspire the creation of literature and the arts. They were considered the source of the knowledge, related orally for centuries in the ancient culture, that was contained in poetic lyrics and myths.
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Okay. So, I think I've found mine. She always sparks a creativity in me, so much so, that I find it difficult to keep it in. And so I write. I wrote something because of her that is VERY unlike anything I've ever written before. I was talking with her and when we disconnected, I couldn't just sit there, I had to write it down. I only did a single pass, no rewrites.
And then I sent it to her.
Shit.
Technically, it's not about her. It is fictional. But it's certainly because of her that I wrote it.
She hasn't read it yet. In fact, I let her know my hesitation in sending it to her so now she's hesitant to read it. I do want her opinion on it, but I also want to know how it makes her feel. To me it's a very emotional and personal thing, but I couldn't stop myself from sharing it with her. The flip side to that is this: She is not mine to be had. And I don't want to be any part of her ending a relationship with anyone else. No, I'm not that conceited. It's just that I will never be the other guy. And the content of this piece can be considered pushing that line between friendship and something more. So, I told her my concerns with that and she told me that I had nothing to worry about. Good, great. I sent it.
Shit.
She's going to read it.
Shit.
I hope it's better than I think it is.
Gid