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i feel much brighter than last time. tumbling in many flows.
i went to a hilarious show last night. i don't like to admit it but i still get a kick out of seeing my friends circle-jerking up there on stage. talent or feigning talent, most attractive thing ever. and lately it seems that everybody is so beautiful! the cold makes me want to get my cuddle on with everyone. unfortunately, that's not a major theme in the group these days. having trouble finding people who are cool with physicality, now that i am (mostly) cool with physicality, which might have something to do with this rather large mirror that came with the place, facing my bed. i take my clothes off in front of it (at first for lack of other place to do so) practically every time i take my clothes off and it has forced me to acknowledge my body and enabled me to feel an entirely new way about it. can't help it.
february already. noah's a year old, just one. wonder if he'll remember any of it for years to come...? remember how long a year used to feel? i've had my nose pierced for a year. i've been working at beano for a year. i've been eating better for a year, mostly. i've been cutting out the weed for a year. i've been getting on with getting on. and it's getting better!
i went to a hilarious show last night. i don't like to admit it but i still get a kick out of seeing my friends circle-jerking up there on stage. talent or feigning talent, most attractive thing ever. and lately it seems that everybody is so beautiful! the cold makes me want to get my cuddle on with everyone. unfortunately, that's not a major theme in the group these days. having trouble finding people who are cool with physicality, now that i am (mostly) cool with physicality, which might have something to do with this rather large mirror that came with the place, facing my bed. i take my clothes off in front of it (at first for lack of other place to do so) practically every time i take my clothes off and it has forced me to acknowledge my body and enabled me to feel an entirely new way about it. can't help it.
february already. noah's a year old, just one. wonder if he'll remember any of it for years to come...? remember how long a year used to feel? i've had my nose pierced for a year. i've been working at beano for a year. i've been eating better for a year, mostly. i've been cutting out the weed for a year. i've been getting on with getting on. and it's getting better!