I really, really, really, REALLY love chocolate....
Ok...so mother nature decided to grace me with the presence of the bodily function that gives us girlies the ability to make lil girlies and boys...Ima cuss eve's ass out when I get to heaven, cuz if her dumbass wouldnt have eaten the apple, we wouldnt have to go through the abomonation that is childbirth....thats why I dont like women...(but I have 2 girlfriends....lmao)
This is one of my worse cycles...its not even the "normal" part that bothers me, cuz thats actually been amazingly light(TMI...I kno, I kno), its the hormonal part that is driving me up the fuckin wall. Every little thing hurts my feelings...its like, everyone is purposly being mean to me. I'm superhypersensitive and I hate the way I feel. Everything jus....arrrrgghhhh..irritates me. So I'm trying not to stay around ppl too much today, for sake of not crying.
And its really pissin me off. Last night, Midnight was being mean, as usual, and usually, I can take her jokes...I accept that she's being a goofball, and pretend like it hurts my feelings and we move the hell on..But last night, it was really bothering me. I felt like the shit she was sayin was how she really feels...which in a way, she very well may, but at the same time...oh i dunno....it was really hurting my feelings. And I told her, so now she's all..."well, ima be serious with you like I am with Queenie"....and Im like, "fuck, thats why I dont say shit in the first place." We laugh, we talk shit, we crack jokes. Thats what we do. And now Im feeling bad because I feel like Im makin her change something about herself in order to make me happy.....
Dammit, I like jokin with her. Its fun, it keeps me on my toes. Cuz i gotta think fast in order to keep up with her ass..lol. And now, she's takin that away. LIke, I'm bored. We havent really talked today, and while its bothering me, I also feel like she's mad at me or somthing...I dont think I've gotten any good vibes off her today.
Hey, Guess what?!?! THey've been together 7months today...(4 years and 7months)...I think its really sweet that they keep up with it like that. I woulda been stopped doin the month shit after the first fuckin year..lol. But I guess you do lil shit like that in a relationship to keep each other happy. :)
Im really tired. Thats another reason why I hate this period...I have never been sooo fuckin drained in all my life. I feel like I ran a fuckin marathon...which, I will admit, I am out of shape like a muthafucka..lol. but still, I'm sooo very tired. I jus wanna lay down and sleep the rest of the day. I also have a fuckin headache, and I dont kno why...I took some meds. this mornin cuz my body was achin really bad, but it left me feeling...loopy and headachey...lol.
I need to be held. But I dont wanna deal with ppl right now. I jus wanna lay in one of their arms...maybe Queenie will let me lay on her big, beautiful boobies and take a nap..lol....But i kinda want Daddii to hold me...Fuck it, I want to be sang to...or read poetry to...something. I dunno...I need physical contact, but everything feels...off today. Its too hot, its too ichy, my tummy dont feel right. I feel like...my skin is wiggling....I need something to center me. I may mime later on today...since the brats are gone...
I have some chocolate cake, with chocolate fudge icing. It is really really REALLY good...I meant to save some for TJ, but I forgot...I wanted someone to eat chocolate with. But I have brownies and cake...mmmmm...cake...yummy...and mac and cheese with sausage...yummy. It made me feel a lot better emotionally, but I still feel....like, ugh, yucky yucky, blah, *yawn*......I dunno how to explain it.
I jus made myself hungry...Im gonna see if I can convince Queenie to make the mac and cheese with sausage now...*BIG ASS YAWN*...after my nap. Oh, and after I finish readin the post Daddii did earlier.
This is one of my worse cycles...its not even the "normal" part that bothers me, cuz thats actually been amazingly light(TMI...I kno, I kno), its the hormonal part that is driving me up the fuckin wall. Every little thing hurts my feelings...its like, everyone is purposly being mean to me. I'm superhypersensitive and I hate the way I feel. Everything jus....arrrrgghhhh..irritates me. So I'm trying not to stay around ppl too much today, for sake of not crying.
And its really pissin me off. Last night, Midnight was being mean, as usual, and usually, I can take her jokes...I accept that she's being a goofball, and pretend like it hurts my feelings and we move the hell on..But last night, it was really bothering me. I felt like the shit she was sayin was how she really feels...which in a way, she very well may, but at the same time...oh i dunno....it was really hurting my feelings. And I told her, so now she's all..."well, ima be serious with you like I am with Queenie"....and Im like, "fuck, thats why I dont say shit in the first place." We laugh, we talk shit, we crack jokes. Thats what we do. And now Im feeling bad because I feel like Im makin her change something about herself in order to make me happy.....
Dammit, I like jokin with her. Its fun, it keeps me on my toes. Cuz i gotta think fast in order to keep up with her ass..lol. And now, she's takin that away. LIke, I'm bored. We havent really talked today, and while its bothering me, I also feel like she's mad at me or somthing...I dont think I've gotten any good vibes off her today.
Hey, Guess what?!?! THey've been together 7months today...(4 years and 7months)...I think its really sweet that they keep up with it like that. I woulda been stopped doin the month shit after the first fuckin year..lol. But I guess you do lil shit like that in a relationship to keep each other happy. :)
Im really tired. Thats another reason why I hate this period...I have never been sooo fuckin drained in all my life. I feel like I ran a fuckin marathon...which, I will admit, I am out of shape like a muthafucka..lol. but still, I'm sooo very tired. I jus wanna lay down and sleep the rest of the day. I also have a fuckin headache, and I dont kno why...I took some meds. this mornin cuz my body was achin really bad, but it left me feeling...loopy and headachey...lol.
I need to be held. But I dont wanna deal with ppl right now. I jus wanna lay in one of their arms...maybe Queenie will let me lay on her big, beautiful boobies and take a nap..lol....But i kinda want Daddii to hold me...Fuck it, I want to be sang to...or read poetry to...something. I dunno...I need physical contact, but everything feels...off today. Its too hot, its too ichy, my tummy dont feel right. I feel like...my skin is wiggling....I need something to center me. I may mime later on today...since the brats are gone...
I have some chocolate cake, with chocolate fudge icing. It is really really REALLY good...I meant to save some for TJ, but I forgot...I wanted someone to eat chocolate with. But I have brownies and cake...mmmmm...cake...yummy...and mac and cheese with sausage...yummy. It made me feel a lot better emotionally, but I still feel....like, ugh, yucky yucky, blah, *yawn*......I dunno how to explain it.
I jus made myself hungry...Im gonna see if I can convince Queenie to make the mac and cheese with sausage now...*BIG ASS YAWN*...after my nap. Oh, and after I finish readin the post Daddii did earlier.