disgusted!
I am so fuckin disgusted with myself I can't even fuckin stand it! My husband wouldn't leave for work because I wouldn't tell him that I loved him...I know we need his income, we can't afford for him to lose this job, so I told him I loved him, even though I don't, I couldn't look at him when I said it, I knew if I did he would be able to see the truth in my eyes, and I don't think I could have lied right to his face, not about this...
Why can't I find the courage to just be done with this sham of a marriage? I have to figure my life out so that I can get my license and a car and a full time job, and get myself to the point that the next time he does this I can look him in the eyes and say "NO, I don't love you, and I don't want to be with you anymore!"
Why can't I find the courage to just be done with this sham of a marriage? I have to figure my life out so that I can get my license and a car and a full time job, and get myself to the point that the next time he does this I can look him in the eyes and say "NO, I don't love you, and I don't want to be with you anymore!"