Damn...Time flies....The life of a parent...
Man..on tomorrow I will have a 1year old..Jahaziel Jeremiah-Reyne Nottingham will be 1...
I remember this time last year, I had jus decided on his name...as a matter of fact, I was trying to go into labor with his overactive ass...at exactly this time last year, I was eating a big ass bowl of oddlenoodle with half a bottle of hot sauce and crushed red pepper. My mouf was on fire...but I kept eating, because I had read somewhere that spicy food induce labor...
How time flies....I remember first realizing I was pregnant, and trying so hard to not believe it...but those little flutters that wouldnt go away were all the proof I needed. I remember being soooo hungry, but having no desire to eat. I remember feeling arms and legs kicking the shit outta me for eating ice, or taking a shower....I remember having "space wars" between Jailynne, Jahaziel and myself...and always fucking losing...
At times, I sit back and wonder will my next pregnancy go as "smoothly" as this one did. I wonder if my next baby will be as spoiled as my boy, or will be as loving or affectionate, or as inquisitive.
This has been the most eventful year I've ever experienced. While its had its ups and downs, it has been the most rewarding. I have a beautiful son, who went from being fat and lazy and spoiled...to a joyful, fat, spoiled, overactive toddler. I have a quiet, talkative(yeah, thats an oxymoron if there ever was one), loving, sensitve cancer, who thoroughly enjoys being girly, and making others feel loved.
I also was blessed with two of the most carring, sensitve, BRATTY ass women, who have helped me in ways that are only imaginable. I am so lucky to have met them when I did, because now, thanks to them, I am finally getting to live my life as an adult, and make mistakes, and learn from them. I also am learning how to be a better lover, mother, wife, friend, and sister.
So...to them. I say I love you more than words can express...well, most of the time at least.
And to my babybrats...I will go to the ends of the earth to see you smile, and I will do everything in my power to give you everything your heart desires...within reason..lmao!
TO my baby boy, well, toddler: I love you more and more everyday. The love I have for you will never change, even when you stand a foot taller than me, and wider than the kitchen door. You are my first born son, who taught me that it's possible to love more than one child. You are my shadow, my spitting image. And I will be with you in every step you take in life, from your first to your very last.
To my Bambi: I love you for being patient with me while I figured out how to balance you and lilman...I love you because you are the reason I am a mother in the first place. Thank you for being the caring, thoughtful, and loving lil girl that you, for reminding me that I am a girl, and as such, should teach you to be a woman, for making me realize that everything I do will affect you, and I should spend more time thinking things through, for loving me when I didnt love myself, and most of all, for being BAMBI!!!
Love always,
Jennifer aka Mommy aka MAMAMAMAMAMA aka J*Babi/J*Boo
I remember this time last year, I had jus decided on his name...as a matter of fact, I was trying to go into labor with his overactive ass...at exactly this time last year, I was eating a big ass bowl of oddlenoodle with half a bottle of hot sauce and crushed red pepper. My mouf was on fire...but I kept eating, because I had read somewhere that spicy food induce labor...
How time flies....I remember first realizing I was pregnant, and trying so hard to not believe it...but those little flutters that wouldnt go away were all the proof I needed. I remember being soooo hungry, but having no desire to eat. I remember feeling arms and legs kicking the shit outta me for eating ice, or taking a shower....I remember having "space wars" between Jailynne, Jahaziel and myself...and always fucking losing...
At times, I sit back and wonder will my next pregnancy go as "smoothly" as this one did. I wonder if my next baby will be as spoiled as my boy, or will be as loving or affectionate, or as inquisitive.
This has been the most eventful year I've ever experienced. While its had its ups and downs, it has been the most rewarding. I have a beautiful son, who went from being fat and lazy and spoiled...to a joyful, fat, spoiled, overactive toddler. I have a quiet, talkative(yeah, thats an oxymoron if there ever was one), loving, sensitve cancer, who thoroughly enjoys being girly, and making others feel loved.
I also was blessed with two of the most carring, sensitve, BRATTY ass women, who have helped me in ways that are only imaginable. I am so lucky to have met them when I did, because now, thanks to them, I am finally getting to live my life as an adult, and make mistakes, and learn from them. I also am learning how to be a better lover, mother, wife, friend, and sister.
So...to them. I say I love you more than words can express...well, most of the time at least.
And to my babybrats...I will go to the ends of the earth to see you smile, and I will do everything in my power to give you everything your heart desires...within reason..lmao!
TO my baby boy, well, toddler: I love you more and more everyday. The love I have for you will never change, even when you stand a foot taller than me, and wider than the kitchen door. You are my first born son, who taught me that it's possible to love more than one child. You are my shadow, my spitting image. And I will be with you in every step you take in life, from your first to your very last.
To my Bambi: I love you for being patient with me while I figured out how to balance you and lilman...I love you because you are the reason I am a mother in the first place. Thank you for being the caring, thoughtful, and loving lil girl that you, for reminding me that I am a girl, and as such, should teach you to be a woman, for making me realize that everything I do will affect you, and I should spend more time thinking things through, for loving me when I didnt love myself, and most of all, for being BAMBI!!!
Love always,
Jennifer aka Mommy aka MAMAMAMAMAMA aka J*Babi/J*Boo